04-03-2013, 11:48 AM
Thanks, Lycen! I see that mostly as correct, though it amuses me how mysterious I come off to people, and how many people think I'm holding back tons of esoteric wisdom (not just you and Spaced). You two are very right that I follow the Trickster archetype, and I do indeed possess a very playful and even mischievous streak in spite of a base personality that can be overly serious. I also love language, and creating games and symphonies from my words. I enjoy speaking in metaphor, and using my words to inspire imagination in others. Spaced, you hit it right on the head with the Cheshire Cat image. That is an icon I have identified with for some time.
I also get the sense a lot of people feel I have some sort of secretive, occult lifestyle that I just don't talk about. This is true in one sense, yet in another I don't make a point in emphasizing my practice simply because to a casual observer, it would appear entirely ordinary. I am a Chaos Magician, and my workings do not follow the typical structures often associated with the occult. I worship no specific entities, and it is very, very rare for me to perform a formal ritual, simply because I do not see the need. My magic bypasses the physical foci many magicians require to raise and direct their energy, and goes straight to the direct intersection of pure energy and willpower. Any spell I cast can be done in an instant, usually with instant manifestation. If any sort of physical ritual is performed I usually make it up on the spot, and it can be as simple as a flick of my wrist, a glance into another's eyes, or a few words that would be nothing special to anyone else who hears them. I can pull words and symbols of power straight out of the ether without doing any sort of research, and often my magic includes inscribing seemingly meaningless symbols onto things that are often simply viewed as an extension of my artistic talent. I also utilize what I suppose could be called "time magic." There are certain seemingly pointless actions I will feel compelled to perform that are setting the stage for larger rituals for a future version of myself. Often I have walked into the pockets my past self has dutifully laid out for me without understanding why. There is no time. We are all one self.
In short, I consciously influence my environment at all times, and what often seems coincidental is not. However, to explain all of this at any given moment seems unnecessary, as it is such a natural part of my life that I don't give much thought to it. It would be hard to train others in something I have never formally trained for, yet I do leave openings in my words- doors that can be followed for those who realize they are there. My "students" always find their way to me of their own accord, because their subconscious responds to the doorways laid only for those who are ready and compatible. I would say that I bait my words, though that might convey a more negative image than intended, for I do not see fellow seekers as fish to be snagged on a hook.
Geez, I'm starting to go into trance now. Every time I start seriously talking about my magical personality, here it comes and I'm trancing up.
Another reason I'm somewhat quiet is that often when I demonstrate to another the full range of my ability they become either frightened or infatuated, and I do not desire either. I'd rather be seen as just another bozo on the bus, trying to find her way through this thing called human existence. As magical as my life is, I do my best to live a practical lifestyle, continually focusing on the here and now, and what may be done in the moment. I'd rather be known for smiling at strangers and helping old ladies across the street than performing great magical acts, and I'd rather people see me as friendly and funny than some impressive personality.
Crikey, I've gone off on a binge, haven't I?
I also get the sense a lot of people feel I have some sort of secretive, occult lifestyle that I just don't talk about. This is true in one sense, yet in another I don't make a point in emphasizing my practice simply because to a casual observer, it would appear entirely ordinary. I am a Chaos Magician, and my workings do not follow the typical structures often associated with the occult. I worship no specific entities, and it is very, very rare for me to perform a formal ritual, simply because I do not see the need. My magic bypasses the physical foci many magicians require to raise and direct their energy, and goes straight to the direct intersection of pure energy and willpower. Any spell I cast can be done in an instant, usually with instant manifestation. If any sort of physical ritual is performed I usually make it up on the spot, and it can be as simple as a flick of my wrist, a glance into another's eyes, or a few words that would be nothing special to anyone else who hears them. I can pull words and symbols of power straight out of the ether without doing any sort of research, and often my magic includes inscribing seemingly meaningless symbols onto things that are often simply viewed as an extension of my artistic talent. I also utilize what I suppose could be called "time magic." There are certain seemingly pointless actions I will feel compelled to perform that are setting the stage for larger rituals for a future version of myself. Often I have walked into the pockets my past self has dutifully laid out for me without understanding why. There is no time. We are all one self.
In short, I consciously influence my environment at all times, and what often seems coincidental is not. However, to explain all of this at any given moment seems unnecessary, as it is such a natural part of my life that I don't give much thought to it. It would be hard to train others in something I have never formally trained for, yet I do leave openings in my words- doors that can be followed for those who realize they are there. My "students" always find their way to me of their own accord, because their subconscious responds to the doorways laid only for those who are ready and compatible. I would say that I bait my words, though that might convey a more negative image than intended, for I do not see fellow seekers as fish to be snagged on a hook.
Geez, I'm starting to go into trance now. Every time I start seriously talking about my magical personality, here it comes and I'm trancing up.
Another reason I'm somewhat quiet is that often when I demonstrate to another the full range of my ability they become either frightened or infatuated, and I do not desire either. I'd rather be seen as just another bozo on the bus, trying to find her way through this thing called human existence. As magical as my life is, I do my best to live a practical lifestyle, continually focusing on the here and now, and what may be done in the moment. I'd rather be known for smiling at strangers and helping old ladies across the street than performing great magical acts, and I'd rather people see me as friendly and funny than some impressive personality.
Crikey, I've gone off on a binge, haven't I?
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