please help

[fairyfarmgirl]

Fool:

Thank you for your keen wisdom. What of cultivating and Sending Love to Self in this instance?

fairyfarmgirl

If I understand your question correctly- You are saying that can we cultivate love (by raising our vibrations) and then send it to ourselves?

Technically yes. But practically I question the possibility. It is catch 22. You can not send high vibrations of Love from a low vibrational state. You need to raise your vibrations first. And if you can raise your vibrations so easily then really there is no problem/ no attack.

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Hi Cyclops !

I remember those quotes from the Law of One. And I have taken those into account. The first one is quite relevant here. Others talk about war between 4 + and 4 -.

If you remember all three were attacked but only Carla got affected due to the pre-incarnate physical distortions. Her mental defenses were not penetrated. And it happened over a period of time intermittently. So the group had the mental balance and Time to regroup and be in enough high vibrational state to send love. I am fine with that.

Love creates Love. Incrementally. This is how a mantra works. This is how intention/prayer works. This is how a positive ritual works. Incrementally as if rising from the depths of the deep sea so that the acclimation to the "pressure" or LOVE is instilled in a way that assists and empowers--- Love is further generated and instilled forging new neural pathways and clearing energetic meridians and systems. As this happens, new ways of doing and relating become clear and new and better ways of relating to self and others becomes into being.

This acclimation process can and does happen in an instant with the proper environment created using mantras and/or intentions and/or positive ritual and/or visualizations and/or tools... I know this for I have expereinced this shift in an instant way way long before I came to this space that is here and now. It is possible.

fairyfarmgirl

[thefool]

Love creates Love. Incrementally. This is how a mantra works. This is how intention/prayer works. This is how a positive ritual works. Incrementally as if rising from the depths of the deep sea so that the acclimation to the "pressure" or LOVE is instilled in a way that assists and empowers--- Love is further generated and instilled forging new neural pathways and clearing energetic meridians and systems. As this happens, new ways of doing and relating become clear and new and better ways of relating to self and others becomes into being.

This acclimation process can and does happen in an instant with the proper environment created using mantras and/or intentions and/or positive ritual and/or visualizations and/or tools... I know this for I have expereinced this shift in an instant way way long before I came to this space that is here and now. It is possible.

fairyfarmgirl

I agree...

[AnthroHeart]

To me, the idea of asking for help seems somewhat of a dichotomy. If I consciously want help, but my spirit or unconscious or higher self might not think it in my best interest, then that might be against free will.

So is free will just conscious? If we say yes to something consciously, maybe deeper inside something is saying no. This could explain why some hold onto diseases and such.

So I could desperately with all my heart ask for help, and maybe some part of me that I do not see/feel/know is not allowing that.

With Love,
Gemini Wolf

I think the most important point here is that there are many entities, forces, patterns, "principalities and powers" that are available to help with love. However, to respect our free will, they will not interfere unless we invite them to participate in our lives.

[ayadew]

I ponder all this currently, and I will answer in due time. Thank you all for your great input..

[thefool]

To me, the idea of asking for help seems somewhat of a dichotomy. If I consciously want help, but my spirit or unconscious or higher self might not think it in my best interest, then that might be against free will.

To me it is simple. Ask for help as a default. If the higher- self does not allow it then fine. Use it as a catalyst. If the higher self allows it then you are golden.

I think we become a target in the moment we are not aligend with the higher-self. Normally if it is supposed to be a catalyst then it comes slowly and you are given chance to 'CHANGE'. If you heed the direction, you remain in alignment with the higher-self. If you don't heed after many chances then you are hit in the headwith a hammer. As now the change is coming whether you like it or not. That is the main reason for so many dis-ease and so called accidents... If you keep abosrbing your catalysts and keep working/changing with them then you don't have to worry about the extremes...

[AppleSeed]

To me, the idea of asking for help seems somewhat of a dichotomy. If I consciously want help, but my spirit or unconscious or higher self might not think it in my best interest, then that might be against free will.

To me it is simple. Ask for help as a default. If the higher- self does not allow it then fine. Use it as a catalyst. If the higher self allows it then you are golden.

It may not even be anything as sophisticated as the higher self denying help, or rather, the wholehearted asking for help; it can be something as shallow as a cultural imprint of "unworthiness". It runs pretty deep in Western culture, and many of us are a little slow in clearing out the baggage.

[Aaron]

My friend in consciousness, I'm sorry I've been away for some time and wasn't present during your moment of distress.

These wonderful gatekeepers here have swiftly and strongly opened the door for you to infinite light and love. What a blessing this forum is.

I can only say now: Take a steady stance and lock your arms together. Go deeeep inside and KNOW beyond the shadow of a doubt that there is always that one space within you, no matter how tiny, that is yours and yours alone. NO-ONE can take that from you. As a spark of God, aren't you infinite at your very core? This negative entity that poked at you learned an important lesson, I'm sure. They learned just how much you've realized your infinite self. They learned just how durable a human being really is! Whenever you feel like you're being assaulted, just visualize that temple of love and light in your core and take comfort in the fact that that IS you. Always, you are a beacon. The light can be covered up but it can NEVER be extinguished if it is your will for it to shine.

A thought came to me yesterday: The negative motto must be "Life for the sake of life is pointless." The positive motto must be "Life for the sake of life is all." The negative is like a strong and loud thunderstorm, rolling and tearing through the universe. But instead of fearing the storm, look at how beautiful it is! You can be thankful for God's display of strength and power without getting sucked in. Although I know how hard it is to remember this when you're being buffeted by the winds and rain.

We love you, Ayadew! If you allow yourself to go, who's gonna make our picture threads?

[Cyclops]

A thought came to me yesterday: The negative motto must be "Life for the sake of life is pointless." The positive motto must be "Life for the sake of life is all."

Question: Wouldn't it be the other way around somehow? the negative path would want you to live life just for it's sake, survival. But the positive would find living life just for life and survival to be pointless and thus seek the point? seek to know oneself?

(My confused interpretative thought)

[Monica]

I've been away and totally missed this! But everyone rose up to help!

Ayadew, I'm so glad you go thru this dark night! Remember we are always here for you!

Everyone has already offered excellent suggestions. I will add just a bit more:

I agree with Ali that it might be helpful to ask yourself what might have attracted this entity...so that you can seal up that door.

I agree with ahktu that love is never wasted. At the same time, I understand what thefool is saying...I think there is an emotional scale. But, instead of thinking in terms of sending love you don't have, maybe just focus on the intention of getting to the place of love...Q'uo has stated that we can bring our negative emotions up to the heart chakra where they can be transmuted into love. In so doing, I would think they do traverse the scale.

[Aaron]

A thought came to me yesterday: The negative motto must be "Life for the sake of life is pointless." The positive motto must be "Life for the sake of life is all."

Question: Wouldn't it be the other way around somehow? the negative path would want you to live life just for it's sake, survival. But the positive would find living life just for life and survival to be pointless and thus seek the point? seek to know oneself?

(My confused interpretative thought)

It can be interpreted many ways and my words are clumsy haha. A simpler way of saying it would be - negative: "Life has no point." Positive - "Life IS the point."

Gotta work on that blue chakra of clear communication!

[ayadew]

Hello friends. Thank you again for all your support... you are very precious to me.
I will always be with you.

Peregrinus: I have begun exploring crystals more, and I went to a metaphysical store. There I found 2 crystals that got very hot in my palm.. I later meditated with them, and they felt empowering. It was rose quartz and a lovely red stone which I didn't bother to read the name of, it simply felt powerful. I will look for those you mentioned. If my negative friend learned something himself and got more powerful I would like a bit extra protection!

I love the smell of dragon's blood. One of my favourites.. makes you feel safe and good. I've yet to find any proper pure dried dragon's blood though, but in due time I'll do I suppose, if I need it.

thefool: That scale is very accurate, but I believe all negative feelings can be brought up through the charkas and polarized to love. It's cheating the normal feeling scale.. you can always open yourself to love, with no stimuli, only intention: that's the whole point of the heart chakra and the reason 3D STS people just ignore it.. they have no use for it. No point. It is the path of separation from love. One who has opened the heart will forever know that love is all, even though they may not feel it at all times.
The book you mention looks interesting, I'll get it one way or another.

Ashim: A crystal grid? That sounds interesting, and I figure there are exact geometric figures and stones which gives powerful results. Could you explain further?
Thank you for your general advise. The length of your post does not matter for I will read it all anyway!

fairyfarmgirl: I burned dragon's blood insence around my house and intended for no negative and dominating entity to enter. My house feels cleaner now, for before I felt a small terror, and now it's gone.

Questioner: That is an inspiring affirmation you share. Thank you.

On another note, akthus poem reflects my current mentality towards my negative friend
http://bring4th.org/forums/showthread.php?tid=854
Thats how I wish it to be... and I'll be there for him if he needs me in love, but I'll politely decline anything else. The only ones that shall be with me are those of positive polarity. I wish the others good luck on their path..

[peelstreetguy]

Hi Ayadew, Good to hear you're doing better! I might be stating the obvious here, but I would not go near any entheogens for quite some time if I were you. It would most probably attack you really hard in that kind of situation.

Love and Light!

[ayadew]

Hi Ayadew, Good to hear you're doing better! I might be stating the obvious here, but I would not go near any entheogens for quite some time if I were you. It would most probably attack you really hard in that kind of situation.

Love and Light!

They were the gateway to this particular cording so indeed, that will not happen again.

I'd recommend no person of positive polarity and great love in their heart to explore entheogens without extremely good shielding. You are very much vulnerable in that state.

[peelstreetguy]

Very true. Did you feel any pressure or buzzing around your head? Did your hands get really hot? Did you feel like you were having some kind of pannic attack or think you might have a heart attack or something like that? I had all those symptoms one time, Came on me quick as I was sitting peacefully in bliss. I was in real trouble and thought for a while that I might actualy die.

[ayadew]

My negative friend messes with my head more than my physical body.. basically I will go insane permanently if it goes any further. You can imagine what an endless fractal of despair has for some kind of power.. infinite. And then the only escape is death.
(I'll say hello to him from 6th density later, if I'm from there that is.)

[Peregrinus]

What you appear to fail to understand here brother is that you chose this, and if it continues, you choose to allow it to continue.

Also, death is not an escape other than from this dream we call reality, which is an illusion. There is no death, for what is cannot not be isn't.

[fairyfarmgirl]

Ethogens!?? and your life is not energetic enough already, Ayadew? You must balance your energies and pick a process that resonates with you from the many many fine processes listed here on this particular thread and practice it twice daily.

Eat lots of grounding foods with proteins (seaweeds, nuts, nutmilks, eggs, cheese, milk, tempeh.) Eat some dark chocolate (stay away from the cornsyrup) 3 ounces a day this will balance your neurotransmitters when combined with personal energy work. Add flower essence of Yarrow to your diet... take 3 times a day. And drink lots of water with the juice of a whole lemon (this will replace essential cell salts (not just sodium) that you used up with your bio-energetic excursion).

Sage will work very very well to Bless your home... You can also make a cleansing water. This may be easier for you if you live in a setting that does not allow fire of any kind or smoke.

handful of Sage (if no Sage substitute with Lavender or Mugwort)
Water
spray bottle (measure your water with the spray bottle
A coffee maker or electric tea kettle or or stove with a pan or a clean jar with a lid and a sunny window

Begin by clearing your space with intention/prayer. I like this one: I am a Beloved Child of God and all that Is. As a child of God, I Bathe this Space and mySelf with Love and Light. This is Sacred Space and only that of Love shall remain here. All others must LEAVE NOW. I call and Invoke the Archangels Micheal, Raphael and Gabriel to come and do this perfect and good work of clearing this space and occupants including me (state your full name). Thank you and It so it is.

Wait a few minutes in silence... I like to balance my chakras during this time. Then you will feel as if it is time to continue.

Then invoke the Archangels of Light and Love: I call upon the Archangels Micheal, Raphael and Gabriel to come and do their perfect and good work in assisting me in creating this blessing water for myself and my space.

Hold the sage in your hands and bless it as you do with water. Then bless the water. Choose a method for heating your water (if not heating source then see sun blessing water recipe)

Heat the water to boiling.

While the water is heating to boiling place the sage in a glass or ceramic or clay or stainless steel bowl or jar

Bless the jar or bowl or pan and the sage.

When the water is heated pour over the sage and cover with a lid. Let the sage and water steep for at least 20 minutes. After 20 minutes... remove the sage and pour the sage water into the spray bottle. Bless the sage blessing water that is now in the water bottle.

Thank the Archangels. I like to say this: I am so happy and grateful for your assistance in doing this perfect and good work. I bless you with Love. Thank you. It is done.

Now you are ready to use your blessing water. Set the spray nozzle on mist and gently mist all the air and walls and floor and under the bed and in closets. Use an intention that resonates with you-- the key is consistent practice. The action of consistent practice of blessing your space and yourself will heal you energy system and your mind. Take exquisite care of yourself! You choose that which you experience. Remember this: You are a Beloved Child of God! Thus you are more powerful beyond measure. You can only come to this realization... until then I bless your Heart with Love. I bathe you with Love and Light, dear brother, Ayadew.

*** if no heating source put sage in a clean jar with a lid and fill jar to 1/2 inch from the top with water. follow the same blessing outline only do this in succession without waiting for water to boil etc.. Place in a sunny window for 2-3 days. The sun will steep the sage over time. After 2 or 3 days, open sacred space and invoke the Archangels as outlined above. Bless the sage blessing water as outlined above. Close the sacred space as outlined above.



fairyfarmgirl

[ayadew]

To know it to be that easy is one thing, to fundamentally implement it in your life takes a lifetime it seems.. but I come close to this realization each day.

This was a long time ago fairyfarmgirl, and my negative friend has been with me for 9 years now. Thank you for your advice.. I'll see what I can do about those things
I tend to take things slow and reflect over all which I do, so it takes time to integrate everything I have learned from you all these past days. All thoughts are welcome though!

[Aaron]

From somewhere in the erowid.org experiences section:

"Once you've tripped hard enough and been close enough to the edge, you realize that your basic essence is untearable, unburnable, uncrushable."

(although the person who wrote that didn't recommend using entheogens or psychedelics to realize that)

[AnthroHeart]

That's weird, because I thought with a strong enough psychadelic experience, it can blow a hole in your aura that you might not be able to fix in that lifetime. I've done entheogens in the past, but never pushed it too far. I have broken through, but I'm able to do similar work without any of that.

[fairyfarmgirl]

That's weird, because I thought with a strong enough psychadelic experience, it can blow a hole in your aura that you might not be able to fix in that lifetime. I've done entheogens in the past, but never pushed it too far. I have broken through, but I'm able to do similar work without any of that.

I agree Gemini Wolf... though many here are ethogen users--- I am not one as my life has been weird enough! :-/

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To know it to be that easy is one thing, to fundamentally implement it in your life takes a lifetime it seems.. but I come close to this realization each day.

This was a long time ago fairyfarmgirl, and my negative friend has been with me for 9 years now. Thank you for your advice.. I'll see what I can do about those things
I tend to take things slow and reflect over all which I do, so it takes time to integrate everything I have learned from you all these past days. All thoughts are welcome though!

Oh Dear! I was in the middle of editing when I got called away by my busy life :-/ and now you have responded to my incomplete post... I wish you well, Brother. I bless your Heart with Love. I bathe you in Light and Love.

--fairyfarmgirl

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To know it to be that easy is one thing, to fundamentally implement it in your life takes a lifetime it seems.. but I come close to this realization each day.

I have only realized this in my entire being when I became a Gathered Master in 2008... I knew I was beloved but I did not feel that way about myself until this Epiphany moment... And I consider myself a slooooow learner--- I am now in my late 30's--- if only I had had this resource when I experienced my negative greetings... I had to learn all of this along the way with a hope and a prayer and some well placed Human Angel assistance--- So you will realize this sooner than I...

Love--

fairyfarmgirl

[ayadew]

I'll re-read it

[ayadew]

Friends!! I felt a tingling sensation in my yellow chakra/stomach and an increased feeling of panic. I quickly placed myself in meditation with the two stones I found.. and I began to send love towards my negative friend. It was a very intensive meditation, and I asked all entities I know of for help. He's gone now and I bet he'll have something to think about for a while (regrouping)!
I will continue with this every night. The love is flowing!!

[Cyclops]

Friends!! I felt a tingling sensation in my yellow chakra/stomach and an increased feeling of panic. I quickly placed myself in meditation with the two stones I found.. and I began to send love towards my negative friend. It was a very intensive meditation, and I asked all entities I know of for help. He's gone now and I bet he'll have something to think about for a while (regrouping)!
I will continue with this every night. The love is flowing!!

First I would like to tell you that you are not alone in this, I too was visited and to the best of my perception it was similar.

I felt this energy in the stomach sometimes as well recently, it's a pull from inside kind of sensation to me.

Anyways while thinking about this thread and your experience I remembered Aaron the inner guide's communication..

from the human perspective, you practice
forgiveness because there has been the experience of
pain for the human and the practice of forgiveness
opens the heart. It is not just bringing you back to
where you were; you are then Love. And there is no
limit to the amount of love that you can express.

By Aaron.

and

Aaron: I am Aaron. Does the right hand need to
forgive the left hand? If the baby, the fetus, is
kicking in the night and wakes the mother, does the
mother need to forgive the fetus? In the first
example, the right and left hands are clearly a part of
the same being. The mother and fetus still
experience that state of non-separation.
The angel aspect of yourself knows it is not separate
and never has been separate. It knows the crystal
clarity of its oneness, which could never become
tarnished. To move into incarnation is to accept the
illusion of separation, to agree to this veil of
forgetting of your true being. Thus, you move into
the illusion that there are spots on the wings, that
the body and the mind are unclean in some way.

What I brought back from this in my own way was that he says in incarnation we still sometimes cling to the separation of beings, be it yourself and your 5th density negative self or brother. Therefor it is important to forgive it in the human sense to open the heart like he said.. this is what resonated.

Also what I perceived was he also makes it important to say that although forgiving in the incarnational sense is important because it is to be human. It is also important to realize that the 5th density negative brother might symbolize the left hand that he was trying to say. So from my conclusion I think it sums up to that you can forgive and then at the same time know that it is not necessary in the end because you would be forgiving yourself.

Thoughts?

[ayadew]

Friends.. what I wrote yesterday was apparently not what reality gave me this night.
I don't want to write any details due to self-suggestion. As of now, I am just blocking it out of my mind. Please give me any helping intention/prayer you have to spare
Peregrinus words helped me much
Also imagining angels with swords of infinite power which protects me helped

[colorado]

I'm sorry to hear you had another bad experience.

Love is all around and within you. Throughout your day, try to come back to this understanding again and again. You will pull through.

[Ashim]

Dear Ayadew, you are winning the battle.
Remember that negative Entities thrive off fear, separation being the illusion used to empower over others. By calling on Angels or Guides and the Highest Self you will send our STS friend packing, probably for good. Your crystals found you just as planned.
The rose quartz stone is indeed excellent for matters of the Heart Chakra.
Whilst I am sure that sacred geometry is an integral part of the esoteric technologies now being rediscovered I find it easier and quicker to just "listen" to the crystals "instructions". They will inform you of their individual peculiarities and also advise as to positions in the grid (a pattern made of various crystals). Often, or in my case, a transmitter crystal will be placed in the center of the grid. I feel personally that I have done this type of stuff before, it just comes really naturally in the light trance condition.
Because of the inflowing of new Energies into our sphere there will be dissonance felt by many. On the one hand the 3D body is trying to hold on for "life" whilst on the other the 4D Light Body is being created. This can cause some serious discomfort, the tell tale signs usually being apathy, from mild to severe along with a certain feeling of detachment to Space / Time.
This is where the crystals come into their own during the Ascension Process. If the grid is charged with the intent of maintaining a high frequency of vibration in the home this will, in turn create better conditions of resonance for the Light Body to form. I noticed an increased sense of nurturing the Self and the body during this phase. Some may feel the need to change diet or engage in increased physical activity. This is the time for clearing the last few remaining blockages in your electromagnetic shield or Chakra system. Fear must be addressed, for that fear which is still withheld must be integrated / transmuted into Love / Light. Some of us have chosen here a Life Story during this incarnation that offers catalyst for maximum polarisation to the positive. For this to happen one must stretch the "elastic band" by looking deep into the darkness, only to rebound as far as possible into the Light. Fear or negativity cannot be ignored, due alone to our awareness of these places we are able to allow the infinite Love / Light of our Creator to enter and transmute.
My humble life experiences have enabled me to peer a long way into the darkness, into places where many would already be hiding behind the sofa, only to emerge carrying the Sword of Light.
If one can feel universal Compassion in the grimmest situations that this Illusion offers then this is the Creator knowing himself once more as he sees that which he is not.

Love & Light

[ayadew]

Thank you Ashim. I will explore these crystal configurations.
I am not alone and I will prevail, for love is everywhere, even in the darkest corners of imagination. This experience will soon be transformed into a bliss of infinite enlightenment, where it's negative power is polarized and for the gain for everyone.

[Cyclops]

Would you know that it is exactly what that is, transformation of the negative into positive.

Yesterday I did my first full visualization after unlocking all of the energy centers red to indigo, my intention was pure and I had no doubts that I unlocked it, and so after I did I was visualizing myself over earth in the outer athmosphere with a crystal body. with a light going thought the crystal body and raining down to earth. By asking Q'uo and the inner entities to help, this experience was empowered instantly.

But guess what? ten minutes later I was asleep and was sitting in my kitchen in the small dream, my mom was about to serve me some food but as she got closer to me she had a knife and I grabbed her hand.. the push was intense and I barely managed to resist getting stabbed. After I emerged out into an awake state but had a small electrifying energy about in my body for 1-2 seconds. I think this was a negative visit in disguise.

The negative entities can't help but offer these catalysts. I felt nothing after because I knew right away that the entity trying to hurt me was a mirror image.

By this dream/experience lasting only 10 minutes or so I can say it wasn't really a dream. After which I had a good night's sleep and a good dream about love.

[Sacred Fool]

Here's further thought, A., if you're interested:

Just guessing wildly, I wonder if this experience is a natural consequence of the organizational principle of your temporal being being inadequate to contain the parts? I wonder if you've opened too many doors, have too much stuff moving through, but cannot organize it according to your current concept and container of self so that it's now spilling all over the place and creating havoc? Maybe you need to simplify your field of being, shut doors which should be shut, and find a conveyance into a pasture of more clarified, more appropriate energetic organization?

Also, maybe it would help to stop trying to do this all by your own efforts? Maybe it's time to "Lean on the Everlasting Arms," as they say? Perhaps by faith alone you can trust your handlers to carry you to an healthier configuration, if that's your desire.

Best of luck. I know how crappy it feels to experience that level of personal dysfunction. The good news is that it's our pleasure to experience the full 360 degrees of being. Of course, it ain't so easy to keep your balance if you're trying to do it quickly.