Who can we pray to?

[Aaron]

Thank you Monica. One step closer to finding the truth.
When I was trying to hold onto the power of "we create our reality"
it unsettled me, unbalanced me because then I feel like I'm responsible for
everything that goes on.
When I let God be God, and me be me, it seems to make things
easier. I feel more peace inside.
I'll definitely screen out the STS type fear-based teachings.
I went through personal hell before that I don't intend to repeat.
I am still trembling on the inside because of it.
But I think I am finding love.
So it's a tossup between an infinite God who is really in control of everything,
and an infinite me that is simply "veiled".
I don't know if I like the responsibility of creation handed to me.
I'm finding it hard to accept the deepest-dark parts of myself.
I choose to stop here in the love and the light. I can't go further into the love/light,
I am weary.
Though that is mostly from my past obsession with anthros. It was uncontrollable.

There is no separation between you and any God.

It's difficult to accept the darkest reflections of ourselves and to give them as much credibility, acceptance, and recognition as the light parts of ourselves.

But the power of choice between the two always lies with you. Becoming aware of this and how it relates to all aspects of yourself, and then making that choice, can put you on a secure ground.