STO/STS Meditation

[Brittany]

The journey that has gotten me to the point of having this discussion is a whole other post in itself. I have been very busy during my hiatus from the forum. However, I will say in brief that I have come to accept that my natural state is one of flux, constantly cycling between the polarities. I feel I have both polarities activated within me, working in a symbiotic fashion instead of one retaining dominance over the other.

So on to the topic at hand...I've always had difficulty meditating, due to a bad case of ADHD or whatever they are calling it these days. Lately, however, I have come to the point that my body, mind and spirit all crave that state of communion, so I have been experimenting with different meditation techniques, trying to find something that doesn't succeed in making me miserable.

My most recent experiment is meditating in both polarities within a singular meditation, switching my techniques at the drop of a hat. The results have been absolutely mind-blowing.

I usually use music to aid me in achieving the appropriate state of mind. There are certain songs that instantly trigger one state of mind or the other within me, so switching my mindset is as easy as hitting a button on my MP3 player.

Today I started in what I perceive to be an STS form of meditation, focusing on the solar plexus and rotating the power within myself, then shooting it out in a concentrated beam through my crown chakra (very similar to what Zaxon describes in his thread). This results in a feeling of immense, compacted power within my solar plexus, stretching up to my third eye. Reality contracts and everything becomes very honed and focused, like the edge of a knife. I also usually feel an unusual sensation at my temples, almost as if invisible fingers are pressing against the sides of my head.

Then I switched over to positive meditation, letting my heart open up and all the energy that had been stored up within it as it was tightly shut to surge through my system. This resulted in shudders of pleasure crashing through my body, and all the focused power exploded outward as light, more potent than I have ever felt it before. I felt tingles of electricity go through my whole body, lightning shooting up and down my spine. My initial response was WOW.

I guess the point I am trying to make here is that I think the polarities have a lot to learn from each other, and each can be utilized by its opposite to create an effect that is absolutely unrivaled. The polarities act as amplifiers upon each other, and it is very possible to create a complete circuit of energy within the body, using the polarities as conductors. (The more complex scientific/electrical jargon involved in this concept is mostly beyond me at this point.)

This pretty much turns my strongest beliefs from the past several years on their ear. It seems unorthodox, but never before have I felt so full, complete, content, satisfied...For the first time in this incarnation I truly like who I am and feel that I have a place in existence.

Thoughts?

[AnthroHeart]

Interesting the contrast. When I felt very dense in my solar plexus I remembered Ra talking about how negative beings are unusually dense in their solar plexus. This made me a little afraid because I thought I was polarizing negative, and I really wanted to be STO polarity.

[drifting pages]

Hi Ahktu

I think you want freedom to experiment and be yourself (whatever that self may be in any given moment) without following a book/script of how things should or not be, you want to express your own truth trough your experience and not trough someone else words may they be mine, the bible's, Ra's, the global belief systems or whatever.

Which is what i feel about myself.

My thoughts as you asked

[Brittany]

Exactly. I don't like the thought that who I am is not good enough- that I have to reach some arbitrary percentage of good/bad behavior to get into the VIP room of reality...that I would have to change who I am completely in order to be acceptable. I do not think the Creator works that way.

Gemini, in my experience, facing the possibility of negative polarization head-on without fear is necessary in order to truly pursue the positive polarity. It was the moment I accepted that possible reality that many of my positive traits became apparent to me. A blockage in the solar plexus chakra can cause the same feeling of heaviness. I don't think you will suddenly find yourself a negative entity if you are constantly evaluating the self and pursuing the positive polarity with vigor.

[Oceania]

that's cool, i think that idea of a circuit makes sense.

[Ankh]

Hey sis,

It's awesome that you found a meditation that feels right. I am happy for you!

In regards to the rest that you said, I believe that Ra also says that the key to balance is seen in the unstudied, spontaneous and honest response. Therefore whatever that is inside should come up to the surface.

And as to that Zaxon thread, what I personally wished to explore, is my personal understanding of polarities, as I believe that either Zaxon is not polarized enough, or that I must have misunderstood something fundamental in regards to polarities, which I in that case wanted to explore. I bear no judgement whether one wants to polarize this or that way. You of all people should know that.

My understanding is that polarizing in service to others is as difficult as polarizing in service to self. But where does the difficulty in STS polarization lies? My understanding is that this difficulty lies in the amount of dedication that you need to put when pursuing the path of service to self. We all have darkness within us. We are all things. But if choosing service to self path, my belief is that there is no switching polarity in consciousness or opening up heart center, as you don't have an advantage of 49% to make choices outside that chosen service to self polarity. You have an advantage of *maximum* 5%. Love for another self, although conditional, is still love for another self. Here is where difficulty in graduating in this polarity lies. You can of course afford such heart opening experiences for your own amusement, if you have opened the gateway to intelligent infinity, thus able to harvest yourself, but not if you are to graduate through the conventional method... That's my understanding anyway. And I am saying "you" in general kind of sense, not you personally.

Don't know if you will read it. But have a blast week!!! \0/ /

[Oceania]

it's hard to polarize negative because a lot of people have a lot of good in them.

[Liet]

E=MC^2
To attain mass you need the solar plexus, its the heaviest, tho it require an equaly strong root to have something bear its weight.
The speed of light is simply the most radiant... The crown.
There are tho two aspects of the crown, the center/thin one attained through the yellow ray pushing height (violet) and the enveloping/broad one through the green ray making sure it doesnt collapse right as you stop pushing (light pink).

It should be mentioned that the unified heart equals Lime and is an overtone on the frequency "1" (the hip).. which make this oh so much easier.

It should be obvious that utalizing everything as a whole, beats chosing only one half of the equation when knowing that the totality equals all the values multiplied by eachothers, not added.


While on the topic of false beliefs...
Early on, i thought (because of having read the Law of One) that pushing energies down my legs would reverse my energy flow (and make me turn into the negative polarity).. Something i clearly was scared of, so i tried my best to refrain from doing it..
But yeah... Just like with all other beliefs ive held that kept me from doing xyz, it turned out to be false.

[Oceania]

someone said lime is bad.

[Liet]

someone said lime is bad.

That was me, but just in the context of one aiming for vibrant/gleaming gold.. seeing any color except that one golden tone is a bad thing. The roots begins as brown, and the more parts of the spectrum you firmly ground/connect within/to it, the more shining/radiant this brown(s***) will become.

Input: s***
Output: Golden white light

The alchemist stone? anyone?

[Oceania]

i see.

[Brittany]

A lot of times I wonder if the concept of polarity keeps people from polarizing, due to the fear that they will somehow turn into the undesired polarity, or out of the sheer frustration of what seems like an impossible task, especially with a deadline being dropped. Harvest is NOW. You'd better get your s*** in order or it's curtains for you! I know plenty of seekers who do little more than run in circles, worrying about what polarity they fall into. I was one of them for a good period of time, and I was miserable. So much effort is put into maintaining a perceived percentage of polarity that simple lessons along the way are missed, or avoided out of fear. I think being awake and aware of who you are and what you want in your life, especially in the spiritual aspect, is more important than trying to hit some critical mass that will supposedly catapult you into higher living. That "deadline", that "grade marker" is great for jumpstarting people who would otherwise do nothing but wallow for the next several eons, but when it comes to active spiritual seekrers, I think the focus put on a measurement of something that in truth can not be measured serves more as a distraction than a motivation. Be who you are, and you are offering the highest service available. It is a job that no one else can do.

[Brittany]

Pursuing this path of meditation has become almost a form of scientific analysis for me. I realized this while I was attempting to engage in it earlier today. Here are the conclusions I have drawn so far:

1. There are two main types of meditation. These include active meditation and passive meditation. Passive meditation involves attempting to reduce the level of thought within the mind, with the ultimate goal usually being to empty the mind completely and experience a state of pure awareness without thought. This in itself takes a degree of focus. However, the release of the specific thought patterns that contribute to one's focus in everyday life is imperative.
Active meditation, on the other hand, invovles actively pursuing a singular focus in thought, be it visualizing a desired outcome, the sending or taking of energy, or the seeking of an experience which involves an altered state of reality. It takes as much continuous and conscious effort as would the undertaking of any physical activity, and can, in fact, consume physical enegy. This is similar to studying hard for a test, or preparing a presentation that could affect your job. While passive meditation often produces a state of rest and rejuvination, active meditation consumes energy and directs it toward a particular end result.

2. Any meditation which associates itself specifically with one or both polarities falls under the category of active meditation. It requires conforming to certain pre-formed thought patterns in order to maintain the act of polarizing (i.e., thinking negative thoughts while attempting to do a positive active meditation would be counterproductive, and would render the consumption of energy useless, whereas the energy used in passive mediation is neutral and cannot be wasted). The main objective of this specific form of active meditation is to increase in the desired polarity. This creates the equation EFFORT + FOCUS = POLARITY.

3. Attempting to mix active and passive meditation techniques cancels out the effectiveness of both. This occured most clearly today when I began attempting to meditate in an STS fashion, with the intention of carrying out the full-circuit meditation technique described at the beginning of this thread. However, I got drowsy and ended up lowering my focus to a passive state and eventually falling sleep. Instead of the intense feeling of full-circuit completion, I felt as if I had been stabbed in the solar plexus when I woke up. I was sick to my stomach and felt "off" for some time. I started out with focused intent and then through my own lack of willpower failed to follow that intent, which leads me to the final point:

4. In order for active meditation to be successful, it must be carried out to completion and the energy raised must be used or consciously stored in some way. Otherwise this energy will dissolve itself within the body and cause undesirable effects. As a sub-point, in an active meditation that focuses on polarity, the energy must be discharged in a way that corresponds with that polarity. It is possible to switch between polarities in meditation, but at some point the energy raised must be shunted through one or the other. An example of positive energy direction would be sending the raised energy out to the world or into the planet for healing purposes. A dramatic example of negatively directing energy would be to release it in a curse or a bid for power over another individual. A less dramatic example would be to consciously consume the raised energy to increase ones own power, which differs starkly from simply letting the energy run aimlessly through the body.

I am not suggesting that there is one right way of meditation, or that this structure is all-inclusive. It is simply an analysis that has helped me in improving the state of my own meditations.

[Richard]

someone said lime is bad.

That was me, but just in the context of one aiming for vibrant/gleaming gold.. seeing any color except that one golden tone is a bad thing. The roots begins as brown, and the more parts of the spectrum you firmly ground/connect within/to it, the more shining/radiant this brown(s***) will become.

Input: s***
Output: Golden white light

The alchemist stone? anyone?

Color is perceived differently by almost everyone. Almost all of us suffer from some form of color blindness. Most people never realize this. Myself...I'm a tad color blind in the orange to pink ranges. I inadvertantly discovered this when working on chemical titration while watching for an endpoint pink from orange. I just couldn't see it and repeatedly over-titrated thus ruining the test.

And, then there are people who are totally color blind.

The point is...you cannot assess (or judge) the spiritual progress of another based on your perception of a wavelength..or color, as it were. I'd venture to say we'd be better off communicating what we felt along with a "change of color"...instead of a certain color?

I don't visualize any particular color other than a blinding white with regards to the chakras. I'm aware of the color scheme of each and what they represent. But for for visualization purposes, I find it far more effective to maintain a stacked column brilliantly glowing white chakras.

Richard

Richard

[@ndy]

Thank you for sharing, I'm keen to try this.
I have always felt I'm here for balance, I'm not fuzzed about polarity, and that can make me lazy.
What you say makes sense to me.

I know you write You must have active daydreams & visualisations. Have you tried experimenting this way? I tend to use visualisation to escape I suppose, I feel I should maybe explore it's other potentials though

[Brittany]

Were you talking to me @ndy? I have created vast worlds inside my head, and I often spend a lot of time visualizing the desired results of anything I am putting effort into. It strengthens the manifestation of that reality.

[@ndy]

Ahktu, yes and thank you

Now I think about this I guess I do the same thing, both the creating worlds and the visualisation that what I'm aming at is allready in my future.

[Brittany]

Being able to visualize clearly is a precursor to all kinds of spiritual work. Just the act of visualizing in itself is a form of magic. I've often heard "I just can't do it." but it only takes a little practice and I would highly encourage anyone wanting to do any sort of work in consciousness to learn to visualize clearly. Start out by thinking of a simple object, like an apple. If even that is too difficult, think of a shape, like a circle, and practice holding that image in your mind. When you can do this for a few minutes, then start turning the image around and viewing it from different angles. Change its color. Change its size. When you can do this and continually hold the image, pick a more difficult object. When visualizing with your eyes closed becomes easy, try doing it with your eyes open. It is an ability that comes very quickly for most people, and is very, very useful.

[@ndy]

Funny Ahktu, When you say it like that it makes me think of dyslexia (I am dyslexic)

Theres a lovely book called the gift of dyslexia, that discribes in it how dyslexic people ususally think visually.
It's apparent at the age of 2, a non dyslexic toddler will see a sleeping kitten as a bit of fur. A dyslexic toddler will see the ball of fuzz spin it round in it's mind pop out some legs and a head and reslise it's a kitten - head straight to it and poke it awake.

This works so well for them that when they come to learn to read & write they do the same things with words. Instead of learing the 'rules' of spelling they start spinning all the letters and words round in there mind trying to 'work out' how to make the words instead of remebering them.


I know my way of thinking was amazing for studying anatomy and physiology as I found it so easy to see and visualise the functions and structures of the organs.... it's obviously less usefull for spelling like people expect

(Sorry this is prolly of topic)

[Brittany]

As long as what you say is useful and somehow related to what is being said, I'm not going to troll about derailment. I think the information you provided is very interesting. My husband is dyslexic and he would probably be interested in hearing that theory. He certainly has a unique way of seeing the world.