Admission: I can't sleep in my bed at night nor in complete darkness.

[becausewecan1212]

Been there, can def empathize with you. As with any fear, I realized that I had to face it head on. For me, this meant venturing outside in the early morning hours, with a flashlight for comfort, and going for a walk. This was a major accomplishment for me condsidering that I live with my parents in a fairly rural area, and it was very dark and at first I felt completely alone and vulnerable. But then I remembered that I am never seperated from the creator the presence is always there and always will be. This aha moment made all of the difference, knowing that god has my back no matter what was all I needed to feel at home in the dark. In time have no doubt that the night will be your friend as well-kind of look forward to it.

I just sleep on the sofa in my family's living room, in my regular clothing. Not only that, I don't even go to bed at a normal hour. Even when I had a normal job, it was the night-shift. I go to bed at 5-in-the-morning and wake up at 10 or noon. My family doesn't even think I truly sleep at all because of this.

Why do I do this? Because I feel vulnerable while sleeping and I am scared of the dark. Yes, I know it's all the creator -- even the darkness -- but that does not cure this primal fear of mine. Even when I see things, I try to muster up all the acceptance and love I have but I still feel uncomfortable. Thus I take the easiest path and avoid sleeping in the dark. It's not a huge burden to live this way but I want to know this:

Is this something that spiritually needs to be resolved or is it just a primal quirk? Will I truly gain anything spiritually by forcing myself to sleep in darkness at night?