Premonition, dreams, destiny.

[Nowheretoday]

I feel I have no control over my life and the events to come, free will an illusion. My choices dictated by my personality, distortions, preferences, likes, dislikes, etc, even pre incarnative choices, where's the free will in that?
All big events in my life, foreseen, with details, to the point of experiencing the emotions to come. I don't want this, I don't wanna be in a relationship knowing for certain how it ends, experiencing the pain before it even happens, I don't wanna know the future of my life, the same dream repeating over and over again.
Make it stop, free me from this unalterable path, from this prison called destiny. What purpose does it serve? I don't wanna hear about oh it's not about the end but what's in between. I'm okay with knowing I'm gonna die someday but that's about it, I don't wanna know about a future I don't like. Please, help me be free.

[Nowheretoday]

Everyday doing just enough to get by, with nowhere to focus my will and love, doing enough to fulfill what's expected of me and doing enough so I don't fall in a hole of depression. On top of that knowing that no matter how hard you try to change things, I get the dream saying, sorry that's not for you, your life gonna be this.
I'm sorry for bringing my whining to this forum, I'm not asking for your sympathy but maybe guidance, understand, perhaps see things different.

[MangusKhan]

When we whine we offer to those with the ability to accept it the gift of empathy. Your whining is welcome to me friend. If your feel locked within this physical illusion it is because you are, and yet, with the right key and single twist...

[Coordinate_Apotheosis]

Can you provide specific details as to what these dreams and premonitions are that have begun bothering you so much?

What do you want to do in life?
What are these premonition saying otherwise?

I'd first recommend you grab a nice big chill glass of water and just take a moment to drink it and calm down.

I can't speak as to your premonitions being real or otherwise but if they're occurring it's for a reason, and it may not be as simple as that's what'll be without doubt.  They may just be sign posts, they may even be warning you you're on that road, or maybe they're trying to say that's the road you want to be on.

I can't say though, I don't know what it is, that you are experiencing.  It might be kundalini, might be preplanned catalyst.

Care to offer more detail?

[Nowheretoday]

Can you provide specific details as to what these dreams and premonitions are that have begun bothering you so much?

What do you want to do in life?
What are these premonition saying otherwise?

I'd first recommend you grab a nice big chill glass of water and just take a moment to drink it and calm down.

I can't speak as to your premonitions being real or otherwise but if they're occurring it's for a reason, and it may not be as simple as that's what'll be without doubt.  They may just be sign posts, they may even be warning you you're on that road, or maybe they're trying to say that's the road you want to be on.

I can't say though, I don't know what it is, that you are experiencing.  It might be kundalini, might be preplanned catalyst.

Care to offer more detail?

I don't really wanna give out details but the last two relationships I was in, after a couple months in I had those dreams where I foresaw the reason of the end followed by an overwhelming sadness that wakes me up. It was totally out of my control, no way I could've created the outcome. When I was a kid I kept having this dream over and over again, I'm my early twenties it manifested, life changing event, now I'm older and this other dream keeps repeating itself, I can't oversee the fact that most likely it will occur and I'm not happy with it. These are landmarks or posts like you call them. These are the biggest occurrences without mentioning how I've seen my father die in a hospital bed, possible to come given his health. Throughout the year I'll have unimportant dreams that manifest themselves during the day. After my grandpa passed away I saw him in my dreams, I had a few, very realistic conversations with him where I asked him for advice and telling me to tell my mom that all was well. If I were posting this somewhere else people would be calling me crazy. And yeah I had my glass water to chill, nothing I can do but to accept I suppose.

[Glow]

I’ve always prayed for that.
I’ve had a few dreams that turned out exact and it gave me a taste for it.

I always thought I could prepare for anything if I knew it was coming.

I’d take it off your hands if I could. I hate surprises or getting hopes up, it seems like folly to get excited about anything then be disappointed. I’d like to just know what’s coming and figure out how to make that work. It’s coming might as well build around it instead of trying to fight it.

Sorry it isn’t working for you.

[Nowheretoday]

I’ve always prayed for that.
I’ve had a few dreams that turned out exact and it gave me a taste for it.

I always thought I could prepare for anything if I knew it was coming.

I’d take it off your hands if I could. I hate surprises or getting hopes up, it seems like folly  to get excited about anything then be disappointed. I’d like to just know what’s coming and figure out how to make that work. It’s coming might as well build around it instead of trying to fight it.

Sorry it isn’t working for you.

For the second relationship I made use of it, the dream had two stages, when I saw first stage manifest I knew the second stage or end was imminent, it made me appreciate every moment even more, I knew what I had and treasured so much was going to be gone, prepared myself to let go.