4 months to go!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[AnthroHeart]

Blatz, I know what you mean. I feel like I should be doing something, but then what? And then I'm not motivated to make a change sometimes.
I'm patient to wait till the end of the year to see if anything happens.
But I do things in life that I'm not sure what's true or not.
I keep coming across philosophies of repentance, and having to repent, and such, and thinking about that.
If we forgive ourself, what is there to repent of? And then I think that's a church term, and very religious.
I don't think that repentance is in line with the LOO. But we want to do our best. If we feel we are doing wrong,
then that's maybe something that needs to change to polarize STO. I'm not sure. I feel these things are a part of me.
I just want to be able to see through the illusion. I'm tired of not knowing. And I don't want to be punished because of seeking my own bliss.