Wow, what a story (paragraph breaks PLEASE! 
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I had a slightly similar experience with masturbation, not as severe though, from the beginning puberty days to very recently in life. The same theme of trying to fill a void by doing it as much as you can, but persistent scabs!? Wow, I couldn't go that far, you must have had a LOT of pent up energy, lol.
One thing I've definitely noticed is that if you want to do dream work, or astral travel, you're way better off not using up any sexual energy. I found that for me it would be way too hard to become lucid, even if I was slightly aware that I was dreaming. It's very much like...
[trying to run a mile, after you just had sex 5 times straight] = [trying to get lucid in a dream after masturbating ONE or TWO times.] jeez!
I've personally come to the point where masturbation can only happen for me when I feel OVERSTIMULATED by seeing way too many hot women on the streets, and this is ok with me because I know I'm still young at 24 years old, and celibate by choice. Other than that, I've been trying to play a balancing act with myself so I'm not drained, and can have great dreams.
I won't comment on porn, I think that subject is deciphered WAAAY easier on your own, using your own emotions and thoughts on the subject. Plus, I'm just not interested in talking about it, lol.
Godspeed!
)I had a slightly similar experience with masturbation, not as severe though, from the beginning puberty days to very recently in life. The same theme of trying to fill a void by doing it as much as you can, but persistent scabs!? Wow, I couldn't go that far, you must have had a LOT of pent up energy, lol.
One thing I've definitely noticed is that if you want to do dream work, or astral travel, you're way better off not using up any sexual energy. I found that for me it would be way too hard to become lucid, even if I was slightly aware that I was dreaming. It's very much like...
[trying to run a mile, after you just had sex 5 times straight] = [trying to get lucid in a dream after masturbating ONE or TWO times.] jeez!
I've personally come to the point where masturbation can only happen for me when I feel OVERSTIMULATED by seeing way too many hot women on the streets, and this is ok with me because I know I'm still young at 24 years old, and celibate by choice. Other than that, I've been trying to play a balancing act with myself so I'm not drained, and can have great dreams.
I won't comment on porn, I think that subject is deciphered WAAAY easier on your own, using your own emotions and thoughts on the subject. Plus, I'm just not interested in talking about it, lol.
Godspeed!