07-04-2021, 12:39 AM
I've read the guidelines about posting on this subject. I know it can be a tricky and sensitive one, but I feel like I really need feedback on this subject. I hope what I have to say is okay with the community and moderators and that it is appropriate enough. If not, feel free to delete the thread and let me know and I will refrain from making any posts or threads about this subject in the future. I wish to fully cooperate in this respect. I hope everyone who participates in this discussion is able to do so in an appropriate way as well.
Here's my issue. We all have sexual natures. It's even part of the basis of our chakra system and so I think there's no getting rid of it. My problem with it is that, for personal reasons, having a partner with which to express this very fundamental part of human nature in a positive, STO manner is not an option. So I feel like, not being able to get rid of sexuality, I'm forced to express it in what I feel is STS in nature. I wish for everything about me to be STO, so this is very frustrating to me. The issue is made worse b/c when sexuality is STS, it causes blockages in the red and orange ray chakras, which makes it like a wildfire which easily burns it's way into much distortion. This then begins to affect other areas of your life and can cause a lot of misery. I don't know if there's any way to reverse this process or heal the damage when the root of the problem cannot be dug out or dealt with in a positive fashion. Maybe it can.
How do I solve this problem? I'm sure I'm not the only one who has struggled with it. Any advice would be appreciated. I haven't read all the vast amounts of Confederation channeling in L/L's library yet. Maybe someone knows of some q'uotes that may help me. I wish I could just get rid of it altogether. lol. Maybe this is one of my life's lessons for which I incarnated to work on or maybe it just comes with the package of being human. I don't know. Being able to reign in this energy and use it to perform high magic with an other-self in the presence of and dedicated to the One Creator, making sweeps of positive polarization, would be a dream. Maybe in another life...
Here's my issue. We all have sexual natures. It's even part of the basis of our chakra system and so I think there's no getting rid of it. My problem with it is that, for personal reasons, having a partner with which to express this very fundamental part of human nature in a positive, STO manner is not an option. So I feel like, not being able to get rid of sexuality, I'm forced to express it in what I feel is STS in nature. I wish for everything about me to be STO, so this is very frustrating to me. The issue is made worse b/c when sexuality is STS, it causes blockages in the red and orange ray chakras, which makes it like a wildfire which easily burns it's way into much distortion. This then begins to affect other areas of your life and can cause a lot of misery. I don't know if there's any way to reverse this process or heal the damage when the root of the problem cannot be dug out or dealt with in a positive fashion. Maybe it can.
How do I solve this problem? I'm sure I'm not the only one who has struggled with it. Any advice would be appreciated. I haven't read all the vast amounts of Confederation channeling in L/L's library yet. Maybe someone knows of some q'uotes that may help me. I wish I could just get rid of it altogether. lol. Maybe this is one of my life's lessons for which I incarnated to work on or maybe it just comes with the package of being human. I don't know. Being able to reign in this energy and use it to perform high magic with an other-self in the presence of and dedicated to the One Creator, making sweeps of positive polarization, would be a dream. Maybe in another life...