The One Infinite Creator becoming aware

[anagogy]

This is exactly where I wanted to get at. When Ra says "Infinity became aware" we may ask: aware of what?

Aware of it-SELF.

We may therefore concur in that (INTELLIGENT) INFINITY is an infinite awareness unaware of self-awareness until it becomes self-aware in its kinetic phase (free-Will>Thought>Light). The original desire (free-will—1st distortion) to know It-SELF lead to a particular kinetic focus of self-awareness known as the Original Thought (2nd distortion), which as a result emanated/manifested the illuminating material known as light, or limitless light (3rd distortion), to create a Creation wherein an experience of It-SELF may be gained and thus satisfy Its intelligent estimate of knowing It-SELF (thus allowing Intelligent Infinity to return to a state of un-potentiaton once again).

Yes, this is more or less how I see it.

What helped me to see how it all worked together was the statement by Ra that the densities were a recapitulation of intelligent infinity's discovery of awareness.

In first density, there is consciousness, or awareness, yet it is not self-aware. So what is it aware of? Possibly potential. Raw vitality or strength perhaps. These are my intuitive feelings about it. It is the foundation for all that is to come. Its like a giant pile of legos that is in its disassembled state. It could become anything.

Infinity, in and of itself, is a boundary-less vista of infinite potential existing in a container of awareness or consciousness. It is not organized, and has no need of organization, because it is pure creative energy -- it is where patterns both emerge from and dissolve back into.

From my point of view, "self-awareness" is a limitation or boundary upon on that infinity. It is an identity. An organized pattern of being. Prior to identity, there is just pure unpotentiated awareness of infinite strength of potential, which comes to be potentiated by the catalyst of free-will, or choice. All potential identities exist within that sea of potential. They are like ideas to be explored, in a sense.

Even the Logos identity, which is like, the mother of all identities, is still a self that dissolves eventually, from my perspective. However, "selves" are just lenses for consciousness to focus through. They provide a certain perspective for a time, and then they are abandoned like clothes that are outgrown or sunglasses that one no longer needs. At which point the light that is consciousness, withdraws back to its unstrictured and unpotentiated perspective of no limitations. This is just pure Being, as opposed to self-awareness, which in my way of thinking, implies an identity.

The gap between observer and observed has collapsed here. It is just observing. I'm not sure if there is a meaningful answer to the question of "what is being observed?" however.

I would say "awareness of awareness" but that makes it seem like there is still a duality. Its just oneness. Awareness of oneness, which is not strictured by any filtering "identities". Or as Ra so poetically describes it:

"(from 16.2) [...] one with all, thus having no memory, no identity, no past or future, but existing in the all."