the incoming children - mood indigo

[Daydreamin]

i'm still very much outspoken in that way

i was in a group where the organizer was teaching how to reach the spirit guide but instead of teaching they were beating around the bush and providing a very STS way of teaching

i immediately said something and i became the firestarter... i can't help myself nor censor myself when i feel something is wrong. i am compelled to verbalize it immediately.

also it is not something i have been able to just stop doing. no matter what society throws my way it does not change how i think, feel, and react.

WOW! This resonates with me BIG TIME! I really believe we are 'systems busters'. I can't say if we are 'wired' differently or not but We certainly think outside the box and will not allow people to keep banging their heads against the walls.

It's funny b/c my whole life my close and friends and family have told me sometimes I need to tone it down a bit but what they do not understand is it goes against my nature.


This may sound strange but some of you I think will understand........... it is as if sometimes I can't help myself. It's not as if 'something' takes over me and even though I know what I am saying isn't 'popular' it needs to be said. Some may say who appointed you? I don't know and I am not even saying I have been appointed. But imagine a time where you really really really wanted to say something that you 'felt' needed to be said. Well, as much as some people cannot no matter what speak their minds.........I on the other hand have an impossible time of keeping it all in.

I could give you a detailed example of just this past weekend at a bar where a guy was complaining about his boss and how he always leaves early. Naturally, he didn't like what I told him. He wanted me to agree w/ him and call his boss a jerk and lazy and complain with him. But I chose to try and help him realize not to attach his emotions to his bosses actions. I asked how does he know if his boss doesn't come back later on at night to get work done or on the weekends? It wasn't something he will have learned this past weekend.

No, instead a lot of times what I do is 'plant the seed'. What I mean is a couple more Friday's of his boss leaving early and him attaching his emotions to it he will think of me and realize that guy was right and attaching personal feelings to his bosses actions are completely pointless.


Hopefully you can get the 'jist' of the story.