I've discovered what I was intended to do in this incarnation...

[Adonai One]

It appears that in my previous incarnations I quite literally "sold out" of life. I intellectualized the world, the illusion and I picked something rudimentary to do with the rest of my incarnation. I got killed in battlefields, lived boring lives as rudimentary laborers and monks because I got so caught up in my own intellectualizations of the world. I imagined great creations but I never created them. I never engaged the illusion around me. While materialism can consume an individual, I have let an empty canvas consume me.

As the creator became self-aware and then created, I have only become self-aware and remained stagnant.

I will devote my life to creating the machinery, the art, the inventions I dwell on instead of sitting in apathetic nihilism. I will complete my goal before I die. I will serve this Earth with all the innovation and beauty I can. I will fall down, go broke and start over as many times as I can. I will no longer fear failure.

This incarnation will be a game won.

Anyways, thank you for reading. I love you guys. Thanks for putting up with my ramblings. Thanks for your wisdom.