03-12-2009, 03:13 PM
First off, hello everyone. I just found this place and I think it's great.
So for my story. Even when I was young I rememember telling myself that I was different. I was a happy kid but quiet. I lived in a rural area and spent most of my time in the woods or with our animals. People always seemed hostile and dangerous to me. Even my parents , I knew were not like me. I do have a sister who may be a wanderer and we were good friends growing up but since then she has strayed from the path to pursue more earthly goals.She will be back.
Anyway,early childhood was alright I was facinated with anything about ufos or aliens.I also absorbed any info on ghost, bigfoot or anything paranormal. I still do.When I was around twelve things started to go down hill. Now I was expected to act in a different way and start playing these social games. I failed misserably. My grades slipped and my depression surfaced. No one understood, and I got into trouble a lot.In junior high I began to play along somewhat and met some friends.At fourteen I started to drink and smoke pot.I used it to become like everyone else and fit in.This continued until I was eighteen and I had a chemicaly induced mystical experience, it changed my life.It was like a veil had been lifted.After this I realized the futility of drinking and drugs and I began to have "big" dreams, some fully lucid.
One such dream involved a ufo shooting a lazer into my forehead and telling me "You are from Venus."I had no idea what that meant.I often dream of ufos and psychedelic scenes in the sky also wild earth changes,like the crust of the earth heaving up and splitting apart.I have also had two seperate ufo encounters in broad daylight, very close.I figured I must be insane.
I became isolated from my "friends" and began studying eastern religions.I started to meditate and contemplate my existense.I was very depressed even suicidal at times, I felt completely alone and confused.I could not hold a job, I found it all pointless.For years I struggled with myself.Why am I here? What is all this?
Only in the last few years have I seen the light and only in the last few months have I actually woken up.Recently I have had some experiences that have shown my true self and I have received information about who I am and why I am here.I still thought that maybe I just made it up,until I ran across the Law of One material.It confirmed that I am not crazy.Parts of the Ra material are exactly the same info as I have received.
I am now awake and doing the work to be a conduit of Love and Light for us all.Together we can raise the vibes and make a great world.
Its nice to know there are others out there, I dont feel so alone now.
Thank you.
So for my story. Even when I was young I rememember telling myself that I was different. I was a happy kid but quiet. I lived in a rural area and spent most of my time in the woods or with our animals. People always seemed hostile and dangerous to me. Even my parents , I knew were not like me. I do have a sister who may be a wanderer and we were good friends growing up but since then she has strayed from the path to pursue more earthly goals.She will be back.
Anyway,early childhood was alright I was facinated with anything about ufos or aliens.I also absorbed any info on ghost, bigfoot or anything paranormal. I still do.When I was around twelve things started to go down hill. Now I was expected to act in a different way and start playing these social games. I failed misserably. My grades slipped and my depression surfaced. No one understood, and I got into trouble a lot.In junior high I began to play along somewhat and met some friends.At fourteen I started to drink and smoke pot.I used it to become like everyone else and fit in.This continued until I was eighteen and I had a chemicaly induced mystical experience, it changed my life.It was like a veil had been lifted.After this I realized the futility of drinking and drugs and I began to have "big" dreams, some fully lucid.
One such dream involved a ufo shooting a lazer into my forehead and telling me "You are from Venus."I had no idea what that meant.I often dream of ufos and psychedelic scenes in the sky also wild earth changes,like the crust of the earth heaving up and splitting apart.I have also had two seperate ufo encounters in broad daylight, very close.I figured I must be insane.
I became isolated from my "friends" and began studying eastern religions.I started to meditate and contemplate my existense.I was very depressed even suicidal at times, I felt completely alone and confused.I could not hold a job, I found it all pointless.For years I struggled with myself.Why am I here? What is all this?
Only in the last few years have I seen the light and only in the last few months have I actually woken up.Recently I have had some experiences that have shown my true self and I have received information about who I am and why I am here.I still thought that maybe I just made it up,until I ran across the Law of One material.It confirmed that I am not crazy.Parts of the Ra material are exactly the same info as I have received.
I am now awake and doing the work to be a conduit of Love and Light for us all.Together we can raise the vibes and make a great world.
Its nice to know there are others out there, I dont feel so alone now.
Thank you.