Homosexuality

[kainous]

I can only share my experiences and beliefs, because these are just the experience of which I have become aware. That being said, I'd like to weight in just from what I feel from my own life.

Since starting the Law of One material (I have read parts of it 3 or 4 times, but have only just started reading from beginning to end), it has elucidated the Bhagavad-Gita, the Bible, Edgar Cayce, and a few of the other prophecies and records that I've read. It seems to bring so much together, and the number of complications about the material seem to fewer than with many of the other subjects that I have read.

So I believe I'm a wanderer, mostly because it resonates with me, but also because I sometimes feel I'm being communicated with during consciousness with other-selves which don't communicate by words, but directly by thought. I'm not sure what density I'd have belonged to, even after tests.

What I do know is that I have grown up in a small town, at least an hour and a half from any real population. It was a town that was/is extremely hostile towards non-conformant sexual roles of any kind. Regardless, I knew from early on that I was gay, with no romantic or sexual interests in women. It didn't stop me from trying, because I was certain that it wasn't good that I cause stress to those who wanted to believe that there was an issue with it.

Growing up with a Christian background, I also wanted to do right by God, but God (or higher-self, or God through my higher-self) always just said, "I love you."

So, after I learned that I have actually come to this 3rd density once before (as a red-headed girl in Spain), the concept of coming through as a woman, then a man, again resonated with me on that regard. I was here to help people; therefore, I choose to come in both times with issues related to social acceptance, as catalyst to specially understand those that aren't socially acceptable.

Shin-Ar, you have some true understanding (although at a basic level) about those who parade in leather and chaps in public, but what you misunderstand is that they are reacting to the negative catalysts that have been thrown at them by demonstrating that they are not to be controlled. It's a reaction similar to what happens when a yellow-ray and red-ray dominant person is pushed into a trash can, and the bullied person fantasizes about hurting the bully or about showing the bully that they cannot be affected. In this case, they are trying to show a societal construct that they cannot be bullied.

Regarding sexual energy transfer, firstly you are right that it is not as efficient, unless one is to find the same magnetic polarity between the two individuals such that the transfer truly provides each to the other which they lack. Second, I'd like to express that sex is not necessary for sexual energy transfer (especially of green-ray and higher). I've been with my partner for 13 years, and we have expressed sexual transfer without sex for years now (and I'm only 33, not so old that it's commonplace).

Regarding children, I will not adopt or have a child through surrogacy, not because I don't believe in it, but probably because the wanderer in me doesn't have the interest in the possible karmic loop that may occur. Instead, I helped raise my much younger brother, help with my partners nieces and nephews, and invest in my 2nd density pals.

However, my testimony on this means little, because it's one person's testimony. It's also probably a wanderer's testimony, which may or may not match those of 3rd density homosexuals. However, what I can say on the matter is that perhaps we are not any different except for the amount and type of catalyst that has been heaped on us during this incarnation that are leading us towards polarization (in either direction).

I've noticed that we are typically highly polarized in comparison to the rest of the population, which may have a lot to do with the catalysts.

However, regardless of polarity, of understanding, of sexuality or sexual identity, we are other-selves. We are yourself as other-selves. You are us as other-selves. We are all due the experiences in front of us to gain and learn and cherish. We are all due the experiences to forgive or control as well.