I open my heart chakra and I feel only pain...

[Adonai One]

As you don't mind it inhere.

I will do a reading now.
I will make contact with your energy system.. and see what your higher self wants to show me.

The first thing I notice is my feet getting cold. It means you are not grounded well. I feel pressure on my shoulders, like something is weighing you down. It;s like a sad emotion. Sadness is weighing you down. Now I know that sadness is mostly around the heart chakra, so this could be what you are feeling when you try to open your heart chakra. And you SHOULD open your heart chakra because it has been closed for a long time. There is a river of sadness surrounding it, with a wall surrounding the river. So when you open your heart chakra, you open the gate.. the water (sadness) is pouring out. This is actually a good thing...because it gives you the opportunity to feel it and heal your heart chakra. The sadness I feel is sadness of a little child who doesn't feel wanted by his parents. He wants to be loved so badly, but he doesn't get it the way he really wants it. Maybe you were given love by your parents that wasn't unconditional. Maybe it was only Love when you were doing the right things in their eyes. I think you had to dishonor yourself in order to get the love you wanted. In order to stop feeling this pain you have put the wall around it. Now it is time to feel it. Dear Adonai just let it flow out, the water, it will be flowing for a little while. But remember it stops. After you have truly felt this pain and made it your own, you will be able to feel love once again. Your whole life you have been in your mind, because you couldn't feel the Love anymore because of the wall. You are very well developed in your mind, but the balance is no longer there. It is time to move outside of your mind with your energy and go down to your heart. Your heart is the centre of your being. It is where you can reside in Love, in happiness. When you start your journey down you will be able to have a better grounding as well.

I also feel my third chakra now. It is hurting and I feel pain in my calves as well. When I ask what this means I hear anger. You are angry about something. It has to do with your family. Especially your parents. So the anger is situated around your third chakra, its a flaming anger.
My guide Ellai actually says it would be better to open up your heart chakra first, so that you can send the Love energy wich resides there to your third chakra to help heal it. What will also help you is listening to the solfeggioscale of 528 Hz. 528 Hz
This vibration is the Love vibration wich actually heals your DNA.

What I truly need to express is that it is ok to cry. It keeps popping in my mind: just cry, cry. Let it out and let it go. It's ok. This is what healing truly is about: feeling the pain.



I hope you recognize this. And I would love your feedback.

This resonates very well with me. Especially the "dishonor" part. You are right on and very insightful.

The only part that surprised me was the anger towards my parents. That may be there in my unconcious. It's something I need to look through. You are likely correct. Let's just say I don't prefer the choices my parents made for me.

You have my full appreciation, Ellai. Thank you so much for your service!

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I will be letting it out when emotion is felt.