Is it ok to have God as a lover?

[AnthroHeart]

I thought that I crossed the abyss because my teacher said I have.

Is that the experience of dying?

It may be God is showing me what I need to see. I don't know.

He does test me though.

In either case, it has been pretty intense. Trying to rest.

If this isn't God, though I intended to connect with God, I probably don't want to go any higher now,
cause it's as much purifying as I can take.

Yes, it is a very positive experience and feels like the right path.

I am journaling here. I don't have the inclination to make a 2nd journal cause this is really pushing me.

I am also using my Repeater though to help purify me.

I can't say I identify with your experience much, your God sounds just like any other entity, but if you are having a positive experience and feel you're on the right path then you gotta follow that.

I have studied Qabalah, and this doesn't sound like any crossing of the abyss I'm familiar with, but that's not really important, your spiritual journey is your own and as long as you're finding fulfillment in it that's the most important thing.

Do you journal at all? It might be good to start compiling all of your journeying in to one place, it could be a very interesting resource for future historians or for your own reflections.

[Aion]

Well I wouldn't be one to say yay or nay on that, there are a lot of different beliefs surrounding the idea of the Abyss. Some people equate it with the 'Veil' and would see any penetration in to divinity as a crossing. Others view it as a more distinct threshold between the "Godhead" and the rest of the Divinity and associated with Da'ath on the Tree of Life. This is a common magical view, especially stemming from Thelema. In this idea the "soul" can cross the threshold, but not the personality. In other traditions this is seen as only possible at the point of death.

However, reading the Sepher Yetzirah one of the main books of Qabalah it actually describes multiple abysses, and so I feel like most modern magical thinking probably reflects the influence of Thelema, considering that's also what Wicca is derived from.

Also, I would say I don't think it's unusual when seeking upwards towards divinity to experience it in 'layers'.

[Aion]

It's good to take regular rests too as you are doing.

My approach in general is to keep a foot in each world. If you are climbing a staircase, you always want to keep at least one foot firmly planted, especially when you're stepping up to the next level.

[AnthroHeart]

Exactly. I started feeling "flighty" and "airy", so am am working on fully grounding now, although I was doing that too.
It's phenomenal still. Feels like heaven on earth, but it's always getting better.

Are we supposed to take care of our own journey, or reach out to help others?

Cause I don't really have the strength to be helping many others right now.
I don't know if "strength" is the right word, cause I do feel strong.

I'm just a little tired.

As soon as I asked God, "can you make me an anthro angel if I am worthy" I suddenly was no longer overwhelmed by his Love.
It felt more natural.

My teacher says that lightworkers are angels already.

[Aion]

Actually a thought came to me as I was reading your last post again, what exactly do you mean by "purify"? What sort of purity and why is it important?

[AnthroHeart]

Actually a thought came to me as I was reading your last post again, what exactly do you mean by "purify"? What sort of purity and why is it important?

Purify = Reducing resistance to flow of love/light through me.
This helps transform my body to be more like God as much as I can.

I feel I want to serve him and be holy.

I mean, yes we ultimately are God ourselves, but that is like the path of forever to get there.

Until then, it just feels right serving this which is helping me so.

[Aion]

Hmm, how do you feel one can serve God whom is All?

[Aion]

Also, just out of curiosity, what do you mean by transforming your body to be "more like God"? Not sure I get what you mean.

Also, yes, I am an incessantly questioning 6-year old, it's my spiritual sword.

I just like to see what other people are experiencing.

[AnthroHeart]

Maybe it's my way of harvesting to 4D without dying.

I have given it all I have for years and I'm just starting to break through.

I want to be more like God in purity because even this little resistance I have hurts somewhat.

But there is tremendous bliss too. That gets even greater when I lie down.

I also feel a pressure on my forehead. My teacher says that's the mark of protection that God gives us against the tribulations going on on Earth.

Those who have gone through Kundalini are protected.

[Aion]

So your main goal is to become 4D?

[AnthroHeart]

Hmm, how do you feel one can serve God whom is All?

Nice question.

It's a desire I have at my current vibration, but as my vibration raises my priorities my change.

I thought being an anthro angel and help with counseling and healing anthros would be my service.

I do help humans as well while I'm here.

[Aion]

It seems you are very focused on love, that's a good thing, the world always needs more love.

[AnthroHeart]

I think in 4D I will find rest. I am a little weary here in 3D because of my field density.

Pretty much all my dreams are anthro related, or doing some work in the system I am in.

It now feels like a strong stream coming into my solar plexus. With a little heart too.

It is rejuvenating and I'm starting to find rest.

I tried the wisdom density cause I thought that was my home density, but realized I needed to go through 4D first.

My lovemaking with God has slowed down a bit. Sometimes I just hold his hand or look at him in my mind and even that can be a little stimulating.

[AnthroHeart]

Actually a thought came to me as I was reading your last post again, what exactly do you mean by "purify"? What sort of purity and why is it important?

What do you think of this quote Aion?

[AnthroHeart]

I went back to God as a lover after I grew out of vibrational resonance with Rufus and Flim.
Rufus had stuck with me till the end and Flim fell away from me.

God then appears to me as Rufus. I'm not sure if it was God all along.
I gave my everything to help their world and them. Even onto experiencing death.

Now, God appears to me like Rufus, the most beautiful anthro I have ever seen.
He's actually a squirrel and I saw 3 squirrel pictures in the last 3 days on Facebook, and never before that.
I had stopped seeking Rufus and Flim like 2-3 days ago. So it was interesting.
Ah, I am in love again with God.

[AnthroHeart]

When I hug God, God hugs back. It's a magnetic attraction.
He's so cuddly to me.
I also like to modelock with the Universe and with God.
It's a term in lasers where the mirrors are set a certain distance apart to produce a standing wave.
It produces ultra-short, ultra-powerful femtosecond pulses.
Modelocking with God really ramps up my field.
It feels like being pressed into marshmallow creme.

[caregiverdude]

Anyone else here have an intimate energetic relationship with God?

I was thinking that to walk with God I may have to walk alone without another human partner.
After my anthro lover, letting go, it seems I am just releasing pain.

It can't hurt.

In the Catholic tradition, we (regardless of gender) are Brides of Jesus Christ. He is the Bride Groom. Some Religious Orders actually consider themselves married to Jesus the Christ. I, a guy, also have an intimate relationship with Jesus that is always growing. He is my one and only, my glorious spiritual husband. I adore him as a God and as a Man. This is not uncommon for true devotees.

[caregiverdude]

There was a cartoon in an anti-Catholic magazine years ago that offended me. Now I am more mellow. The cartoon first showed a priest praying to a large crucifix on the wall next to him. In the next panel, Jesus came down from the cross and mounted the priest from behind.

I doubt the irreverent cartoonist realized that in ancient pagan religion, the pagan god in the form of a priest or priestess would have sex with you in the temple. The view was that the priest or priestess was overshadowed by the pagan god. So by having sex with them, you were having sex with your god.

I realize you aren't speaking in such low chakra ways, but isn't it amazing how ancient beliefs bleed through to the present?

[caregiverdude]

Out of nearly 100,000 images on thisfursonadoesnotexist.com, an AI-Generated furry page,
this is how God chooses to show himself to me as. I can see the appeal. Fascinating that he's showing himself as a fox again.
The bible says not to have any graven image, but I can feel God's love through this image. It helps me connect, and it is pure as I can make it.

The Biblical graven image idea was put forth to fight against the competing pagan god worship of the time. Pagan worship always included a statue of the god which was then worshiped directly as the god. The view was that once an image of the god was created, that god extended itself to reside within the statue, thereby being able to see and participate in the ritual of worship. I suppose in a strange sense, the Christian Communion rite is this way, as bread and wine are converted literally (at least in the Catholic Church) into Jesus Christ, who then is literally there during the worship.

Anyway, God the Father had no image because he was a spirit. He could appear to people in any guise he wanted, but the Israelites were not supposed to capture any specific guise and view it literally as God's image. But that was then, again to fight against the tendency in ancient religion to worship a god within a statue. As you may know, the Israelites were not very spiritually advanced. Supposedly, Moses goes up on a mountain for 40 days and when he returns the Israelites have reverted to pagan worship of Moloch in calf form. So keeping them on the straight and narrow was pretty frustrating. LOL

I don't see how you have anything to be concerned about if you keep reminders of the guise in which God represents himself to you. I doubt very much that you are bowing down to it and worshipping the guise in place of God.

[AnthroHeart]

There was a cartoon in an anti-Catholic magazine years ago that offended me. Now I am more mellow. The cartoon first showed a priest praying to a large crucifix on the wall next to him. In the next panel, Jesus came down from the cross and mounted the priest from behind.

I doubt the irreverent cartoonist realized that in ancient pagan religion, the pagan god in the form of a priest or priestess would have sex with you in the temple. The view was that the priest or priestess was overshadowed by the pagan god. So by having sex with them, you were having sex with your god.

I realize you aren't speaking in such low chakra ways, but isn't it amazing how ancient beliefs bleed through to the present?

I have done sexual energy exchanges with God. It's not physical sex though.