When one does not feel in harmony with a person or group of people...

[Aloneness]

I don't like being angry, but i am and that's ok. In a way i'm also afraid of my own anger, it's quite forceful and it would be nice to turn it in to something more fruitful.

I don't know if this helps, but maybe you can try turn this forceful anger into forceful love? Kinda like playing devil's advocate with yourself. Once you get a feel of how it feels like to express love regardless, then get rid of the forcefulness. I tried this when dealing with people, very odd when people including myself expect anything but gratitude. But I feel better afterwards because I didn't slip into the trap of "eye for an eye", feel uplifted and more understanding of why anger is not necessary at all, we are not bound to it.

I'm a bit confused about the the anger, still. Because I feel as if I've been doing all those things for a long time. At least, always to the best of my abilities at that particular moment.
I think it has something to do with the fact that I've always felt so extremely vulnerable compared to other folks but for me it's a perfectly normal state of being. People sometimes tend to find me unrealistic, a dreamer, intrusive, selfish or arrogant, for me it is a perfectly normal state of being. I think I'm capable of seeing things quite clearly but it's frustrating when I don't really know how to say it without hurting other peoples feelings and I feel as if nobody really wants to hear it anyway. So, that's why I was born angry, I guess.

Lots to ponder about, thank you all.

You can try to hold an intention all the time like "I don't want to be angry anymore" or even better "I want to see all as love, all as creation". Try to refrain from vocally express anger to people or curse, when you feel angry, think about how you don't want to be angry. After you calm down think deeply about the reason for your anger, like "I am angry because I don't accept this kind of behavior... " Basically let the desire to accept sink into your deeper mind. If you did express anger, reflect on it and try to refrain and reflect in the future. It helps if you can spend some quite time with yourself.

To me medication daily is essential and make it much easier to learn lessens. Nearly all my progress is made after I started meditation.

I find it easier to understand the reason on a intellectual level first, then hold the firm intention to change myself. Most likely you won't see why you are angry right away, holding the desire to see through works the same.

Well, I've learned that I'm afraid to go totally bonkers so when I'm not centered or off balance it often feels as if someone is misleading me or trying to control me and that's when I implode quite easily. It's like all hell breaks loose internally but I'm almost always able to keep a straight face and remain calm on the outside, It's a rather hazardous situation and a very, very dark and toxic place to be.
I believe I've come to understand more about it on a concious level though and I appreciate your perspective very much. Thank you.