why did you come to planet Earth?

[caycegal]

I believe my special service may have to do with my ability to soak and clear energy.

I say this because I'm very sensitive to energy. One on one, if someone has turbulent energy, I feel it directly. In a crowd, I'm ok, unless the crowd generally has energy/feelings all of a similar nature, then it's overwhelming.

However, ever since I learned to bring in energy from my crown and have it exit through my feet, I've noticed that whenever I feel this energy, I can clear it from myself, and seemingly from others, by bringing in energy from the crown and having it exit through my feet. According to feedback from one of my friends, the effect is similar to what happens when a large crystal cluster is placed in a room of someone who is angry and is trying to calm down but can't. It's like that angry energy just pours away and disappears instead of building. My friend described it as energy feels more settled in the room, and calm.

I'm only starting to put together the pieces of ability this month, since I've noticed I can still clear energy constantly while doing something that doesn't require intense focus - like I can send energy out my feet while making light smalltalk, or driving. I'm practicing doing it in more and more situations when turbulent energy arises.

Basically, I don't know if its something super special, but sometimes I feel like a crystal battery, if that makes any sense.

Thanks for this helpful info. Do you have any more details to share about this technique? I have used something a little similar. You are inspiring me to practice in the way you have described, as I am also very sensitive to energy and emotions.

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Hmm, Im not sure that question can be answered in terms of ease.

The dark path was endless struggle, and endless uphill battle against one's own truest nature, and thus one suffers continously. I have died many times, in many horrific ways, and killed others in perhaps worse ways. I have waged war, walked the battlefields of blood, destruction and power and had endless flingings of curses (many of which I have had to work to unbind myself from in this life). I have gained and lost power time and time again and tried in every manner to achieve my own absolute power with futile effort.

When I was on the dark path, I did not recognize these things. I was so obsessed with my visions, my ambitions, myself that nothing else except my own existence was meaningless, and even my own existence was but a tool for my ultimate desire for ceasing, to return all to nothingness and end what I saw as a purposeless existence. I destroyed both light and dark alike, nothing was all that was sacred.

This path began in pain, began with my own mortal tortures, and the fragmentation of my consciousnes. The path of darkness begins with a severence of the self from all others, to the extent that all others are seen only as pawns to be moved in to place within the self. It began with the LOSS OF LOVE. I did not walk the dark path always, but I fell and descended in to the very pits of the Abyss through my own rejection. I was deeply in love, but then I drank the waters of forgetfulness for the first time and lost myself, and forgot my love, and became the Beast of Beasts.

Then, as I began to remember, as I came back to my senses over many lives, I grew in sorrow, I grew in shame and guilt, and eventually desired my own ceasing so much that I sank lower and lower until all there was was Nothingness. Yet, even there, I did not cease to be, for though I rejected myself, the love that ever remembered me called to me, called and called until suddenly... I awoke in this body.

At first, I clung to my old ways, to the seeds of darkness in my mind, but that was no longer my true path, and slowly the fantasies and delusions slipped away to reveal pristine truth. I had followed the negative path and gone to its end, realize absolute Creatorhood and used it to end my existence, to become Nothing, to cease, and yet, I still AM.

This was the dissolution of the ultimate illusion of self, that was the illusion of my own power. The illusion of control.

I realized that I am not the Infinite Creator in its entirety, but a portion. That I am the Infinite Creator, but so is everything and everyone else, and therefore, I am not the greatest power in existence. That there is a nature that accomodates my every selfish desire without judging me, without hating me or stopping me, and I does this with everyone.

I stopped being jealous of the Creators love for others, and stopped hiding from its love for me. It could no longer be justified by power. I could no longer reject the part of myself that is the "other".

So, what is the difficulty of the path of light I now strive to walk (for it is always a striving)? The release of myself, my ego and everything I thought I am. I have to face the enourmous shadow I have cast and reintegrate it in to my being. I have had to let go of my desires, my lusts, my fascinations and fantasies which are in denial of the eternal truth. I have had to let go of my very identity, my very individual existence and make the ultimate self sacrifice to awaken myself to the Truth. I had to let myself die, that I may be reborn in the Light, and the death of my ego opened up a field of infinite potential that I had long since forgotten.

My task now is to remember so fully that I shall never forget again, that I may once again experience the love that I forgot time and time again. I am doing so, and it is both wonderful and more terrifying than any darkness I have ever faced. I can handle the darkness and the despair, but this love and light excites and inspires me in a way that I have only just begun to comprehend once again.

I was lost, and now I am found, and it was Love that found me.

HOLY COW......how do you know all that stuff in such detail, I mean is it just a feeling or have you had past life regression or dreams or what?

I ask because I have NO idea who I was or what I did in any past life,I couldnt even begin to guess and that kinda bugs me, makes me wonder why and I think Im a pretty in-tune person, I feel I know and am honest about who Iam, and yet I have no sense of even having a pastlife but know Im an old soul, figure I must be because of where Iam and the lessons learned in this life but I guess I could be wrong!!

Im just very intrigued and alil(very very lil) sad that Im not as in tune with myself as I thought!!

How does it come so easily( or maybe it wasnt ) to you?
Is it alot of meditating?

Ive tried asking for help with this before I go to sleep,thinking maybe Id dream about it but I rarely remember my dreams!!!

Just wish I had that kinda connection but then again maybe Im not suppose to or am not ready for that kinda knowledge!!!

Guess whatever will be shall be!!!

Maybe it has something to do with your concept of "knowing." For me (can't speak for others here) over years of study I have come to understand that everyone has a "story" they believe and tell themselves about their life. Some people believe in "objective reality," which in my universe does not exist except in the form of "God" (All-That-Is, the Force, The Creator - whatever you call it.) At any level below that of the Creator, there is no objective reality. Everything is, as Ra so brilliantly describes it, a distortion of The One.