Fourth Density And Planet Earth

[AnthroHeart]

During my "ascension" experience, I let myself die like 3 times. Just laid back and said "now please, let me die." I don't think my death would have resulted in the collective Earth's death. The only thing that kept me here, and not moving on to larger life was my mom and my dog. I did not want to be selfish and leave them. Plus, who I could help while I'm here. I still have love to share, even moreso after my experience. I went to the edge of the cosmos, hearing the origin of the big bang it seems. Though that truth could be illusory. I allowed myself to lay down and die the 3 times, so that may have resulted in shifts of some kind that I am just not privy to. But Earth doesn't seem any better yet. I don't think we're in 4D yet. I was not ready to let go yet because of my love for others. And especially my love for my dog whom I had harmed unintentionally. It would have been hard to forgive myself if I left others behind who needed me.

The Universe is mysterious. I can't say if I died or not. But I was ready, and was weary from life. It would have been merciful to let me die. So maybe I did, just that I don't remember. It still feels like I'm in space/time though.