Greetings from the Dark

[Lulu]

I do not disagree with you in any way Shin'Ar, all people believe in their own causes be it wars, mass geonocides, owning slaves and women, selling children for sex, dissecting humans etc. It is certainly a choice and it does serve the creator in the end, does it not? May you survive all the journeys you choose to take.

"....I have more compassion and love then you can possibly know for him/them..."

[Unbound]

I have no qualms, were it not for people like Zaxon, there would be no catalyst to reflect upon the path focused upon darkness. Truly, were it not for individuals such as him, I would have no purpose, for I am one who uses the Dark to lead to the Light, and so without those energetic "platforms", the whole mechanism of growth would cease.

The way I see it, it's all just a "sooner or later". Zaxon is playing this role now, especially BECAUSE he is aware of a higher truth, as part of the mechanism which will see many others to find the Light (even if he openly refutes that he desires this). Amusingly, despite his surface level intentions, we are all part of one movement towards the Light. Zaxon is merely one who desires to wait for more to pass through the doorway and so engages his role in the manner he sees fit to "wait" for a more cohesive creative experience.

I speak of all this without polarity, as I tend to speak of most things.

[Lulu]

Azrael,
To my view there is no real SOURCE of Darkness. Darkness is merely an absence of Light. When you walk into a room there is no Dark switch to turn a sunny bright room into Dark.

I feel your thoughts are indeed cleverly polarized in support of a dark polarity view. Part of the trickster is to appear that it is not dark.

Of course traveling into light is always, always, always the SOULS deepest desire, no matter what the MIND is telling itself it desires. In that way evolution is a must and the dark never has the control is pushing for. A seed in the ground seeks the light.

[Unbound]

I don't think we are in disagreement that there is no "source" of darkness rather than as the reciprocal of Light.

I was certainly once in the darkness, I could never deny that, and I would not for it would be unfair to myself and others to hide that truth of myself. However, to assume that I am in support of a "dark polarity view" (whatever that is) simply because I do not condemn the actions of another doesn't make sense to me.

Doesn't Ra state that Free Will must be honoured? I cannot change Zaxon, and I do not desire to, for that would be an attempt to control him. I can only honour him, Love him and acknowledge him also as the Creator. I am not going to lecture him on his association with the darkness, I can only seek to find the catalyst and lessons he is providing for me.

Simply because I choose to work through the concept of darkness as an illusion (which is, indeed what I often express) to find the Light, doesn't mean I have any right to call him down for his decision to linger in the Darkness. That would be no less controlling and manipulating than what is claimed of the "dark polarity".

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I'm just not really sure what you're accusing me of. I have never used people for their energies, or for my advantage, and have been heavily dedicated to service to others my whole life. In fact, I GAVE AWAY most of my energy for many years, to the point where I almost was at the verge of death and complete incapacitation. It wasn't until I realized that I was trying to support and empower everyone in my life that I realized I had not even left enough for myself to live.

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Zaxon is clearly aware of himself and his choices, and has also made it very clear that he is aware of this fact. The way I see it there's nothing to be done except to honour his choice and continue to work on my own path towards the Light.

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The way I see it, those of Light who condemn those of the Dark, are lingering in the Dark themselves. If you are full of Light, then there is no Darkness except as a tool of expression. When you are full of Light, you can`t help but see the Light in all others, regardless of the Darknesses they have wrapped themselves in.

I am not here to chastise people for their darknesses, I am here to see beyond their Darkness to the Light Within and to express my Love for that Light.

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Of course, these are all just my perspectives, and my manner of working towards the Light. I can in no way assume that others will agree with me, or desire to follow the same kind of path. Indeed, I believe that openly sharing my complete, True Self, is the greatest service to others that I know how to provide. I believe Ra has also expressed something similar to this.

[Zaxon]

Lulu,

Most of what you say is beyond my current awareness, so I can neither confirm nor deny your allegations. All I can say affirmatively is what I have already said.

-Zaxon

[godwide_void]

Lulu,

You are welcome to do whatever you see fit. I present myself with the arrogance of one who comprehends himself as Creator. I can experience infinite things, but I cannot be destroyed. In victory I learn, and in defeat I learn more.

-Zaxon

This was a powerful statement which renewed absolute remembrance of my true nature in this place. I sensed that the mind behind these words knows with utter certainty that it is Creator and comprehends this to a degree beyond what may be described and can only be felt; I also sensed that there are no mists of incredulity which prevent your mind from realizing it as the awareness of Creator in an ephemeral vessel weaving the fabric of space and time in which itself and its surroundings in this illusion are embedded in. I am appreciative of the abundance of catalyst in your words.

[Shin'Ar]

Lulu,

You are welcome to do whatever you see fit. I present myself with the arrogance of one who comprehends himself as Creator. I can experience infinite things, but I cannot be destroyed. In victory I learn, and in defeat I learn more.

-Zaxon

This was a powerful statement which renewed absolute remembrance of my true nature in this place. I sensed that the mind behind these words knows with utter certainty that it is Creator and comprehends this to a degree beyond what may be described and can only be felt; I also sensed that there are no mists of incredulity which prevent your mind from realizing it as the awareness of Creator in an ephemeral vessel weaving the fabric of space and time in which itself and its surroundings in this illusion are embedded in. I am appreciative of the abundance of catalyst in your words.

It is wise to remember the teachings of the Ancient Ones. The Intelligent Infinity, as Ra calls it, has three main attributes:

Creative,
Sustaining,
Destructive

And We as that Creator can express any of these in any way we choose.

Regardless of that fact, there is still direction and motion that is the product of Our choices and actions, and all have consequences. If in the third density you step off the top of a building gravity will quickly reveal itself.

[Lulu]

at which time I saw the creature for the pathetic shadow thing that it was, laughed a cold electric laugh full of menace, and after the briefest battle of wills, I drained the entity of all its energy until it was nothing more than skin covering reptilian bones. I then commenced to consume his remains.

Zaxon,

Why did you "consume" his remains? I too have known a creature like that. He was fascinated with his power over me through creating dichotomies of confusion changing forms, using much trickery and then gloating over his victories via same evil laughter. While it sounds as if you were sparring will-to-will almost as the one in the same; I experienced the entity as a reflection or opposite of myself victim-to-perpetrator.

It is my understanding from my personal experiences that our Spirit bodies are even more Active in all realms then in our corporal bodies. We do create and co-create our dreams through attraction. To me our sub-conscious IS our spirit body. How aware of IT are we really? We do attract others spirit-to-spirit or interact from spirit-to-physical as well. I know this to be true because of my direct experiences.

It sounds to me as if you confronted a menacing part of yourself from the far Orion past. Perhaps you defeated him in that you now accept him as "inside of you (consumed)"? It does seem like posts fwd from there you accept your what could be considered your "menacing" self.

For me once confronted by those denied or unconscious parts of myself. I can then use them at will to "polarize" as you say.

Deep polarization is fascinating. My interaction here inspired me to experiment more consciously with this. Yesterday I spent some time in visualization/imagination to shift my polarity deeply into STO (though I've never used those terms) in the morning upon awakening. This is easiest done for me by entering past lives/times or other deeply polarized realms in my imaginings.

For me also, STO causes feelings of peace, love and joy but when even farther polarized there is also a deep Longing that occurs. It takes some intense imaginings in experiences to achieve this powerful state of feeling of Longing. It is an oddly blissful feeling like a deep longing to merge with the other self.

Stepping out in to the world in this form is vulnerable but in a beautiful way. Because there is such a radiance exuding from me I also feel extremely protected by others. It is also shocking at how noticeably different others respond to me including that I am less aware of them and they are more aware of me. They seem to naturally appreciate me and those I notice are helpful and respectful. The women who interact with me are friendly and non-threatened/non-competitive. The men I see, are particularly more appreciative of my presence.

My way of offering love feels easy and very pleasurable. I can feel no resentment but rather pleasure for all I am doing for others. I do feel a universal love radiating from me. If I were to witness any harmful behavior in others, I might suddenly burst into tears and it would feel like a necessary clearing, as part of my service for desiring love and well-being for all.

It's my most natural and best feeling state.

What I have noticed is that it's nearly impossible to play any other roles when that far polarized. It's like a walking blissful state of longing to express more and more love through beauty and non-complicated creative offerings of love, feeling alive in nature, wanting sex, loving music and dancing.

It's certainly not a state I could maintain if I had to "go to work" for most of western-world demands. Even reading/writing on a forum in this way would seem not only pointless (because everything I need to know, I am, my purpose is met) but if attempted may feel overwhelming and would depolarize me.

Alternatively In STS (to stay with the theme, not my usual choice of words) what were previously felt as "gifts freely offered" are now felt as "duties and exchanges".

For me, if STS/STO are pre-ordained polarities for densities through the 6th then for me STO is most natural.

[Zaxon]

Lulu,

I accepted the darkness in myself many years ago. I have always been conscious of the fact that I identify with shadows. I lured the creature to my dreams with a hunter's eye toward conquest. I intentionally depolarized and waffled between polarities, and called outward to any who would respond. The shadow creature answered my call, as I had hoped, sensing my energy was unstable and weak. However, its threat and attempt to dominate me had the effect of pushing me more deeply into negative polarity than I had ever been. I felt myself become electric power and pure will, and consumed him with hunger and wicked glee. As I consumed the creature I myself became what might be described as an etheric dragon. Consuming the creature was the act of a victor consuming the residual bodily energies of a foe.

I have experienced both polarities and find my preference is negativity. All beings are capable of either polarity, however, I believe most are natively attuned to one or the other. I can experience the positive energies, but have no desire to walk the positive path. My native distortions call towards negativity and always have. Either path may lead to the joy one feels upon attaining intelligent energy. Desires determine how the energy is used and how one is to be of service. I have no desires to aid others, so I tend towards passivity when I attempt the STO orientation, even though I can experience the creation with immense empathy and comprehend other selves as unity. The passivity makes it difficult to summon the desire even to move. However, in negative polarity I am able to dynamically experience intelligent energy, as there is no limit to my desire for self-aggrandizement.

-Zaxon

[Shin'Ar]

Zaxon,

I understand you. I have known you for countless eons.

You do not owe me anything but it would gratify your darkness to express it so why don't you explain to all of these who play at the edge of STS exactly what the risk is.

Tell them Zaxon. Enjoy yourself. tell them what awaits them on the STS path everytime they take a step in that direction.


They do not hear the voice of someone who loves them.

Maybe they will hear the voice of one who taunts them from within their temptation. Call out to those here who are playing with that fire and see if you can lure them in far enough to gain something from them for yourself. They do all they can to make it sound acceptable. Take them for yourself, and feed your darkness, and those of us who know better can more clearly see it for what you have claimed it to be.

Tell them!


You will feed from it and those like you that do want to go all the way can learn from you. How great will your ego be when you can tempt some with your knowledge?

[Unbound]

It's interesting, Zaxon, the "method" you describe seems to describe exactly that of "Vampyric Alchemy", wherein the individual creates an artificial self through which to project themselves and they build this self as a fortress of their power. I think I understand the nature of this, and I definitely feel like it is a path I've taken before.

Of course, I'm a curious entity so I like to try new things, and since I have experienced the joy of STO I am interested in that path in this life, for one must always be challenging themselves, no? It's the only way you can begin to free yourself from the incarnational reality.

[Zaxon]

The Eternal,

There is joy for any who touches intelligent energy, and therefore the Creator. The difference it what one does with it.

-Zaxon

[Unbound]

This is true, although in one way there is also no difference, for I could do what you do, and you could do what I do, only there would still be a difference in the way each of us is impacted by the actions. Of course, I wonder what the variable is, what causes one to drift one way, and another another. Is it merely "chance" that one decides to have preference one way or another? I, personally, believe all preference to be chosen.

I actually only mention this because it was with an interesting synchronicity that I read the work on Vampyric Alchemy, and then saw these recent posts, and I was curious to see your consideration.

[Zaxon]

The Eternal,

I am afraid I only have a passing familiarity with what you refer to as Vampyric Alchemy. Though I have constructed many selves for various purposes. There is a degree of artifice with any persona one constructs in this plane, because the full self cannot be expressed. Therefore, one may focus on certain aspects of the self and express them powerfully, thus funneling the will through the artifice. I also find it quite easy to manipulate energy, and draw certain desired energies into myself, energizing certain aspect of my being.

What is the name of the Vampyric Alchemy material you encountered?

-Zaxon

[Unbound]

Of course, all of creation is an artistry, although I feel to be without individuated identity to be as close to an expression of full self as I have been able to reach. I used to cling to many names, many entities and energies, or really, as all such things are, self-images and recently I did a complete banishing of all these identities and it is really that which has uncovered my natural, Eternal One That I Am.

Alas, I do not recall the authors, it was called merely Vampyric Alchemy, of some Order. I deleted it after reading a little, not being new information, simply serving to show yet another path that could lead me off.

[Zaxon]

Azrael,

The path you walk indeed requires the vanishing of self and dissolution into the creation. I am very familiar with the stage of the positive path, it is the ultimate service to other selves.

-Zaxon

[Unbound]

Aye, I am tired, my friend, I am ready to move on from this place, power no longer holds any appeal to me.

[Shin'Ar]

Why be coy Zaxon?? Just call them and tell them what to expect. Are you fearful that you might not be as satisfied as you thought?

[Zaxon]

Shin'Ar,

The darkness in your heart that manifests itself as fear and hatred of the negative path is indeed a delicacy, Shin'Ar. However, none will be tricked into pursuing negativity. The negative path requires immense discipline, sacrifice, and dedication. One is not tricked into such a thing. Those on the positive path will continue on their way, learning to accept, understand, and love the totality of the Creator - both the light and dark. Hatred of other self is indeed the first step on the road to darkness.

-Zaxon

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Azrael,

I have been world weary all of my days. But weary only of the finite illusion. I am Creator, I experience infinite things but cannot be destroyed. I never tire of the infinite creation, nor its infinite possibilities.

-Zaxon

[Unbound]

Consider what natures, and energetic patterns perpetuate this illusion. The Creator cannot be destroyed, but it is ever changing.

[Shin'Ar]

Shin'Ar,

The darkness in your heart that manifests itself as fear and hatred of the negative path is indeed a delicacy, Shin'Ar. However, none will be tricked into pursuing negativity. The negative path requires immense discipline, sacrifice, and dedication. One is not tricked into such a thing. Those on the positive path will continue on their way, learning to accept, understand, and love the totality of the Creator - both the light and dark. Hatred of other self is indeed the first step on the road to darkness.

Finally you reveal your true nature. So you are not as open as you pretended. You are more of the same- deception.

I feel no hate or fear toward anything Zaxon. But you know that. Your words are for those here that you try to lead in your direction. The only difference between you and I is that I lead toward the Light, and you retreat from my Light.

The darkness is not a thing to fear, just as a thorn bush is not to be feared; just avoided if possible.


I have revealed your reality and we can leave it at that. Thank you.

[Oldern]

"Finally you reveal your true nature"

Shin'Ar, the only one revealing his true nature in this thread has been you so far.
I am saddened to see you keeping up with this parade, attacking, attacking, attacking.

If you are able to recognize something as an enemy, you need to match his frequency. And if the path of Darkness is a low frequency, guess what is that telling about your own...

[Shin'Ar]

Oldern,

I have always made my nature clear here.

I see the dark Ones as something to be revealed.

That you seem to have a problem with that is something that you should try to understand.

But I am not here to conform to your way of thinking anymore than you are here to conform to mine.

I shed light on darkness. if you think that is wrong, than you will have to explain to me how Light can be shed without drowning out darkness.

IMO it is the path of Light to shine in the darkness as a beacon to all those who seek after it.

If you do not feel the same way than I guess you will have to be saddened.

[Lulu]

thank you for sharing zaxon and all,
Zaxon, as you feel most natural in your negative polarity and I feel most natural in positive (or in Ra terms STS and STO). For me I see you as the one who drew from me an insistence in adopting and achieving this polarity or acceptance of all selves. If it was you, or your social construct or hive, or you and perhaps your brother, can you tell me why? What would your motive be, assuming that is true. Just for interest, imagine that it is true, all of my allegations etc, and from there tell me if you can, what the motivation is/was if you will please.

Still the energy is active.

[Zaxon]

Lulu,

All serve the Creator in their own way. Light is defined by darkness, without one the other cannot exist.

-Zaxon

[Shin'Ar]

Lulu,

All serve the Creator in their own way. Light is defined by darkness, without one the other cannot exist.

-Zaxon

To serve the Creator one must serve in love toward others. One cannot serve the Creator in darkness; in darkness one only serves themselves. Light is NOT defined by darkness, darkness gives way to the Light. darkness cannot exist in the Light.

[Monica]

If you are able to recognize something as an enemy, you need to match his frequency. And if the path of Darkness is a low frequency, guess what is that telling about your own...

I haven't been following this thread and in fact have no interest in it. But I popped in, out of curiosity, and read just a few posts, and saw this, and must comment.

I disagree with these statements, Oldern. Ra recognized the STS entities trying to stop the work. Ra is beyond perceiving anyone as 'enemy' but did, nevertheless, speak of 'battle' in the higher densities. Surely that doesn't make Ra of the same frequency as the STS entities!

I also don't know much about Shin'Ar but the little I've read, shows zero indication of being negative. Being concerned about protecting others from the deception of negative entities does not make one negative.

[Oldern]

If you are able to recognize something as an enemy, you need to match his frequency. And if the path of Darkness is a low frequency, guess what is that telling about your own...

I haven't been following this thread and in fact have no interest in it. But I popped in, out of curiosity, and read just a few posts, and saw this, and must comment.

I disagree with these statements, Oldern. Ra recognized the STS entities trying to stop the work. Ra is beyond perceiving anyone as 'enemy' but did, nevertheless, speak of 'battle' in the higher densities. Surely that doesn't make Ra of the same frequency as the STS entities!

I also don't know much about Shin'Ar but the little I've read, shows zero indication of being negative. Being concerned about protecting others from the deception of negative entities does not make one negative.

Yes, you might be right. My own sentence stood out for me as well, right after I have written that. But I believe that it is a bit more complex than that.

What I mean with that is that the Confederation, by deciding the have the role of "governing" these civilizations, will have an "interest" (a positive one, of course), and by expressing this, they share a plane of existence with the part of Orion that attacks them or tries to enslave them, as Ra said.

There are many concepts out there in fantasy literature and in other places (in games like World of Warcraft as well) where the concept of "an enslaved God" appears, and that is a quite sad story always. It is like having a peaceful entity that could kill anyone around it, but of course chooses not to harm anyone. Then "STS" beings appear and harness its power for their own good. This is a picture that has been coming over and over again - and I think that on some level, there must be an agreement for this. But the technicalities of how this is possible evade me, so sorry : )

[Lulu]

Lulu,

All serve the Creator in their own way. Light is defined by darkness, without one the other cannot exist.

-Zaxon

thanks Zaxon clearly this is true however arguable it may appear to be. I agree that everything eventually comes around to serving the creator, however painful. Perhaps painful is where the harvest in negative service comes from.

But what I was asking... I'll try to be more clear.

What do you think the guiding desire/motivation was of whom for example, stole my light/love (basically everything) to unveil my own shadow selves? Does a negative entity even in 6th, feel pleasure at this type of interaction? I particularly wish to know because it seemed to be a "conscious" tormenting by the entity rather then a blindly-acting unconscious lower entity stumbling about and tormenting in lack of awareness. This is what added to the confusion and torment because there was no way to understand why someone that "conscious" would be that cruel.

Because you have expressed in this thread in certain aspects that you are consciously aware of assisting the creator in a negative aspect, I thought you might understand the desire and therefore the motivation or what it feels like from that STS angle.

Could you agree that it feels more like a humbling sacrifice when you might be part of sacrificing another in service to the creator, even at the risk of ending their earth life (or perhaps that is the goal/harvest)? Or is it just pure pleasure? Is there a possiblity it could be both?

As a side note: I was driven into death only to be recovered by what seemed to be the same entity. Dying in that state at that time, would have certainly left me in what would seem to be a possible "harvest" of the 4th, something much lower then where I had been prior.

If it were both then could the entity feeling pleasure (STS) be the physical self and the spirit-body be the humbling sacrificer (STO)? If the two become aware of each other... it's then a conscious awareness of the "work". Perhaps that would be a bi-polar condition.

And, do you know can negative entities from the 6th lie, from that density? Or do they have to state things as triggers. Like for example when you stated that I was bi-polar that could be perceived by me as either an insult meaning I have a medical issue, or in broader symbols as a compliment that I am able to switch polarities at will. In stating that it could uncover shadow sides of insecurities or shame in the earthly realm. This I experienced much during my shadow-facing time.

When you made that statement was it conscious or unconscious (you actually think I have a medical condition)?

One last question. I noticed the entity that tormented me was able to easily possess others and work through them to further influence me. This took it to a whole new level of confusion, it was quite a masterful performance. Later I was able to confirm he was specifically able to possess and use as a tool, those with injuries and those who use hard-core drugs. Do you know, are 6th density STS entities willing to drop into lower physical forms in this way? Walking between densities in a sense, to do their best service possible for the creator?

Thank you,
Lulu

[Zaxon]

Lulu,

As I have previously said, I cannot speak directly to the motivations of the negative entity you have encountered. Neither can I confirm nor deny its existence or influence in your life. However, I believe I can speak generally about negative motivations. I would start by saying that most negative entities understand their role in the creation as that of catalyst, and see their actions towards other-selves in this light. However, this is not a primary motivator for any save perhaps those entities in the mid-sixth density who have abandoned polarity. The reason being that as a primary motivator, viewing the self as catalyst, and having that motivate your actions towards other-selves would amount to service to others, and thus jeopardize the polarity of one still pursuing negativity. Therefore, those acts that serve as catalyst for other-selves accomplished by those entities pursuing negativity will be motivated by much more selfish impulses. The negative entity does not grimly undertake his role as catalyst, but relishes it. A highly polarized negative entity still pursuing negativity does not have your interest in mind when he taunts you, tempts you, or causes hardship to befall you. He serves his own interests, which will vary in particularity, but ultimately serve self-aggrandizement, knowledge, and further polarization. That is not to say all negatively polarized entities are vile, angry, and hateful creatures at all times, towards all entities. However, the highest value will always be self, and friendship, love, and other-selves will always be subservient to and when necessary sacrificed for this highest desire. When someone or something stands in the negative entity's way, the negative entity will seek either to move it or destroy it.

However, these things must be viewed in perspective. None past the third density, of either polarity, can deny the deep knowledge of the unity of the creator, and the relationship of self to other-selves. However, where the positive entity seeks to love self and other-selves unconditionally and serve them infinitely, the negative entity seeks mastery and perfection of self and other-selves. The negative entity applies a harsh and unforgiving standard to the self and others, because he believes this to be the best and most beneficent way to learn. In hardship we grow strong, and in adversity we overcome. Pain is an illusion, hardship is temporal, and death is but a new beginning. The perceived evils one experiences at the hands of the negative entity are powerful catalysts that push the mind/body/soul to extremes, but the pain is an illusion, and all that endures is the knowledge gained. So if you die, are tortured, or suffer great pain - so what? You have learned lessons you might otherwise never have known, and the price was but the momentary discomfort of an illusion in the sea of infinite creation. After the experience you will be a fuller, more knowledgable version of yourself.

The mid sixth density entity is beyond both time and polarity. Parts of the self can drop down into lower densities when there is need. As I have previously said, I cannot speak to what you seem to refer to as possession. However, those with the inclination can be influenced by negative entities. However, this is not possession, it is merely an expression of what was already there, and was ultimately undertaken by free will.

-Zaxon