Acceptance and balancing

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I guess what I'm getting at with the idea of "controlling circumstances" is that for my entire life, I feel like I am pretty much just floating around aimlessly adrift at sea. Don't get me wrong, I have had many adventures along the way and have made many self-discoveries. But, having no map or course for the future becomes a concern once marriage and finances become major responsibilities/duties. Seems like "controlling circumstances" is a must when carrying out ones duty...

There's lots to work with there. Feeling adrift. The need to be responsible. Orange ray (personal self-discovery) vs yellow ray (marriage, finance, duty).

I understand the balancing exercises to have to do with attitudes and emotions. How does the perceived need to control circumstances make you feel? What's your attitude towards responsibility? Etc.