12-23-2012, 11:21 PM
the serious contemplation of suicide that I described in the second post in this thread ... it created serious repercussions.
the elaborate planning and envisioning of my end, even though it was only for a 40 minute window, created a thought form that lingered for the last 12 or more years. It was a button that could be pushed in times of distress; sometimes by myself in hopes of releasing the thought form, sometimes from outside when I was more vulnerable, and 'others' had less than positive intentions for me.
when it was finally forgiven it was like a black cloak had been lifted from my awareness. So much more light could instream from above.
negative thoughts are permanent, and do not dissapate on their own.
forgiveness of self is the primary driver for healing.
the elaborate planning and envisioning of my end, even though it was only for a 40 minute window, created a thought form that lingered for the last 12 or more years. It was a button that could be pushed in times of distress; sometimes by myself in hopes of releasing the thought form, sometimes from outside when I was more vulnerable, and 'others' had less than positive intentions for me.
when it was finally forgiven it was like a black cloak had been lifted from my awareness. So much more light could instream from above.
negative thoughts are permanent, and do not dissapate on their own.
forgiveness of self is the primary driver for healing.
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