Crying over humanity

[Ankh]

I have found myself depressed, almost to the point of tears, and far beyond that point in the last 3 months or so. The truth is that I know why, but I don't know how to deal with it. The feeling (and conscious/unconscious decision) is that I'm taking in the suffering around me, in order to relieve it from others. However, I worry that it's actually starting to affect my ability to serve, at work and at home, such that I start to feel like I'm being lazy and letting others serve me where I want to serve them.

So my little rant is actually more about how other wanderers deal with it. I know I'm not the only passive radiator that was incarnated to be bogged down by taking on suffering.

How have you learned to recognize when you have taken too much? How have you learned when your armor has been weakened? How have you learned to hold back the psychic attacks that are preventing you from doing more (I'm actually not sure if the psychic attacks or the taking on of suffering is draining more energy)? Is this all about learning to balance compassion and wisdom, and I'm just not fully there yet? Is it time yet that I can shed this chemical body and do more (I'm so tired; beyond all I have known up to this point)? How can I continue when I'm so tired, but have so much youth left to use?

I understand what you are saying and in some form I've been through this myself. I deal and dealt with this in the past by just trying to understand my self. If I feel suffer, then I feel suffer. Period. Nothing to worry about. But it takes time, and it is a pain in the ... . But then, there is a light at the end of even this tunnel. And that light is even more sweeter and even more bright.

As I understand it - as you heal your self from whatever sorrow, and whatever suffer, you heal the planetary vibration, and it is very, very helpful. But before you can heal yourself/others, you need to experience that. Perhaps you incarnated to heal this little part of planetary consciousness which is in suffer, and so now you experience it so that you can understand it, and *then* to heal it. Being kind towards the self and being served sometimes, is also ok. Ra said...

...that to aid the self in polarization towards love and light is to aid the planetary vibration.

And I want to take this a little bit further and say that whatever you will manage to heal and understand in this incarnation, is that polarization towards love and light that Ra speaks of above.

And in regards to psychic greeting, this is what this social memory complex that I love so much said about that:

...the means of protection against any negative or debilitating influence for those upon the positive path was demonstrated by this instrument to a very great degree. Consider, if you will, the potentials that this particular occurrence had for negative influences to enter the instrument. This instrument thought upon the Creator in its solitude and in actions with other-self, continually praised and gave thanksgiving to the Creator for the experiences it was having. This in turn allowed this particular entity to radiate to the other-self such energies as became a catalyst for an opening and strengthening of the other-self’s ability to function in a more positively polarized state. Thus we see protection being very simple. Give thanksgiving for each moment. See the self and the other-self as Creator. Open the heart. Always know the light and praise it. This is all the protection necessary.