I am starting from scratch.

[Sagittarius]

Stop thinking and go see them for yourself outside, out of your safe little home that holds you back.

[Fastidious Emanations]

thank you

[native]

I think our ideas of balance and what it means to be positive are misinformed initially, hence the greetings. Implicit in the concept of polarity is separation, as the two paths are literally separated into their own domains, which eventually must be reconciled. So there are imbalances even in positive polarity that aren't realized until later in evolution. Generally, I think we teeter on the edge of negativity, as spiritual people feel the call to guide too much. So when we encounter negativity it's our own imbalance and superiority manifesting, and being challenged.

It was said the more in balance one is, greetings will go away. So when a person channels or performs a so-called positive magical working, and negativity manifests, you have to wonder if what they're manifesting is a consequence of what we feel to be positive, or if we're manifesting negativity, which then much naturally be challenged and assimilated into the hierarchy.

"We seek now without polarity. Thus we do not invoke any power from without, for our search has become internalized as we become light/love and love/light."

I generally feel that Ra was attempting to teach something quite simple, and that there was a lot of unnecessary details that lead astray. For instance, in response to a question about spoon bending of all things, consider that what could be called miraculous is a lesser signpost of pure being:

"Contact with indigo ray need not necessarily show itself in any certain gift or guidepost, as you have said. There are some whose indigo energy is that of pure being and never is manifested, yet all are aware of such an entity’s progress. Others may teach or share in many ways contact with intelligent energy. Others continue in unmanifested form, seeking intelligent infinity.

Thus the manifestation is a lesser signpost than that which is sensed or intuited about a mind/body/spirit complex. This violet-ray beingness is far more indicative of true self."

Since Ra seeks without polarity, it's quite possible that all the details in the material are for the purpose of reinforcing our own negativity and polarizing in that direction..as if they're providing a choice. There is a very simplistic message that seems to show up in the material now and then, which seems to hint at true balance.

[Adonai One]

I am not psychologically cut out for paranormal research. When I get results in my magical workings, I only end up hyper-ventilating from the shock that it's real.

In my attempts to achieve thought-form contact with Ra, I was only told that it would lead to me going into a psychosis.

I don't really believe in any of this. My rational mind doesn't accept it at all. But I still push myself into it with the faith that it's real... but my mind does not fully surrender.

I am not cut out for this. I am simply not religious. I don't know how I will get my mind to eventually shift but it will happen eventually.

This was all an accident. I am not supposed to be here but I am. This is the road I now take.

[Unbound]

I am confused, how can you empirically experience something as real, but then exclude it from rationality? Unless your rationality is based entirely in theory, I suppose.

This choice is still yours, you don't have to pursue this any farther than you so wish. If you want my opinion, I would maybe take a step outside of purely magical principles and examine some of the scientific concepts which surround the concepts. Most in particular that is useful is a study of harmonics/music, geometry, field theory, quantum mechanics, vortex mathematics, radionics, etc. I find that when my rational mind has difficulty swallowing the experiences I am having I go in search of rational knowledge which supports and supplements my experience.

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I would say that this is one of the reasons why traditions and such paths can be highly prized and useful becauee this has all been walked before.

I would also take a look at shape power, such as in Shape Power by Dan Davidson, and the power of sound on all levels. Another fruitful pathway is through chinese and other asian medicines which make use of the energy meridians and nadis around the body. For me, I have put in effort to in any and every way possible analog my body with my higher bodies and energies. For every sensation I experience I tie it in to an aspect of the body and the mind. Everything, every experience is rigorously grounded in real life experience and the context constantly brought back to the current state of awareness and living. Context is so important for stability, I feel.

[AnthroHeart]

Regarding the radionics, I tried some glass beads that were charged with Tachyon and water energy once. I had them in a stainless steel container, and the high-pitched resonance of the stainless steel with the tachyon made me throw up. I had a bunch of tachyon energy in a metal bowl. Later on I ordered some brass which is not nearly as bright as stainless steel. It's a bit softer. My favorite is bronze which has a sweet taste to the energy. This was back when I could feel and taste energies. I can't any longer. I learned from this you can put the energy of water into glass. It was done with a machine built based on Tesla technology.
The guy also sells Clear Light water, which you just take a drop on the tongue, and you feel it energizing your whole body. After a few weeks, I became used to this, and it no longer charged me up.
I used to try all sorts of energy devices. Mobius coils with 15Hz generators to create a field that can block harmful EMF. Lemurian crystals. Sacred G Fusion posters. I've tried and spent quite a bit of money.

I don't spend anymore. Though I might get a black tourmaline for protection in the future, or any other crystal that is good for negative protection. Maybe a device that can keep out negative thinking. I often get thoughts of wanting to die, and sometimes I entertain those thoughts.

[GentleReckoning]

I am confused, how can you empirically experience something as real, but then exclude it from rationality? Unless your rationality is based entirely in theory, I suppose.

Fundamentalism is the religion of the 20th century.

[Aureus]

[Revised]

[AnthroHeart]

Gemini, getting a black tourmaline could be a good idea. Another one that I strongly recommend is red jasper. The jasper will strengthen your feeling of self-love. Not to be confused with STS-love, the love in question is positive. Find one that is orange-red(but more red than orange)/blood-red.

Along with this get an iron pyrite crystal as well. Very good to sharpen the mind and keep you physically strong.

I've run across many different crystals... These are the ones that have stuck.

Good luck

I was just thinking of red jasper yesterday or today. I didn't know if it came in that color.

[Fastidious Emanations]

There is a very simplistic message that seems to show up in the material now and then, which seems to hint at true balance.

It shows up at the beginning and end of every transmission.

[Sagittarius]

I am not psychologically cut out for paranormal research. When I get results in my magical workings, I only end up hyper-ventilating from the shock that it's real.

In my attempts to achieve thought-form contact with Ra, I was only told that it would lead to me going into a psychosis.

I don't really believe in any of this. My rational mind doesn't accept it at all. But I still push myself into it with the faith that it's real... but my mind does not fully surrender.

I am not cut out for this. I am simply not religious. I don't know how I will get my mind to eventually shift but it will happen eventually.

This was all an accident. I am not supposed to be here but I am. This is the road I now take.

Because the "magical personalities" you meet in silence are the same you meet in person in the more intense noise or communication between other-selves.

The autonomous reaction from your body is indeed a sign to forget what you know. Not through negligence or rigidity but through exploring interaction with other selves in the red/orange/yellow vibration and using the knowledge of the half formed upper chakras to get into the flow of free energy exchange, yes this means taking mental bullets in your stride. It can be described only as far as the seriatim process has been trodden. The start and the end is the mystery because nothing here can be used to describe or see it beyond the notification of lines crossed until nothing is seen in lines and silence is attained.

[Adonai One]

Crappy paint drawing of what I saw. The black scribbles are pretty much the internal organs that showed through the transcluscent body. They were dark red/purple/blueish in color.

http://i.imgur.com/jzkZCUh.png