Something that has been sitting on my phone about realization

[Cyan]

I wrote this once and didnt put much more effort into pondering about it at that time but feel that it should be posted here now:

If you are a high level STS and want "out".
Realize that all around are actors in trying to be human.
Your "failure" to be "good" is what they study.
The attention is the same, but they study why you fail as humans.
Because all fail eventually, thats your way out of neg 4d and above.
Get into neg 4, sin is easier, thats the lesson.
But remember why it is resisted and why you return.
Some believe that they cant(meant to write can) reform their 3d chemical from 4d.

Thoughts? I felt it was a radical realization for me, that if you really want to live forever in a positive world, you need to study the negative worlds and their mistakes too so you can recognize when you are doing the same. It was kind of a liberation knowing that positives study negatives for the benefit of positives as well. Can you (Reader) see what I mean?