Monica, I'm not really disturbed by my situation, I absolutely still hold to STO principles, and the cult is inline with them, and it does help with the anger.
I would actually quite easily agree with your comment about the purpose of the cult for me.
The whole thing about "evil" was just a bunch of speculation for the sake of discussion and seeing all perspectives.
I actually view Lucifer as the Goddess of Love and Light as opposed to the Ra Material view which is that Lucifer is the Devil. It just seems to me that Luciferian cults are more concerned with Light than Love, and the Light does seem very healthy to me.
Yeah. I wouldn't say I accepted the STS service, because I don't really feel that I accepted any service. I still believe that I'm choosing my life.
It's not like I said to the entity "OK you can do whatever!" it's more like I said, "Oh, you're a part of me..."
Ra also says to try and see the self in the other self. So the teaching is a bit confusing. I didn't accept the service in the sense of like, allowing it to hurt me or anything like that. Or doing something against my will.
Even then I was a strong believer in boundaries. It's just how this particular event went. I absolutely don't want some entity to scare me into doing something or coerce me. But in this case I'm not sure that it was an other-self because, like I said, I saw my self in it. What is the boundary between self and other self? Ra says it's an illusion anyway.
I found the demon scary but does that mean it was evil? Was it STS? Who can even know? It's not easy to judge someone's polarity let alone an "entity" that is just a subjective visualization. I'm sure that lots of bigots see other races as evil black scary demons yet that isn't true.
So I don't know what that was but it seemed to have come from this occult lodge and then it seemed to have been integrated into me in a perfectly comfortable way. Maybe I'm just picking up hitchhikers? Maybe I vacuumed up a spirit and absorbed it into my own and I'm cool with that because it was my twin flame or something? Who can know?
I would actually quite easily agree with your comment about the purpose of the cult for me.
The whole thing about "evil" was just a bunch of speculation for the sake of discussion and seeing all perspectives.
I actually view Lucifer as the Goddess of Love and Light as opposed to the Ra Material view which is that Lucifer is the Devil. It just seems to me that Luciferian cults are more concerned with Light than Love, and the Light does seem very healthy to me.
(12-30-2012, 09:40 PM)Bring4th_Monica Wrote: Do you recall when Ra stated that they too decline the service of STS entities? The idea of merging with everything indiscriminately would negate the very idea of choice. And yet we know that choice is important. This entire density is about choice.
Yeah. I wouldn't say I accepted the STS service, because I don't really feel that I accepted any service. I still believe that I'm choosing my life.
It's not like I said to the entity "OK you can do whatever!" it's more like I said, "Oh, you're a part of me..."
Ra also says to try and see the self in the other self. So the teaching is a bit confusing. I didn't accept the service in the sense of like, allowing it to hurt me or anything like that. Or doing something against my will.
Even then I was a strong believer in boundaries. It's just how this particular event went. I absolutely don't want some entity to scare me into doing something or coerce me. But in this case I'm not sure that it was an other-self because, like I said, I saw my self in it. What is the boundary between self and other self? Ra says it's an illusion anyway.
I found the demon scary but does that mean it was evil? Was it STS? Who can even know? It's not easy to judge someone's polarity let alone an "entity" that is just a subjective visualization. I'm sure that lots of bigots see other races as evil black scary demons yet that isn't true.
So I don't know what that was but it seemed to have come from this occult lodge and then it seemed to have been integrated into me in a perfectly comfortable way. Maybe I'm just picking up hitchhikers? Maybe I vacuumed up a spirit and absorbed it into my own and I'm cool with that because it was my twin flame or something? Who can know?
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