05-09-2013, 07:07 AM
When my grandfather died a couple months ago, I only shed a few tears at the moment I found then none at his funeral. As soon as the sadness of the loss came about, I suddenly remembered that not only did he get to escape this illusion, he also finally got his wish which was to die. He had been wishing such for 15 years ever since my grandmother died thus he pretty much closed all of us out since then. He would occasionally agree to come over for holidays but then leave shortly after it started. I always had the feeling that he was riddled with guilt and regret regarding my grandmother so any family type events always reminded him of her.
While at his funeral, I was dumbfounded for one as I couldn't understand the silly ritualistic military style service but because everyone was so sad. They just weren't aware of what lies on the other side so I just stood trying not to smile for the sake if looking out of place.
Instead of it being a time of celebration, most just wept which is the main reason why I just don't believe in the way funerals are done.
While at his funeral, I was dumbfounded for one as I couldn't understand the silly ritualistic military style service but because everyone was so sad. They just weren't aware of what lies on the other side so I just stood trying not to smile for the sake if looking out of place.
Instead of it being a time of celebration, most just wept which is the main reason why I just don't believe in the way funerals are done.