01-20-2013, 09:35 PM
(This post was last modified: 01-20-2013, 09:40 PM by AnthroHeart.)
Thank you Monica. One step closer to finding the truth.
When I was trying to hold onto the power of "we create our reality"
it unsettled me, unbalanced me because then I feel like I'm responsible for
everything that goes on.
When I let God be God, and me be me, it seems to make things
easier. I feel more peace inside.
I'll definitely screen out the STS type fear-based teachings.
I went through personal hell before that I don't intend to repeat.
I am still trembling on the inside because of it.
But I think I am finding love.
So it's a tossup between an infinite God who is really in control of everything,
and an infinite me that is simply "veiled".
I don't know if I like the responsibility of creation handed to me.
I'm finding it hard to accept the deepest-dark parts of myself.
I choose to stop here in the love and the light. I can't go further into the love/light,
I am weary.
Though that is mostly from my past obsession with anthros. It was uncontrollable.
When I was trying to hold onto the power of "we create our reality"
it unsettled me, unbalanced me because then I feel like I'm responsible for
everything that goes on.
When I let God be God, and me be me, it seems to make things
easier. I feel more peace inside.
I'll definitely screen out the STS type fear-based teachings.
I went through personal hell before that I don't intend to repeat.
I am still trembling on the inside because of it.
But I think I am finding love.
So it's a tossup between an infinite God who is really in control of everything,
and an infinite me that is simply "veiled".
I don't know if I like the responsibility of creation handed to me.
I'm finding it hard to accept the deepest-dark parts of myself.
I choose to stop here in the love and the light. I can't go further into the love/light,
I am weary.
Though that is mostly from my past obsession with anthros. It was uncontrollable.