Is STS progression faster than STO?

[xise]

Playing the devil's advocate...

I was wondering why an entity would choose STS after knowing the true nature of things ("The service-to-self adept will satisfy itself with the shadows and, grasping the light of day, will toss back the head in grim laughter, preferring the darkness"). This is the main reason I could think of. Maybe they're choosing the fastest route back to the Creator.

I think it's pretty understandable if you look at it in terms of being. I don't think many, if any entities, sit down and do a pro and con list and then select a polarity.

I think entities live their 3D life, learning, discovering, until they come to a point where they stop experimenting with various philosophies and see realize something about their being:

(1) they have a heart that they can't deny and will just be (perhaps despite the fact that having a heart might open themselves to hurt and others would say they are naive!) or

(2) they don't understand or have this "conscience" thing and they will stop worry about all this talk of a conscience and heart and just be (despite the fact that others would say omg you are evil you don't have a heart - they stop self-judging, even if they have desires to what is "evil" such as enjoying dominating others).

It's just a basic state of being. Do you vibrate mainly red, orange, and especially yellow and don't have this green thing, or do you feel and does your energy have green?

I've definitely experimented with STS philosophy in my life, especially in my field (trial law). In times where I was still discovering who I was, I wondered and even wished that I did not have such a big heart, because those around me often did not and had no trouble being selfish. I tried (and I was decent at it), but being selfish and successful in a dog eat dog field was ultimately worse for my being than being less successful and more open hearted and just being who I was. It was much less stressful and natural, for sure