12-18-2012, 11:54 AM
(12-17-2012, 12:47 PM)Cyan Wrote: More than the incident, i find the timing and its synchronisities to myself and other such incidents to be mindboggling. It is almost as if when I sit at home and get angry at something but dont release it, these things happen. When I do get angry and I focus on releasing it in a forceful violent way (Computer games for one) these things dont happen, but is that that they dont happen, or that I dont see them, or that my energies dont need to reflect the suffering outside of myself to myself As I am already in a subjective state where the application of pain on me (defeat in the game) serves the same humbling purpose as when I sit at home, steaming in anger, and then find something like this happening.
All in all, my interactions in the astral more and more point me in the direction that my way of acting before going directly to the astral (using form maker body for anything intetionally) was the right way to go and I was, in fact, quite advanced in it before I "switched sides" from Red ray up to one of Violet ray down.
In meditation I even saw this as a visualization of my energies reaching my heart and through that my crown and then having the chakras above the heart go instead of "heart-throat-thirdeye-crown" to "heart-crown-thirdeye-throat" by having this giant "wheel" that these chakras were attached to rotate "upside down".
So that energy flows primarily from the crown (it wasnt specifically that the chakras themselves remained that way) but rather, that the energy from the top was reaching down and energy from the down was reaching up and all merging in the heart chakra whereby "going higher" was no longer a realistic option as it would circle back to the heart chakra.
After that I was super energetic and in communication with my shadow/light sided self (hard to say since I dont know which I Was at that point) and for 4-5 months. Had "a life" that was, as far as I can tell, somewhere in the 6th D positive range.
I proceeded to tear it all apart because of my depression ofcourse like i usually do. But it was an interesting experience. Leads me to believe that my senses arent exactly being honest to me on a day to day basis since I cant really know where the center of my "real self" (if that was it) is right now in relation to me.
Um, so can planets be wanderers?