Ascension Symptoms

[Charles]

The change I've thus far observed is irrational anger caused by slights received in the past:

Without reason, I'm furious and cursing out the "friend" who stole my fathers scarf from me about 2 or 3 weeks after my father died, when I was 14.

Without reason, I'm furious and cursing out the creep neighbor who removed my snow tires from the side of my home (where they were stored), and put them on his car. I was in my 30's, and he said: "prove it."

Without reason, I'm furious and cursing out imagined slights that never even happened, or criminals I read about in the newspaper.

And then finally, with reason, I realize that I'm working things out. These sudden moments of anger are what I need to rid myself of, so they are up and center and in my face. Laughter ensues.

Funny, but I have been sincerely betrayed, and seriously very badly injured in this lifetime, and those perpetrators were forgiven and understood long ago. It's the hurts never worked through (real and imagined) that are/were popping up for me.

I also notice that I'm not as hungry as I used to be. Eating less, and feeling full, has become normal. Loosing weight without even trying is amazing.

I like my food hot in the wintertime, so my delicious raw vegi salads aren't being made. (Very expensive to heat home in the winter. Out in the country, have my own heat tank to keep full, $thousands every winter for at least 5 years now. Sweatshirts and scarves in doors now, thermostat set low.) I stopped eating beef years ago, but I still like poultry, and I love my wintertime chicken soups.