03-02-2012, 03:13 PM
I still find myself prone to moments of GREAT RAGE. It is different from Anger ... I am not sure in what way.
for eg, I might be watching a baseball game, and when someone makes a crucial mistake, I just lose it. It's like a lot depended on that individual, and they muffed up.
I might also be watching a Gladiator type tv show set in the Roman era (Spartacus for eg), and when a contest between a hero and and villain is played out, I will feel a great surge of violent emotion for someone's head or limb to be chopped off.
I feel quite enlivened in these moments. And there is no sense of Hate at all towards any individual.
It feels ... how can I say it? PRIMAL? In the way a caveman might feel emotions?
the female audience reading this might not understand, but the guys?
do you get that BLOODLUST feeling at times? feels good right??
for eg, I might be watching a baseball game, and when someone makes a crucial mistake, I just lose it. It's like a lot depended on that individual, and they muffed up.
I might also be watching a Gladiator type tv show set in the Roman era (Spartacus for eg), and when a contest between a hero and and villain is played out, I will feel a great surge of violent emotion for someone's head or limb to be chopped off.
I feel quite enlivened in these moments. And there is no sense of Hate at all towards any individual.
It feels ... how can I say it? PRIMAL? In the way a caveman might feel emotions?
the female audience reading this might not understand, but the guys?
do you get that BLOODLUST feeling at times? feels good right??