what is your relation to the sun?

[Monica]

Worshiper.

I can't say for sure if I worship anything. It would be Source if anything. But I can't focus on any particular God because if I try to give it a personality, or anthropomorphize God, he becomes something that is dark such as the entity Yahweh/Jehovah who has messed with me for the last 3 years. And if I'm not on my meds I'm at the whim of him/them.

I understand and agree. I don't worship any named entity either. I was half-joking when I said I was a Sun worshiper. Well I am, but to clarify, when I think of worshiping the Sun, I think of sunbathing naked in my back yard, totally communing with the lifeforce of this great Being. Just soaking up the rays of Light, savoring every Sunflake.

That's what I mean by Sun worshiper.

I'm a Moon worshiper too, by that definition.

I guess I'm afraid to worship because God had said to worship him only, else we face his wrath.

How do you know God said that?

I had practically worshipped Ra for some time, when I was trying to seek them, but it always ended up dark for me.

I don't think Ra wants to be worshiped. They're just a civilization more advanced than we are. Why would we want to worship older brothers and sisters?

So I'm not trying to follow any particular personality. But just the Source that is All That Is.

That's sounds like a good plan!