02-26-2010, 11:57 PM
Baby steps. It used to be that each night when I would choose to read up on more and more information I would get scared of the dark and of things trying to harm me because I was seeking. As I sought more and more, more and more realizations came to me when I was soaking all of the material in. Connecting it all and such. What I felt was that when you really begin to seek the spiritual and hidden teachings and begin to awaken, there's a kind of resistance band in the beginning. You feel the pull to various different feelings, some of fear. There are gradations to awakening. Would you believe for years I had studies the negative aspects and various ways that the earth's elite were working to enslave others? extremely into those aspects of separation and fear of hopelessness. What I really suggest is continue seeking/soak up more and more information and piecing concepts together. With each passing day I pierce deeper, un-distort further, Fear less. It's a hunger I can't describe.