Lots of positive things

[Ashim]

What empowering, heartfelt positive change have you experienced in the past few weeks?

I know many of us reacted initially with some fear regarding the recent events but I’ve experienced so many, an abundance indeed, of acts of kindness and goodwill on many levels . I’m not talking about any media coordinated mass sympathy for health workers in particular, but to the more subtle nature of interactions with other selves. The relationships have become more nuanced , as if confirming that we all are in the right place and at the exact right time.

Any thoughts, or have you experienced something completely different?

To briefly explain my current situation:
I care for my elderly mother who is suffering from end stage kidney failure alongside acute deafness and dementia.
Our relationship has, let’s say, been reduced to its core.
This, in turn, has prompted a certain reconfiguration of priorities , a resetting of goals.

[Diana]

What empowering, heartfelt positive change have you experienced in the past few weeks?

My life is really no different regarding the lockdown etc. as I have almost always worked from home. I work a lot and don't get out much. So there are no new positive things to report from my point of view. However, I have seen many acts of kindness posted on Nextdoor Neighbor, of people helping each other buy groceries and the like.

To briefly explain my current situation:
I care for my elderly mother who is suffering from end stage kidney failure alongside acute deafness and dementia.
Our relationship has, let’s say, been reduced to its core.
This, in turn, has prompted a certain reconfiguration of priorities , a resetting of goals.

Last year my sisters and I went through a period where our elderly mother was in and out of the hospital. The positive side of this was the long conversations I had with my mother. I encouraged her to tell me about her life and I learned so many things I never knew. I also got a lot of time with my sisters which was really great.

It can't be easy caring for your mother. How have your priorities and goals shifted, if you don't mind me asking?

[sillypumpkins]

The lockdown has actually been a huge catalyst for me. Additionally, it came at a time where I was beginning to understand how to process catalyst more effectively. So, I've learned/grown a lot the last month and a half.

I live with my girlfriend, and prior to the lockdown, we didn't see each other as much as we would have like. We had opposite schedules. Once the lockdown started, we were obviously around each other a lot more. There was lots and lots of fighting for a few weeks, hard feelings, confusion, all that good stuff! lol. Basically, stuff that was lurking beneath the surface the entire 2.5 years we've been together.

Eventually.... I started looking at the fighting, the negative feelings, as, well.... gifts! The whole thing (between us and individually) began to reveal itself as an excellent opportunity for growth. My partner had a harder time viewing it as such, but after much conversation and analysis of what was going on individually, and as a couple, we've been able to assess what needs to be done to make things better for each of us, and thus, as partners!!

Things are now much more harmonious....

This has been an excellent learning opportunity of which I am extremely grateful for.

On a lighter note, because my upstairs neighbors are now home as often as we are, they have been a lot louder and more frequent in their loudness. Animals running around, lots of loud foot steps, dragging furniture, all kindsa fun noises. I used to get so very angry, but having learned how to process these things more effectively, it's allowed me to practice patience pretty consistently now lol

[Diana]

@ sillypumpkins: That's awesome!

[flofrog]

Like Diana, I work from home so this hasn't changed my life so much.  I have found that  with my hubby, who sees life quite differently , it is in fact going very smoothly which feels pretty miraculous, lol.
I find many many kind acts and laughs between me and my neighbors who are all pretty cool, but this has certainly become even warmer and kinder.  I am moved by everyone including some accounts of nurses diaries who are living these wild exhausting,  heartbreaking but also sort of miraculous moments.

Ashim, I send you many thoughts for you and your mum. You might want to read, if you have time, which must be sparse, a passage of  one of  cases studies from the Newton institute with the book Wisdom of Souls, p.226 and on. It deals with a woman in her mid forties having a father with Alzheimer's.  It is both moving and clarifying.  

[AnthroHeart]

Ashim! It's great to see you.

You're the only bring4th'er who I dreamed about. We were riding on a train toward a red pyramid.
I don't remember what you told me though.

[Jeremy]

As far as my daily life, absolutely nothing has changed. We both work in Healthcare so it's business as usual. We also rarely go out anyways so everything being closed hasn't affected us.

Since we work in Healthcare, my girlfriend has had people thank her for her service at various stores which is nice. We've had by numerous businesses donate food to my hospital to show their support and appreciation.

Personally though, I went into a very dark place once this all started. I was absolutely terrified of this thing. I scoured Twitter and absorbed all the fear that was being displayed by all the predictions, deaths, suffering, etc. I was consumed by it. I'm not sure if it was solely due to this or the combination of already being completely burned out from work and life but I went even further down. Way down. I became very irritable and dark. Rarely smiling at home and just not someone you'd want to be around which caused friction between my girlfriend and I.

This was a really strange one though. Much darker than in the past. I felt utterly lost and on the verge of crying at one point. Everthing in my life was negative and I let it all put to my girlfriend. Stuff like our living situation, the multitude of animals in our tiny apartment that cause nothing but anger and annoyance. How I had completely lost the joy of my career. Even aspects of our relationship such as the lack of sex and sexual adventure that I'm into whereas she's not. That topic had come up in the recent past and she had improved a tad but hearing it all over again just made her even more sad that she couldn't be good enough in her eyes. I told her that I simply have nothing to look forward to when I wake up in the morning which hit her hard since she took that as a reflection of our relationship and family.

As we went to bed, I laid there wondering if that was it. What did we have in common? What was the point in any of this? But then something clicked. I started probing my own mind as to why I had been so consumed by all this negativity and what could I do about it. I referenced a lot of this in my other thread about rediscovering joy which I won't repeat but somehow, something changed in me. I don't know if it was the combination of the virus and collective suffering along with my own issues but something inside me said enough is enough.

So we've laid off the beer with the exception of Friday and Saturday as opposed to practically every night. I'm back to eating my chicken, sweet potatoes, and Brussel sprouts. Back to a gallon+ of water a day and actually feeling ok. I'm still not sleeping worth a damn but I'm at least happier during the day. I'm also not as bothered by our animals or other aspects that would annoy me. I even meditated for the first time in years the other day and hope to get back into the daily routine.

Again, I can't differentiate whether the virus situation caused the catalyst or not but whatever it was, I'm glad it did.

[Ashim]

Ashim! It's great to see you.

You're the only bring4th'er who I dreamed about. We were riding on a train toward a red pyramid.
I don't remember what you told me though.

Yes I remember that dream.

[Ashim]

Thanks for the replies. I’ll have time later to explain

[Aion]

Welcome back, friend, hope you are well.

[Ashim]

Again , many thanks for the replies and warm greetings .

This forum has been a monumental instrument in the awakening and spiritual growth of many “lost souls “, it’s lovely to be back.

It’s almost like there’s too much information to share, I can’t fathom where to begin, or what narrative to pursue. There’s also the strong desire for “answering the call”. I’m very private, don’t communicate much day for day.

The role or carer has been particularly humbling. These lessons can never be taught in a classroom.

[Ashim]

Ok. Let me start with an event that occurred 10 days ago.
My mother had just arrived back home from her dialysis session. From 2015 onwards I had always driven mum to the hospital, but laterally she’s been collected and returned by ambulance . Shortly after returning home there was an incident. Mum collapsed, eyes white and no breathing. I thought it was her final moment. She couldn’t breathe independently and I felt she was about to die.

I resisted the initial urge to panic and called the emergency services, 999

[Ashim]

I’ll never forget his name. Stuart. He taught me within seconds to correctly massage the heart.

[Ashim]

This, the chest thumping and Stuart’s encouragement went on for the 15 minutes before the ambulance arrived.

[Asolsutsesvyl]

It’s almost like there’s too much information to share, I can’t fathom where to begin, or what narrative to pursue. There’s also the strong desire for “answering the call”. I’m very private, don’t communicate much day for day.

Though I came in new in this community rather than returning, I've felt similarly about having an inner information overload, "too much" to write. My suggestion - what's worked for me - would be to group things into themes, when you can, and pick one which stands out as more important to begin with, ignoring everything else until you get it down. If one smaller theme is too difficult to write about at the time, pick a different one. I've also squeezed in various mental odds and ends when I've seen related topics brought up by others, reducing the inner "to do" list to a more manageable size. Over time, and with more shared, there's a catching up with oneself, and a more natural flow develops.

[Ashim]

Mum was not breathing. A I pumped her chest she spluttered and dribbled but I honestly thought it was her time to depart.

[Ashim]

In the following moments I must have just followed intuition.
I made for the bedroom and summoned the 2 crystals that I keep there.

[Ashim]

I asked for a sexual energy transfer.

[Ashim]

I had the same feeling as when my dad died.

[Ashim]

I could feel the energy, from my root, expanding through the spine

[Ashim]

I found myself amidst the chaos to be quite calm, collected. 2..3..3..4..pump

[Ashim]

The emergency services arrived. Mum regained consciousness.
Off to hospital.

[Ashim]

So, essentially I’m postulating that pent up or stored sexual energy can be transferred at will and to the effect of revitalising another self.

[Ashim]

Could this be Ra’s sexual energy transfer?

[Ashim]

Mum survived and is currently very happy. Just had her tea and watching tennis highlights from last year.

[Ashim]

I felt it. I can’t deny it. There exists an ability to transfer vital life preserving energy. We are conduits. I was told repeatedly by Ra, by my personal guides and never could really grasp the notion. All energy is creative.

The cancerous growths on my hand have disappeared. All health issues are resolved. I am in charge.

I am now empowered to a never before imagined potential.

[Ashim]

The fearlessness had placed me before a void.
I’m sure this is the meeting point, the junction at which wisdom advises towards the positive.
I’m truly grateful for the experience .

[Navaratna]

Before the plague I had little interest in taking the time to share information about the psyche that I have with people. Everyone seems to want to be in their own little bubble right now for the most part. People oftentimes get so commoditized by the way we live and start thinking they don't have time to think outside the box for 10 minutes.

I think the amount of people giving a real "Thanks!" in response to me showing them about the significance of the lives of Shri Mataji Nirmala and Edgar Cayce is really something that has changed my opinion in a positive way. Back then, simply 20 years ago our global mind was not anywhere nearly as interwoven as it is today. Text messaging via phone I don't think even existed and people were just beginning to have cell phones.

I've always been amazed at thinking that psychic energy exists in some form like the polynesian concept of mana. As though it's an energy, a force field, a zone. Just go to a reggae show and you'll see it in people. Meditate for an hour and look outside your windows. Just being in the space is enough to make even a completely straight person think that something may be up.

For all our science, who has ever asked..and what explanation does a scientist give for a person seeing an aura around a tree? For a person who's never been a nature lover to suddenly want to go out and explore? They offer none, I've never heard the question asked. Maybe everyone knows that if you ask a religious man or a scientist, you're wasting your time. They've got their agenda for you and their minds already made up. The Imam/catholic says "Don't worship plants or animals, only worship god [..without saying..through me]". Well hey who said I worship anything? I'm energetically sensitive, not a worshiper of inanimate objects. Sounds like a projection to me.

Ask the scientist "Why is it that people feel so much of a bond with nature when experiencing something like that?" the scientist will say "That is absolutely nothing you are so deluded, you are seeing things that simply are not there and aren't real. Your brain is malfunctioning. [pretending like grass isn't a healthy vegetable considering hemp seed has lots of omega 3/6/9] it's not like there's a possibility that there is anything more to life than our human delusions! Maybe you need medication, [which of course are unnatural...] you're so out of touch with mainstream attitudes...we can't have people think the way you do."

Yeah doctor sure...you do indeed prefer to see life that way..with biases/choices about figuring out if things are correct or incorrect instead of simply witnessing phenomena as they all are..you're just as guilty as a man lost in the woods in my opinion. Stuck without resolution, stuck in dualism.

This mysterious mana. I see the way it modifies people. I think people have a tendency to give up on thinking deeply about this subject so that they feel more comfortable with their idea of what is ordinary.

[Scah]

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[AnthroHeart]

Scah, I think you're onto something with the creation magic.
That's a good way of putting it. Ra I think calls it Intelligent Energy.