The One Infinite Creator becoming aware

[anagogy]

Is awareness synonymous with focus or distortion?

Awareness is the substance that all realities are composed of. Awareness may focus in a particular way, and that focus is equivalent to distortion. A distortion is just an illusion, or dissociation from the absolute reality.

By releasing concerns we expand our awareness until there is no concept, and accept we are only mystery. In this way, it could be said that creator is only satisfying his desire for knowing himself, even though it is still mystery, that particular wave of impulse is satisfied.

Most desires stem from the belief in lack. The desire validates the reality that it is not yet satiated. The being that is complete and knows everything only has one desire, which does not extend from lack, but rather completion, and that is to experience the opposite of that reality. Infinity desires to experience finity. Infinity contains finity within itself. To experience finity, it has to forget it is infinite. This is the excursion into the illusion. Much like your dreams at night, when you wake up, you realize you are still in bed, safe and warm. You didn't go anywhere. We are not really here. We are dreaming a dream of limitation.

Could you provide some more explanation/analogy on free will? I have difficulty understand how free will come into being. I understand that everything I perceive/not perceive is one with me, but why do they have will separate from mine?

In absolute reality, there is no independent will. There is just absolute infinity which is all being. People often conceptualize an infinite creator as "growing", however "growing" is a concept that involves time. The creator is outside of time, and it is not growing, shrinking, changing, or whatever. It is simply infinity. Not just All That Is, but All That Could Be. There is no difference at this level between the probable and the actual. Everything is real here. There is no "unreal". There is no relativity, or comparisons being made.

So you see, since the finite is contained within the infinite, *ALL* choices are already made in infinity. All is being explored or known for all eternity. To selectively sift, or choose a specific finite trajectory as a cross section through this infinity requires one to leave this broadest orbit of the god consciousness and enter a slightly less broad orbit. Expressing preference narrows the infinity, and automatically reduces your orbit in consciousness to a lower, less infinitely encompassing level of experiencing reality. Distortions come into being for you.

So you start out as infinity. You are like the filled up chalk board. But for whatever reason, you decided you want to write stuff on the chalkboard, except there is nothing left to write, its already there. Its an infinite chalkboard and everything is already written on the chalkboard. So you are left with one solution, erase the chalk. Now, to continue the metaphor, you cannot actually erase the chalk, only pretend to. It can only be erased in illusion. So its like you got drunk, and just thought the chalk was gone, and you started writing stuff on the chalkboard.

This is like what happens when the Logos comes into being. That is analogous to erasing the chalkboard. You can't have a creator if there is no creation going on. So you need a blank canvas to paint your creation on. The first distortion, free will, takes you out of pure infinity. It is the first narrowing of consciousness. Choosing only occurs within illusion. Thus, expressing bias reduces your viewpoint and slightly lowers your consciousness. The free will expressed finds focus in an even more narrow or focused manifestation we call "the logos". We now have a creator who creates. The previous creator does not create, but rather, exists as a plenum for all existence.

So, in essence, we just appear to have independent wills because we think we are a bunch of separate individuals. That is the dream we are having. In reality, we are all one.

Feel free to ask more questions if you still aren't clear on this.