01-28-2013, 12:54 PM
So Cyan, is it possible to survive in another Universe? Are there infinite numbers of Universes conducive for life?
Thanks for the reassurance. Yeah, all the choices I made were very difficult. I pursued the most difficult path
I can imagine. Now, with my meds, I will rest and they will carry me. I used to be ready to die.
I even once asked Ra, "Ra, please kill me. Bring me back home." and immediately I felt what I think of as time/space.
It was very hot and I was cooling off my distortions as I can remember it. I let out a tear, and said "ooh, a Ra tear."
and felt emotionally moved by the experience. It felt like I belonged in the sun as part of them. But I don't know.
I have since stopped seeking so hard. Things will come in their own time. Or if do seek, it will be on my meds,
because of how they carry me. My time with Ra was short, but very profound. Then I felt inclined to stop seeking Ra.
It's all been very difficult, facing my own distortions. Maybe creating some and then stilling them. I don't know if we
actually create new distortions or if we just face our own distortions that we already had.
Thanks for the reassurance. Yeah, all the choices I made were very difficult. I pursued the most difficult path
I can imagine. Now, with my meds, I will rest and they will carry me. I used to be ready to die.
I even once asked Ra, "Ra, please kill me. Bring me back home." and immediately I felt what I think of as time/space.
It was very hot and I was cooling off my distortions as I can remember it. I let out a tear, and said "ooh, a Ra tear."
and felt emotionally moved by the experience. It felt like I belonged in the sun as part of them. But I don't know.
I have since stopped seeking so hard. Things will come in their own time. Or if do seek, it will be on my meds,
because of how they carry me. My time with Ra was short, but very profound. Then I felt inclined to stop seeking Ra.
It's all been very difficult, facing my own distortions. Maybe creating some and then stilling them. I don't know if we
actually create new distortions or if we just face our own distortions that we already had.