green ray can be blocked, blue ray can't?

[Monica]

If I had to guess what Ra ultimately meant by green ray being ineffectual, it would be that if someone has hurt you, is bothering you, or is behaving in an inappropriate manner, sending them love without expressing your point of view does not accomplish the creator knowing the creator. Blockages can't be addressed if you don't speak up.

Interesting ideas you have expressed. I have a situation right now wherein a professional (a dentist) failed to take my concerns seriously, apparently due to ego, despite me speaking up, and the resulting chronic infection (lasting 20 years) almost cost me my life, and did cost many thousands of dollars and a lot of anguish. I finally got the issue resolved but the person who made the error in judgment is oblivious. He is a Kriya Yoga instructor, therefore quite awake, and one would think he could handle open communication about what happened, right?

I have no wish to sue him, though I would certainly have a good case. Am I denying the Creator an opportunity to know itself by not expressing myself to the person who hurt me? I have no wish to act out of vengeance, and in fact (remarkably and surprisingly) have zero anger towards him. Yet there is a part of me who would like to openly discuss with him our karmic connection and what I learned from it. I would even like to thank him for his participation in my 20-year drama. But I hesitate, because another part of me says to take the high road and just let it go.

Reading your thoughts, Icaro, is the first time I've encountered someone essentially saying that 'let it go' might not necessarily be the noblest path. It seems that well-intentioned, spiritually-oriented people are more often wont to say "let it go" as though free expression of my very valid emotions would somehow be wrong or, at the very least, petty, and representative of a lack of forgiveness, or, worse, an indication of a controlling nature.

But if one's blue ray is bursting forth desiring expression, is it not controlling of self to hinder that expression? Is it not in fact creating a blockage, to suppress one's tendency towards open communication?

As in my case, why not speak freely to this person? It is my natural tendency, as I naturally want to have open, honest communication. If anything, I tend to be too open and honest, and end up encountering other-selves' blockages, so then I in turn shut down my blue ray, in order to accommodate their green ray blockages.

I know without a doubt that, were I to express myself to this dentist, I would encounter resistance and defensiveness. Am I being cowardly and actually causing a blockage, by backing down, rather than face that experience? Would the highest path be to express myself without regard for the other-self's response? I'd been led to believe it would be a lack of regard for other-self, but now, having read your words, I'm not so sure.