I have a "problem". I would appreciate some insight.

[Jeremy]

You get depressed when you dont allow such thoughts.

It's not about allowing or disallowing. It's about recognizing them, accepting them, embracing them, then forgiving yourself and moving on to being in the moment. Once such thoughts have been given their true nomenclature, which is detrimental to ones spiritual development and the realization that life really isn't that depressing or meaningless considering that it was meant to be this way, things start turning around. By constantly reinforcing the idea that this is indeed all a classroom, constantly beratig yourself with such ideas in this silly illusion is, well, just silly