03-26-2013, 03:31 PM
Also, I have definitely considered the idea of some kind of guild or school, which always been one of my interests. There are schools and groups that exist already, but many are orientated towards particular schools of thought. There is actually a community college course in Vancouver which is a three year holistic healing course, so it has already begun to exist.
Yes, well right now my practice is to ask for donations to those I feel are able, but really, I think the core of my issue is that I have difficulties receiving. I seem to have a belief structure which causes me to be open to receive only out of absolute necessity, and I have been working to examine and understand this. I think I need to learn to find greater joy in the mystery of exchange, and realize that no action I perform decides that which I am.
I also likely need to work through my fear of power, which is very sharp for me and related to other lives where I severely abused my power. I suppose totally trusting myself is another thing.
Ah well, such is the journey.
Yes, well right now my practice is to ask for donations to those I feel are able, but really, I think the core of my issue is that I have difficulties receiving. I seem to have a belief structure which causes me to be open to receive only out of absolute necessity, and I have been working to examine and understand this. I think I need to learn to find greater joy in the mystery of exchange, and realize that no action I perform decides that which I am.
I also likely need to work through my fear of power, which is very sharp for me and related to other lives where I severely abused my power. I suppose totally trusting myself is another thing.
Ah well, such is the journey.
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