Color Readings

[GentleReckoning]

Gentle, I see a very light, powder blue color for you. I recall Ra describing a certain entity as walking with "light feet." I certainly don't associate you with that particular entity, but I think that is the best I can do at describing the sense of lightness. You didn't drag in a ton of karma like some of us did, and your actual vibration is light.

When you say 'your actual vibration is light', are you referring to your previous descriptor of '"light feet"'? Also, if anyone has any clarification as to what the powder blue color might mean, I would be eternally grateful!

As far as the karma goes, as I was growing up I would say 'hi' to everyone that I met on my daily walk to school; attempting to share with them positive energy. (at the time, I simply was trying to get them to say 'hi' back and smile) High school certainly dampened that aspect of me, but I've since reclaimed it.

There is also a golden-white color that sort of intermixes in with the blue. I get the sense you would love to be flying around up in the sky.

I have a terrible time with deadlines, money, commitments, and so many other things that are 'important' here on Earth. It would not surprise me at all if I'm not native to Earth. I don't really feel like I have the tools or discipline to succeed in this environment. If I'm working with someone else I can be tireless in my work ethic, but if I'm doing something only for myself it can be the most draining thing in the world. And yes, whenever I'm bored, I tend to imagine myself climbing, jumping, swinging, soaring around the ceiling of wherever I am.

Your energy says "freedom" to me.

I'm in the process of freeing myself of all of the material possessions I own so I can go teach English in Thailand, so that might be the reason for that.

Otherwise, I often feel stagnant, trapped, and alone. I wish I felt freedom.

You also remind me of Christic energy. I'm not saying you're Jesus, but that you contain a good deal of the vibration attributed to "Christ-consciousness." I get the sense you've mastered unconditional love more than most of us here.

I did some work with the Prosper company as I've always been quick to sample any and all self development material. The biggest thing that I got from that was that what I want to do more than anything else is help people (free them from their troubles). Unfortunately, I feel that to be able to do that in any significant way in this culture you need degrees, certificates, and so many other external validations for what you already know internally to be true. Very frustrating.

However as I've matured spiritually I've found that I can very, very quickly get people to open up to me and connect with me in a deep way. (in line getting groceries, a bank teller, an inebriated girl in line at a sandwich shop) So I feel that I'm getting closer to being able to fulfill my purpose, but it feels so far away from where I'm sitting. Also, I'm not used to people being so open to me as this has all happened over the course of 2-6 months.

Since a lot of my development is simply undoing the programming that was put on me during my childhood, I feel as though I likely passed the threshold for 3d during my last incarnation and am just here for the party. ^.^