Past Lives

[reeay]

The ones that were most catalytic in early life (childhood to adolescence) were the past lives that ended in early death. Before I learned about them I had erroneously thought I was supposed to die young in this particular incarnation (before 21). This all lead to a seeking into the mystery of being. So glad to be alive .

f) None of the above, but just resonate with a character from history or have some intense emotion concerning that character

[Monica]

I'm going to bump this thread hope nobody minds.

Cool! I'm glad you did!

When I was around 6 or so my dad took me to see a friend of his who was a psychic. She did a past life reading for me where she saw me as a Buddhist monk in the Himilayas. I have had no personal confirmation of this life but it does resonate, and when I enter deep meditative states I often hear buddhist chanting or gongs and see images of the Buddha.

That sounds like a confirmation! Sometimes a psychic will tell us of a past life, and after that we start getting our own glimpses of memory, as a confirmation. The psychic just helped open up our own memories.

In 2008 my dad told me that he had had a past life recollection of a life on Mars in which he and I were freedom fighters or terrorists depending on your view, and that it was us, or more particularly me, who set off the thermonuclear chain reaction that ended life there. Quite a thing to tell your son eh? It does make sense given some of the incarnations I've had here on Earth (you'll see below).

Wow, that's really heavy! What sort of spirituality is your dad into? Is he into the Law of One? Were you raised with all this stuff?

Sorry if these get long but I want to get them all out there in case anyone else can learn from my journey.

Long, with lots of details, is fine!

The first occurred while I was sitting here at my desk. I had been suffering from extreme neck pain and was stretching my neck forward. All of the sudden I felt some energy come over me and the pain in my neck seemed to solidify into a blade. I felt the blade rise up out of my neck and could visualize it rising higher and higher until it stopped and I realized it was a guillotine blade. At this point my neck no longer hurt so I tried to get up before that blade came back down again but to my amazement I felt two very strong hands on my back holding me in place. I looked up and I was no longer at my desk but in what I would guess to be a town square in Paris looking out at a mob of angry peasants. I remember thinking how ugly they were, particularly one guy who I think might be my boss in this life lol. The next thing I remember before the blade came down again was one clear thought in French "Quelle mort horrible."

Wow! That sounds very similar to my memories of being Anne Boleyn, which I posted here previously. Afterwards, I went back to the memory of being beheaded, and quite graphically re-experienced it. Ouch! But I think it helped me to release it and forgive those who did it.

Did you already know French? Or did the French phrase just pop into your mind?

I have forgiven them and myself in this life, this got rid of my neck pain and helped to opened up my blue ray energy center.

Cool! We've all probably had 'failure' lifetimes...failed in our intended mission. But, we undoubtedly learned other things, so in the end they weren't failures.

The next one I remember is an altogether darker life. I began feeling pains in my abdomen sometimes when I would hug my girlfriend. When meditating on that pain it intensified into a stabbing and slashing that mimicked the motions of the Samurai practice of harakiri. I felt intuitively that I was not doing this by choice but as a form of capital punishment for a crime, the crime of abduction, rape and murder. I don't want to go to deep into this one but my current girlfriend was one of the women who I had wronged.

I am not happy with that life but I have made my peace with it. I am extremely grateful that I was able to reconnect with my girlfriend in this life and that we have had the chance to heal some of the wounds from that life (in my case a fear of my own sexuality coupled with a pornography addiction, recipe for a spiral of shame).

My most recent past life recollection was just last night and shed some light on who I was at the fall of Atlantis. My girlfriend bought me a Black Tibetan Quartz as a gift this week and the second I took it out of the bag my heart began to race and a giddy sensation came over me. I was meditating with it last night and I commented in my head about how powerful it felt and a voice responded to me, the crystal itself. The conversation went like this:
"Wow you are a strong crystal!"
"Yes. That is why the Atlanteans used us to make weapons."
At this point I saw a powerful red beam literally wiping out a city. Just scouring it clean.
"You as in Tibetan quartz's?
"Yes."
"Was I involved in this project?"
"Yes, you were the lead developer of this weapon."

Oh wow! Those are some heavy-duty memories!

So there you have it, if any of this is true then I have been a very bad person in previous lives. This is the shadow I carry with me, but I am grateful for it because it allows for me to display an equal measure of compassion for those who have committed great wrongs, because I can see how the flow of time can heal their fury and that eventually they may come back to the path as I have.

Wonderful! We all have shadows...you are not alone! Even those who seem very high spiritual beings in this life, have some shadows in their past.

Thanks for sharing! I'm glad you have found forgiveness of self and others.

[Spaced]

Wow, that's really heavy! What sort of spirituality is your dad into? Is he into the Law of One? Were you raised with all this stuff?

I think my Dad read the Law of One back in the 80's. I wouldn't say I was raised on the Law of One, since I was mostly raised to be a Catholic by my mother after my parents divorced, but as a youth I remember my dad talking about his past lives and meeting his friends who all claimed psychic abilities. It was my dad who sent me a link to the Law of One .pdfs maybe a year or two ago, but I only got into them this year.

Did you already know French? Or did the French phrase just pop into your mind?

Yes, I speak French in this life too.

Thanks for sharing! I'm glad you have found forgiveness of self and others.

Thank you! I'm glad I shared too, even if I felt like a nutball while typing all that stuff out lol.

[BrownEye]

even if I felt like a nutball while typing all that stuff out lol.

I have found that the only time I think of another as nutty is because I was not able to "see" at the time.

There are schizophrenic people I joked about when younger, that I feel really bad about now, because now I understand that they were not actually nuts, they just had a much wider perception than I did.

Many of the concepts I thought were crap even a year ago have come up as actual experience for me since. I may still laugh at ideas or concepts that I either do not understand, or am uncomfortable with, but I never dis-believe.

[Shin'Ar]

even if I felt like a nutball while typing all that stuff out lol.

I have found that the only time I think of another as nutty is because I was not able to "see" at the time.

There are schizophrenic people I joked about when younger, that I feel really bad about now, because now I understand that they were not actually nuts, they just had a much wider perception than I did.

Many of the concepts I thought were crap even a year ago have come up as actual experience for me since. I may still laugh at ideas or concepts that I either do not understand, or am uncomfortable with, but I never dis-believe.

Nor should you ever believe at all.

[Monica]

I think my Dad read the Law of One back in the 80's. I wouldn't say I was raised on the Law of One, since I was mostly raised to be a Catholic by my mother after my parents divorced, but as a youth I remember my dad talking about his past lives and meeting his friends who all claimed psychic abilities. It was my dad who sent me a link to the Law of One .pdfs maybe a year or two ago, but I only got into them this year.

Cool!

Thank you! I'm glad I shared too, even if I felt like a nutball while typing all that stuff out lol.

Not any more nuts than the rest of us!

[Parsons]

I don't find a single thing you said 'nutty'. In fact, since I feel strong resonance to the fall of Atlantis, I google image'd Black Tibetan Quartz and it did very strongly stir something deeply buried within me. I still only get vague impressions though.

[Spaced]

I google image'd Black Tibetan Quartz and it did very strongly stir something deeply buried within me. I still only get vague impressions though.

You should pick one up for yourself

[xise]

Interesting thread. Got a right ear tone a I was contemplating post which was also the time I was reading about Eddie's Clovis life. Mind you, I've felt a strong affinity to maybe being 5D, maybe latwii, with very strong connections to Ra.

Strong Affinity:
-Roman era. Roman general or politician. I'm drawn to all things roman and to a lesser extent the bronze age.

Via hypnosis (at least the ones with some resonance):

-one life where I was a small group leader of energy beings. We were strings of energy in like a classroom in empty space where we focused on the galaxy around us. I felt like I was going to go on a journey and incarnate again because there was so much more to learn. I have a strong real life affinity to taking the hard but most educational path.

-roman estate holder. I just remember being disappointed with the choices I made in that life because I chose material success in return for te estrangement of my wife and children. I died alone and unhappy.

-small time feudal lord in medieval times. I wasn't horribly cruel to the people under me, but I was cold and unfeeling toward their plight because I was trying to build my kingdom which ultimately did not happen. I died alone and unhappy.

-traveling monk/friar in medieval times. Travelled the world on the road and preached love. Died happy.

-frontiers man in early America. Lived with my soulmate wife who died of an illness early in my life. Lived alone in the wilderness in sadness and died alone and unhappy. During the hypnosis I got the distinct feeling that her death was a preincarnative choice by both of us but I just lived out my days bitter and sad.


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Interesting to view my life's current issues through the past lives lense. I definitely chose preincarnatively to explore strong issues of lack of self love and lack of power (which I think I'm finally over!!). I also notice that I enjoy being alone. Ive always avoided relationships - almost as if it feels like I haven't gotten over a long lost love because I also feel guilty about being with women I'm not in love with - but I don't think it's really a guilt about sex - Sex is definitely abeautiful thing in all it's forms. All this stuff makes sense from an astrological perspective because i was born with 4 retrograde planets. All in all this past life stuff is definitely fascinating!

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[Brittany]

Hey, I think I found a pic of my past self! :p

[Confused]

Hey, I think I found a pic of my past self! :p

I think I found a picture of all our past selves!


Source: Pictorial rendition of the Big Bang [Mehau Kulyk / Science Photo Library / Corbis]; http://www.time.com/time/health/article/...55,00.html

[Poet]

I found this thread really fascinating! Especially the memories of Ankh. You can remember things which occured between the incarnations in time/space, right? Can you elaborate a little bit on that? I found this very interesting. Did you always had these memories or did they occur after you awakened?

For myself, I don't know who I was in my past life. If I would have to guess I would say I was involved in art. A poet, musician or something else because I write a lot and play on my instrument every day. I also feel a strong connection to Django Rheinhardt and the gipsy jazz in general. Maybe this is so because I lived in the thirties as an artist - or I just like the music a little too much.

But I plan to make a regression in the near future. I already have the phone number of a woman who offers this service but I couldn't manage it to call her. So let's see when it's time for that.

What I also found interesting are memories of lives in prehistorian societies like Lemuria and Atlantis. Were this societies technically so high evolved like the humanity today? And how did these societies dissapear? If anyone else has memories about this it would be great to here it!

[Ankh]

I found this thread really fascinating! Especially the memories of Ankh. You can remember things which occured between the incarnations in time/space, right? Can you elaborate a little bit on that? I found this very interesting. Did you always had these memories or did they occur after you awakened?

The regression session that I had about incarnating in Roman Empire but then changing my mind, was definitely something that happened in time/space. But I am not sure of how much I should trust this session. Otherwise, my memories are all very different. Some of them are from other densities and from other places. Many of them are clear in my mind but impossible to describe, others are more like waves and shadows, and some are somewhat managable to describe etc. Maybe if you could ask more specific questions about what exactly you were wondering, I could try to describe it to you...?

Is there anything that you yourself were thinking of, that has happened to you personally, that you were wondering about?

I started to remember in very early ages, already as a child. One of my memories is when I was lying on a couch once, being completely absorbed by one of my memories and dwelling in that particular space/time instead of being present in that now. I was a child under seven years old, and was clearly remembering a past life as a grown-up woman who used to live somewhere in the East. I remembered colors, and could almost sense the smells. In that past life I was about to get married and was preparing for that wedding, so I was dwelling in the details of these festivities and activity in that memory. I knew the name of the town where that woman lived as the child, but I have forgot it now. Many memories are still preserved pretty much intact in my mind today, although they are not as vivid and rich in details as they used to be back when I was a child. My life changed after I became seven, and I forgot most of these memories. But when awakening to the spiritual life these memories started to come back to me again, vividly. First I remembered stuff from my childhood, then remembering what I remembered being that child, and then it was like opening a door to an infinite source and flood of memories.

But I plan to make a regression in the near future. I already have the phone number of a woman who offers this service but I couldn't manage it to call her. So let's see when it's time for that.

I did one of these regression sessions once, and if I would ever do this again, there is one thing that I would change, and that is to ask for protection. I had kind of a thinking back then that I didn't need a protection, that all that would come up during this regression would be for my highest good at the end. But today, I would seek solitary before the session, ask for protection from angels, Higher Self, Confederation, unseen family and friends, whoever that resonates etc. And this kind of "ritual" also perhaps helps to align the mind into a more positive vibration/configuration...?

This is also what Ra said about regression:

There is an infinite range of possibility of service/disservice in the situation of time regression hypnosis, as you term this means of aiding memory. It has nothing to do with the hypnotist. It has only to do with the use which the entity so hypnotized makes of the information so gleaned. If the hypnotist desires to serve and if such a service is performed only upon sincere request, the hypnotist is attempting to be of service.

What I also found interesting are memories of lives in prehistorian societies like Lemuria and Atlantis. Were this societies technically so high evolved like the humanity today? And how did these societies dissapear? If anyone else has memories about this it would be great to here it!

You probably read Monica's posts in this thread, as she remembers having a past life in Atlantis, but especially this post of hers was very interesting to read.

Otherwise, this is what Ra said about Atlantis:

Ra about Atlantis

And there are also threads in this forum that has to do with Atlantis:

Bring4th about Atlantis

Btw, welcome to this forum, Poet! Nice to have you onboard.

[Poet]

Thank you for your kind words! I'm now reading this material you gave me.

Is there anything that you yourself were thinking of, that has happened to you personally, that you were wondering about?

Not that I can remember. I started to writing my dreams down maybe I'll find there something. Before I awakened, I never took my dreams serious. That's really fascinating when you start doing it and you get more and more input because you can remember better.
Is there a connection between a healthy nutrition and the ability to remember such things? I heard from a person who changed their nutrition that this helped to connect to higher densities.

[Ankh]

I started to writing my dreams down maybe I'll find there something. Before I awakened, I never took my dreams serious. That's really fascinating when you start doing it and you get more and more input because you can remember better.

Yes, I find it fascinating too.

Here is what Ra said about dreams which I found interesting:

86.7 Questioner: You have stated that dreaming, if made available to the conscious mind, will aid greatly in polarization. Could you define dreaming or tell us what it is and how it aids polarization?

Ra: I am Ra. Dreaming is an activity of communication through the veil of the unconscious mind and the conscious mind. The nature of this activity is wholly dependent upon the situation regarding the energy center blockages, activations, and crystallizations of a given mind/body/spirit complex.

In one who is blocked at two of the three lower energy centers dreaming will be of value in the polarization process in that there will be a repetition of those portions of recent catalyst as well as deeper-held blockages, thereby giving the waking mind clues as to the nature of these blockages and hints as to possible changes in perception which may lead to the unblocking.

This type of dreaming or communication through the veiled portions of the mind occurs also with those mind/body/spirit complexes which are functioning with far less blockage and enjoying the green-ray activation or higher activation at those times at which the mind/body/spirit complex experiences catalyst, momentarily reblocking or baffling or otherwise distorting the flow of energy influx. Therefore, in all cases it is useful to a mind/body/spirit complex to ponder the content and emotive resonance of dreams.

For those whose green-ray energy centers have been activated as well as for those whose green-ray energy centers are offered an unusual unblockage due to extreme catalyst, such as what is termed the physical death of the self or one which is beloved occurring in what you may call your near future, dreaming takes on another activity. This is what may loosely be termed precognition or a knowing which is prior to that which shall occur in physical manifestation in your yellow-ray third-density space/time. This property of the mind depends upon its placement, to a great extent, in time/space so that the terms of present and future and past have no meaning. This will, if made proper use of by the mind/body/spirit*, enable this entity to enter more fully into the all-compassionate love of each and every circumstance including those circumstances against which an entity may have a strong distortion towards what you may call unhappiness.

As a mind/body/spirit* consciously chooses the path of the adept and, with each energy center balanced to a minimal degree, begins to open the indigo-ray energy center, the so-called dreaming becomes the most efficient tool for polarization, for, if it is known by the adept that work may be done in consciousness while the so-called conscious mind rests, this adept may call upon those which guide it, those presences which surround it, and, most of all, the magical personality which is the higher self in space/time analog as it moves into the sleeping mode of consciousness. With these affirmations attended to, the activity of dreaming reaches that potential of learn/teaching which is most helpful to increasing the distortions of the adept towards its chosen polarity.

There are other possibilities of the dreaming not so closely aligned with the increase in polarity which we do not cover at this particular space/time.

* Should be mind/body/spirit complex. Ra and Don corrected the error in session 87.

You must realize that we are over-generalizing in order to answer your queries as there are several sorts of dreams. However, in general, it may be noted that it is only for a trained and disciplined observer to have reasonably good recall of the dreaming. This faculty may be learned by virtue of a discipline of the recording immediately upon awakening of each and every detail which can be recalled. This training sharpens one’s ability to recall the dream. The most common perception of a mind/body/spirit complex of its dreams is muddied, muddled, and quickly lost.

The activity of dreaming is an activity in which there is made a finely wrought and excellently fashioned bridge from conscious to unconscious. In this state the various distortions which have occurred in the energy web of the body complex, due to the misprecision with which energy influxes have been received, are healed. With the proper amount of dreaming comes the healing of these distortions. Continued lack of this possibility can cause seriously distorted mind/body/spirit complexes.

The other function of the dreaming which is of aid is that type of dream which is visionary and which prophets and mystics have experienced from days of old. Their visions come through the roots of mind and speak to a hungry world. Thus the dream is of service without being of a personally polarizing nature. However, in that mystic or prophet desires to serve, such service will increase the entity’s polarity.

In some cases such as the dreaming and the contact with the higher self, the experience was quantitatively different due to the fact that the veiling is a primary cause of the value of dreams and is also the single door against which the higher self must stand awaiting entry. Before veiling, dreams were not for the purpose of using the so-called unconscious to further utilize catalyst but were used to learn/teach from teach/learners within the inner planes as well as those of outer origin of higher density. As you deal with each subject of which you spoke you may observe, during the veiling process, not a quantitative change in the experience but a qualitative one.

Also upon the list of significant veiled functions of the mind would be that of dreaming. The so-called dreaming contains a great deal which, if made available to the conscious mind and used, shall aid it in polarization to a great extent.

The portions of the dreaming process which are helpful for polarization and also for the vision of the mystic take place in time/space and, consequently, use the bridge from metaphysical to physical for what seems to be a brief period of your space/time. The time/space equivalent is far greater. The bridge remains, however, and traduces each distortion of mind, body, and spirit as it has received the distortions of energy influxes so that healing may take place. This healing process does not occur with the incidence of rapid eye movement but rather occurs largely in the space/time portion of the mind/body/spirit complex using the bridge to time/space for the process of healing to be enabled.

Sorry for this overload of Ra quotes! :p

Is there a connection between a healthy nutrition and the ability to remember such things? I heard from a person who changed their nutrition that this helped to connect to higher densities.

Well, I am a smoker since my teens, who loves to eat "junk food" and drink "anti-water", i.e. soda, beer and wine! Yet, I believe that I work a lot in my "dreams", are able to remember and interpret them and using them in my space/time experience. It also seems to me that I am able to receive visions and other violet ray contacts, have memories that are not common to remember, and are no less able for spiritual work and polarization than those having a healthy diet.

However, I believe that each entity is unique and some are indeed more sensitive to what they physically digest than others.

There is also a Health & Diet sub-forum here on Bring4th, which contains many informed and engaged in those topics people. If you want to know more about it, you can make a new thread there so that people who are more informed in these matters can answer.

[BrownEye]

Easy to understand description.

[Adonai One]

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[bosphorus]

it will seem ridiculous to say, some months ago i was told i had been mohammad, prophet of islam. though not in previous but in distant past.

[Arda]

I think sometimes its for the good that we dont know our past lives. If I get the chance by destiny than I take it but I won't cosciously seek for my past lives. Who knows what if you were some rapist or something? Additional catalyst I guess I am curious too but sooner or later I will know it anyways. Things change if you have some problem in your current incarnation because of your unresolved issues from past lives. Anyways I m curous to know from other members about their past lives.

[Adonai One]

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[bosphorus]

it will seem ridiculous to say, some months ago i was told i had been mohammad, prophet of islam. though not in previous but in distant past.

If you were mohammad, I will say your teachings have been very entertaining reads. Haha. I wouldn't be surprised in the least.

the teachings of mohammad has been (most) dictated by orion sts. not all by Creator.

[Adonai One]

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[reeay]

I have more questions than responses.

What is the significance of knowing what you had been in your past life?

How does knowing your past life aid you in working through your distortions in this current life time?

Why does it seem like people choose to 'remember' heroic and/or glamorous past lives (e.g., queens, kings, spiritual adepts) instead of more ordinary or non-glamorous ones (e.g., maid who emptied chamberpots, village idiots)? This is my personal bias around this topic. There appears to be more fascination around 'who I was in my past life' than actual work done around one's 'remembrance' of past life. It seems to me like we create our personal myths around what we believe we had been in our 'past life'. Could maybe use this personal myth to understand new things about oneself?

[Arda]

It's all about forgiveness -> unconditional love to self and to other selfs. Thats what we got to learn here

Anyways your soul and spirit guides carefully preplanned your incarnation with some really interesting turns to get you going in the right direction. So in your case it was your strong will to know about your past lives which will help you as you rightly recognized in your current incarnation.

A very intersting read on this topic is "Your Soul's Plan" by Robert Schwarz
http://store.bring4th.org/product_info.p...ucts_id=83
It was very helpful on my spiritual path.

[Adonai One]

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[Ruth]

My husband and I recall a past life in which he was a soldier in Nazi Germany - a mechanic in the car pool garage. I was a young Jewess and he hid me in a cave in the mountains where I either starved to death or died from exposure.

[Arda]

I am not an expert on this topic but I post my gut feeling on this questions. I read some books and I am really interested in this whole topic.

I have more questions than responses.

What is the significance of knowing what you had been in your past life?

If you dont see any so there is nothing significant about that
Everybody has its own path what for me might be right, could be something completely wrong for you.

How does knowing your past life aid you in working through your distortions in this current life time?

I think you could see a greater picture of your souls evolution and could see some pattern in past lives with wich you got troble and this time you go another direction. The Endgoal is the same for everybody but each path is unique.

Why does it seem like people choose to 'remember' heroic and/or glamorous past lives (e.g., queens, kings, spiritual adepts) instead of more ordinary or non-glamorous ones (e.g., maid who emptied chamberpots, village idiots)? This is my personal bias around this topic. There appears to be more fascination around 'who I was in my past life' than actual work done around one's 'remembrance' of past life. It seems to me like we create our personal myths around what we believe we had been in our 'past life'. Could maybe use this personal myth to understand new things about oneself?

I think it's an ego issue nothing else. It will make proud that you were some really great guy in the past.It has some good sides and bad sides like everything in this duality The Bad one it creates a dangerous kind of thinking. Your focus is the NOW in this incarnation and how can you evolve more as soul. If you need this catalyst so be it. Everything is useful.

Short story: I have a friend who is really obsessed that he is an the next incarnation of Bob Marley. He visited Jamaika and tried to contact the relatives and nothing worked. Recently he asked another friend of mine if he wants to do a threesome with him and the current girlfiend of the "other friend" He is in a really bad place right now mentally. But nothing happens without a reason through this suffering the soul will learn too. Sadly You learn more from the bad things then from the good ones.

Another example is David Wilcock that he is the recent incarnation of Edgar Cayce. Is it a good thing, does it give him more credibility?
I'm not sure about that one.

Namaste, Arda

[Spaced]

I have had the opportunity to remember a few of my past lives on this planet, sometimes through meditation sometimes through the experience just taking over my whole awareness while I'm sitting here at my computer desk. It can be a jarring experience, I have learned a lot about myself but not all of it is good naturally .

I think sometimes its for the good that we dont know our past lives. If I get the chance by destiny than I take it but I won't cosciously seek for my past lives. Who knows what if you were some rapist or something? Additional catalyst I guess

It's funny that you use this as an example because if what I have seen in my past lives is true than my soul has being doing a lot of work with the issue of sexual control and dominance.

I've written about some of my past lives on this forum before, but maybe without making direct allusion to the central theme. With that somewhat foreboding introduction I can tell you some of what I remember. This might be a long story, I hope you all don't mind. One last disclaimer: I cannot say for certain that any of this is true as it could just as easily be the product of an over-active imagination, but either way I love a good story and these are the stories that resonate with me.

The first life that I can remember (chronologically speaking, in fact it was my most recent past life experience in terms of this lifetime) was in Atlantis, near the end. I had incarnated as a beautiful woman with the pre-incarnational intention of becoming a healer and a lightworker. However, those were chaotic times with wars the scale of which we can only begin to comprehend since the dropping of the atom bomb on Hiroshima shaking the globe. There was a group who sought power at all costs and when I came onto their radar they could not see my innocence and purity, they could only see my power. This group arranged for me to be kidnapped and then sexually and psychologically tortured with the intention of reprogramming me in the role of a living weapon. I can remember using crystal technology for a number of violent applications, the most interesting to me being the fact that lightsabers were at one time real and the most traumatic being a memory of me destroying an entire city with a beam of red light.

After that life I feel I spent a lot of time unincarnated. I think the next time I worked up the courage to incarnate was after witnessing the life of Christ from time/space. Just a gut feeling. This next life is the haziest and earliest past life memory back when I was a teenager and depressed and decided to download some past life regression .mp3. This memory consists of two things: me staring down at my sandalled feet and seeing a bunch of sand underneath them and this overwhelming sadness at the murder of my wife and kidnapping of my daughter by Roman soldiers.

I don't remember anything else about that life, but I know that at some point I decided I wanted to have a chance to emulate Christ's sacrifice in some way, and so my next life I was a devout French noble (I can't remember if I was a man or a woman in this one, whoever they were they were slightly androgynous I think) living at Versailles right in time for the French Revolution. The idea was that as I was brought up to the guillotine and I was gazing out at the crowd of peasants I would forgive them. Sounds nice right? Well instead I have this memory, which is my most vivid past life memory, of looking out at the crowd of peasants and thinking how filthy and ugly they were, how pitiful! And I was mad! I was so angry at them for what they were doing to me! Before the bag went over my head I locked eyes with one peasant, his few teeth brown, warts all over his face, eyes cloudy . . . I can still see that face . . . funny thing is I'm pretty sure he is my boss right now, a self-made millionaire, and I'm his lackey who sends out mail for him .

That anger must have been pretty fiery because I wasted no time in incarnating again, less than a century later in Japan during the Meiji Restoration. In this life I was a swordsman of some renown. I was feared for what I could accomplish on the battlefield, but I had a darker secret. This life is the hardest for me to remember, not because the memories are hard to access, but because they are very painful to process. In that life I was obsessed with beauty. If I found a woman met my high standards of beauty I had to have her, and I turned these women into literal possessions. I kept them in a dungeon and did terrible things to them. I rarely if ever fed them. When they died they were replaced. . . . . . I'm not sure if I should post this, I kind of want to cry now, but at the same time I feel this honesty is important. As Ra says:

"This game can only be won by those who lose their cards in the melting influence of love; can only be won by those who lay their pleasures, their limitations, their all upon the table face up and say inwardly: 'All, all of you players, each other-self, whatever your hand, I love you.'”

That incarnation ended with a trial and a verdict: in order for my family to retain their honer I had to commit ritual suicide, seppuku.

And that brings us to now. I've been told that before this incarnation which I currently enjoy that I was a Tibetan Buddhist monk by a member of my dad's psychic friends network. The concept resonates and I feel some Buddhist influences but no memories.

I feel the weight of my past lives and carry them with me. and the weight helps remind me of who I really am, and and also helps me to better understand those who follow darker paths I thank God that I haven't fallen into the same traps I did so many times before, I feel like I am finally on the right track.

I have more questions than responses.

What is the significance of knowing what you had been in your past life?

For me it has given me a sense of continuity, I never thought that I was telling a very important story with my life, but in the context of this additional narrative my life seems to have more meaning and a central character begins to resolve.

How does knowing your past life aid you in working through your distortions in this current life time?

They reveal a source for the distortion.

Why does it seem like people choose to 'remember' heroic and/or glamorous past lives (e.g., queens, kings, spiritual adepts) instead of more ordinary or non-glamorous ones (e.g., maid who emptied chamberpots, village idiots)? This is my personal bias around this topic. There appears to be more fascination around 'who I was in my past life' than actual work done around one's 'remembrance' of past life. It seems to me like we create our personal myths around what we believe we had been in our 'past life'. Could maybe use this personal myth to understand new things about oneself?

Interesting that you mention personal myth. I have become obsessed with mythology recently after dreaming about the Greek goddess Persephone. I have come to realize that the reason I have been drawn to this myth is that I can relate to all of the characters. I have been the victim Persephone, I have been the grieving parent Demeter and I have been the rapist Hades. In a way, this myth has become my own.

[Marc]

I was Jesus.
*snickers* (the Law of One says I was)

I feel I had one life here as a Buddhist someone...
And then I have a crazy amount of memories surface in dreams from other star systems of which I can make next to no sense of.

@rie
I don't really have that much of an urge to really know all my past lives. I'm kinda busy in this one learning stuff and experiencing things. I don't feel is absolutely necessary for my growth to know my previous lives. But I do I think it would be interesting to recall some experiences some time.

[zenmaster]

People do not even know who they are in their current life.