Hello

[turtledude23]

I'm not sure if I'm a wanderer or not but here's my story, partly for your enjoyment and partly for my own recollection.

When I was very young I was really happy and creative, always daydreaming, but usually I was alone, voluntarily I think. Something I realized just today was that later in my youth I was very service-to-self, I used to think otherwise because I remember talking the talk about human rights and such but from age 9 to about 15 I really only cared about my self (more so than most people) and I was quite good at it. Then life hit me with me difficulties, major changes, new opportunities, and eventually a girlfriend, and I began moving towards service-to-others.

I had no interest in spirituality but I was intrigued by psychics, I heard about Edgar Cayce and on his wikipedia page (I think) there was a quote from The Law of One so I checked it out and I really liked it. Later I read a book called The Children of the Law of One and the Lost Teachings of Atlantis which helped me alot in polarizing except I formed my own strict little dogma from what I inferred from that book and was very controlling of my girlfriend, finally we broke up and I decided to read The Law of One a second time and it really resonated with me, the part about STO accepting everything and STS controlling everything struck me the most.

So here I am now, reaching 51% STO seems hard but I think I can manage.

[Peregrinus]

Welcome brother, and thank you for sharing. No one can know if you are a wanderer but for yourself, so it is within yourself you must search for this clarity if knowing that is important to you. Typically those that end up here are wanderers, but there are some that have no feeling of such.

I look forward to your involvement in many discussions, and ensure to read up on the many that are already here. There is a wealth of insight already on this forum in so many topics it might boggle the mind

[Brittany]

Hey, turtledude! Some of your words resonate with me. Throughout my life I have gone through bouts of rather extreme STS behavior, along with periods of wanting to serve my fellow man to the point that it physically harmed me. It almost seems as if my polarity is well...bipolar. Still, I feel like the experience I've gained from both sides has helped me slowly balance myself out. Discovering my own inner darkness has been a big part of my finding the light. So I wouldn't stress out too much about hitting some key number. Just the fact that you have made a decision and are actively working on it is putting you on the path of polarization.

[seagrass]

Hello Turtledude. I am new to the forum as well. This is my first day.
Intend to spend the week here reading these stories. Then I will write my own.
I know I am a wanderer simply because I have been wandering my whole life. The term is part of my identity.
I found the LOO many years ago. But I am back full force this time for a clearer understanding and one that is shared with others, not just something I hold inside.