Going against higher self

[Unbound]

Aha Hey, that is all that really matters! Do not be sorry, I am not trying to call out your flaws or anything, I just find it confusing the dissatisfaction you express when now you say you are happy.

[Plenum]

and simply exploring what it is your body enjoys doing is a great way to start enjoying where you are.

Thanks. I'll continue to masturbate now.

time to get a girlfriend!!

[AnthroHeart]

Aha Hey, that is all that really matters! Do not be sorry, I am not trying to call out your flaws or anything, I just find it confusing the dissatisfaction you express when now you say you are happy.

The happiness wasn't really evident without us talking it through. It was quite subtle. I'm not blissful, but I'm not in agony either. I'm just smoothly happy right now. Thinking of those thoughts I think make me happy too. So does Loki.

Loki was a bad boy today. He breaks out through the screen door if I leave it open. And he was roaming the neighborhood for like 5 minutes or so before he returned. He does come back quickly. But he gets into the neighbor's yard which isn't good. He's a big 100 pound wolfdog.

[Unbound]

Well I am glad you have brought that happiness to the forefront!

Aha I was once told that animals teach us how to live in the moment.

[AnthroHeart]

Any way to be in the present is ok by me.
That is if it doesn't violate free will or hurt anyone.

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Being happy does not mean I can't call on my social memory complex to feel even happier.

[Horuseus]

and simply exploring what it is your body enjoys doing is a great way to start enjoying where you are.

Thanks. I'll continue to masturbate now.

time to get a girlfriend!!

What's one of those?

[Unbound]

Any way to be in the present is ok by me.
That is if it doesn't violate free will or hurt anyone.

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Being happy does not mean I can't call on my social memory complex to feel even happier.

You are absolutely right, you can always call in more light! Become brighter and brighter my friend.

[AnthroHeart]

Any way to be in the present is ok by me.
That is if it doesn't violate free will or hurt anyone.

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Being happy does not mean I can't call on my social memory complex to feel even happier.

You are absolutely right, you can always call in more light! Become brighter and brighter my friend.

This discussion has turned more positive. I feel the light of them. Words can have such power to them. I'm sensitive to words. I'm glad we had this talk.

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and simply exploring what it is your body enjoys doing is a great way to start enjoying where you are.

Thanks. I'll continue to masturbate now.

time to get a girlfriend!!

What's one of those?

I'm gay so I wouldn't know.

[Unbound]

Hey sometimes we need to air out our negativity in order to made room to see the positive, yeah?

[AnthroHeart]

Thing is I never saw it as negativity. But I am rather negative around my mother. When she comes out of her room I sometimes cringe. She spends most of her time in there. When she comes out she sometimes makes food for me and her. But her profanity gets to me. And how she slams things down.

But still I am happy.

[Unbound]

Have you ever tried to send healing energy to her like reiki to see if that helps? Using the power of breath can help with that as well. It is her own negative energy state that is reflecting within yourself, especially if you don't use any form of shielding like a bubble of light or purifying flames or something of the like. Perhaps it would help the situation if you used some of the techniques you know to bring more light in to her heart?

[AnthroHeart]

Have you ever tried to send healing energy to her like reiki to see if that helps? Using the power of breath can help with that as well. It is her own negative energy state that is reflecting within yourself, especially if you don't use any form of shielding like a bubble of light or purifying flames or something of the like. Perhaps it would help the situation if you used some of the techniques you know to bring more light in to her heart?

I just need to believe that I can. I know how to. Sometimes I think I'd rather focus on more exciting matters like with my social memory complex. But she could use love and light. Maybe that would help with my anxiety.

[Unbound]

Have you ever tried to send healing energy to her like reiki to see if that helps? Using the power of breath can help with that as well. It is her own negative energy state that is reflecting within yourself, especially if you don't use any form of shielding like a bubble of light or purifying flames or something of the like. Perhaps it would help the situation if you used some of the techniques you know to bring more light in to her heart?

I just need to believe that I can. I know how to. Sometimes I think I'd rather focus on more exciting matters like with my social memory complex. But she could use love and light. Maybe that would help with my anxiety.

It is possible much your anxiety isn't even yours, so I think it would certainly help. You have immense power, my friend, and it astounds me that you do not realize it. You actually have a huge capacity to radiate positive energy, healing energy, and you are using not even a quarter of your capability. I think you could not only help yourself, but help her, heal herself, and that it will lead to the liberation of you both from the pain that seems to be caught up in your relationship. You have much wisdom my friend, it is facing the deepest shadows that it is most needed and you have the power and the capacity to use it with love.

Is this not exactly the reason you have come here? To help heal the planet through the radiating of light, love and wisdom?

[Confused]

It gives me the faith that something better awaits.

That is the most eloquent and deeply moving description of 'hope' that I have ever personally read.

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Is it possible to go against our higher self's wishes? When we feel bad, is it because we are out of line from our higher self? Does our higher self always want what's "best" for us? How can it know what's best for us? It doesn't answer every prayer I pray. Say I've given up on life, and wish to die. It happens more times than I care to admit. I find solace in these thoughts though. Because I'm not sure if the higher self will act. I'm not feeling like this at the moment. But the thought/desire comes up quite often.

Does the higher self forbid certain magical acts? I don't feel I am violating anyone's free will. I know I sound like a broken record, but I'm curious.

If I am my own higher self, who's to say my wishes aren't also the wishes of the higher self?

I think what keeps me here is not the lack of power of the higher self to do such an act, but that I love you all, and would sorely be missed. Plus my mom and dogs would miss me.

Also, what about something taboo? I've heard if we're congruent with our taboo, then it's ok.

36.7 Questioner: In that case my higher self would, shall we say, have a very large advantage in knowing precisely what was needed since it would know what… as far as I am concerned, what was going to happen. Is this correct?
Ra: I am Ra. This is incorrect, in that this would be an abrogation of free will. The higher self aspect is aware of the lessons learned through the sixth density. The progress rate is fairly well understood. The choices which must be made to achieve the higher self as it is are in the provenance of the mind/body/spirit complex itself.

Thus the higher self is like the map in which the destination is known; the roads are very well known, these roads being designed by intelligent infinity working through intelligent energy. However, the higher self aspect can program only for the lessons and certain predisposing limitations if it wishes. The remainder is completely the free choice of each entity. There is the perfect balance between the known and the unknown.

Confusing the map for the territory may be part of the problems that we face in terms of dealing with our higher self. I must admit, I have had no conscious experience of dealing with the higher self. Like you, I have prayed and meditated upon the higher self, but have received no tangible answer that I am aware of.

[AnthroHeart]

I felt an incredibly dense energy, very thick, and my muscles hurt after I did it for 30 mins, sending my mom light and love.
She has fibromyalgia, which causes pain throughout her body. She's on pain meds for that. Plus arthritis in her spine and fingers.

Yes, that's exactly why I came, to help heal the planet.

I'm going to focus on my SMC to help rejuvenate me. I feel a little drained after allowing the energy to flow through me to her.

[Unbound]

I felt an incredibly dense energy, very thick, and my muscles hurt after I did it for 30 mins, sending my mom light and love.
She has fibromyalgia, which causes pain throughout her body. She's on pain meds for that. Plus arthritis in her spine and fingers.

Yes, that's exactly why I came, to help heal the planet.

I'm going to focus on my Social Memory Complex to help rejuvenate me. I feel a little drained after allowing the energy to flow through me to her.

Would you be able to detect for yourself where that energy came from? Perhaps next time you can try and expect that energy so you can instead redirect it down in to the Earth instead of it coming in to your body. The Earth is a great transformer, it purifies all energy. If you are ever faced with intense negative, or dark or dense energy, just let it drop to the Earth like a boulder crashing down a mountain. Let it all flow in to the Mother Earth, the Mother Dark, whom holds all within her womb and rebirths them in to new light. Dark, heavy and dense energy is just old, decaying energy which needs to be reborn. The light then returns to the one to whom it belongs after it is purified which empowers the individuals and assists with further releases. Stay strong, my brother, much love to you.

[xise]

+1 Tanner. Mother Earth is beautiful. Letting her share in your energy, especially discomforting energy, is an amazingly healing experience. She's my lifeline when my energy is off or disrupted. She gets it flowing again. She helps make life even more wonderful.

[AnthroHeart]

Thank you Tanner. Much better to let mother Earth take care of the bad energies than taking them on myself.
I thought the dense energy came from my mother whom I was trying to heal. She has a lot of discomforts.

[Billy]

How do you help the planet heal? How do you radiate more love and light? What are people's thoughts on trying to be perpetually present? After reading the power of now I'm trying to almost always be present by being aware of my breath, my feet against the ground, sounds, etc. I'm doing this is in hope of greater harmony and peace. I believe I am more receptive and open to live and light the more present I am able to be. Thoughts?

[isis]

I believe I am more receptive and open to live and light the more present I am able to be. Thoughts?

live and light?

[GentleReckoning]

and simply exploring what it is your body enjoys doing is a great way to start enjoying where you are.

Thanks. I'll continue to masturbate now.

Is that enjoyment or simply expression? I find that I masturbate nowadays simply as my only sexual outlet and that if I don't, my dreams will tend to accomplish the end result for me.

[Horuseus]

and simply exploring what it is your body enjoys doing is a great way to start enjoying where you are.

Thanks. I'll continue to masturbate now.

Is that enjoyment or simply expression? I find that I masturbate nowadays simply as my only sexual outlet and that if I don't, my dreams will tend to accomplish the end result for me.

Haha, apologies for the confusion. It was actually a play on this thread:

http://www.bring4th.org/forums/showthread.php?tid=9367

Well I guess it could fall under either category. On the lower level there is the instinctual drive, so there's that, though as a few mentioned aptly, it can serve as an alternate outlet for creative expression.

[AnthroHeart]

I haven't felt like masturbating lately. On my meds the drive isn't there.
I used to have to force it.

[AnthroHeart]

I no longer think it's possible to go against the higher self. It is me. When I am in good spirits, feeling comforted, my wishes are those of the higher self, as reflected by the emotional feedback I am receiving. I think now I understand.