04-10-2011, 11:39 PM
I've started this about five or six times now; I keep starting over because it gets too long. So. Basics! I'm pretty much a walking, talking, Wanderer archetype. I answered yes to each question on Scott Mandelker's E.T. quiz once I realized "clear and uplifting contact with aliens" could also be applied to "angels" or other interpretations of similar entities. I'm here, for whatever reason, and I also don't think it matters much; there's only One of us.
I came across the LOO material through David Wilcock; to Wilcock through Edgar Cayce (though it took me about seven years to look him up again—I'd found him in 2001 initially—oh well, nothing is a waste), to Cayce from a high school teacher who advised me to look him up because I was writing a story about people leaving Atlantis to Egypt and the Yucatan. The next day I found "Edgar Cayce on Atlantis: Revisited" sitting by itself on the corner of a table of a bookseller at a fair. Synchronicity? Of course!
I've wanted to write since I could read, and my stories had eerie similarities to channeled writings and UFO stuff--plenty of coincidences with Dolores Cannon's work. At least, it was eerie before I finally just clicked things into place and said "okay, I'm a Wanderer." It explained so much of my psychology and my difficulties as a child and young adult. I'm all right with being as I am, in whatever form or vibration I am, as I'm not that worried about it getting worse. We are timeless, after all. A cycle here or there... returning to the awareness of Absolute Unity is inevitable, so there isn't much to worry about.
Identity floats in the past, and while it tends to influence the present, there's not much reason that it has to. It's only in our present that we think of the past. The story is different at every level, they say, and I think that applies to modes of existence. I'm definitely focused on balance and unity, and work toward that in my thoughts and interactions with other selves. Even saying other selves still implies separation. A non-dual approach seems like the only sensible approach at this stage, but I'll forget over and over...
Trusting on a deeper level that we are a single entity allows for a smoother peace in this one. In the few beautiful moments I've lived without fear, I saw that God was everything. I sensed the unity without it seeming like an underlying trait of reality—it was definitely at the forefront! It's all the same consciousness. Without fear, there is nothing but pure Love/God/Truth. So, while I insist I'm not in that state, I prevent myself from experiencing it, but to try to convince myself of fearlessness only brings fear to mind.
It's all God. It's all beautiful. It's all perfect. Love/light cannot flow out because it is already occupying the entirety of being. There is no place where love/light is not.
And now I'm rambling. I love you, beautiful being.
I came across the LOO material through David Wilcock; to Wilcock through Edgar Cayce (though it took me about seven years to look him up again—I'd found him in 2001 initially—oh well, nothing is a waste), to Cayce from a high school teacher who advised me to look him up because I was writing a story about people leaving Atlantis to Egypt and the Yucatan. The next day I found "Edgar Cayce on Atlantis: Revisited" sitting by itself on the corner of a table of a bookseller at a fair. Synchronicity? Of course!
I've wanted to write since I could read, and my stories had eerie similarities to channeled writings and UFO stuff--plenty of coincidences with Dolores Cannon's work. At least, it was eerie before I finally just clicked things into place and said "okay, I'm a Wanderer." It explained so much of my psychology and my difficulties as a child and young adult. I'm all right with being as I am, in whatever form or vibration I am, as I'm not that worried about it getting worse. We are timeless, after all. A cycle here or there... returning to the awareness of Absolute Unity is inevitable, so there isn't much to worry about.
Identity floats in the past, and while it tends to influence the present, there's not much reason that it has to. It's only in our present that we think of the past. The story is different at every level, they say, and I think that applies to modes of existence. I'm definitely focused on balance and unity, and work toward that in my thoughts and interactions with other selves. Even saying other selves still implies separation. A non-dual approach seems like the only sensible approach at this stage, but I'll forget over and over...
Trusting on a deeper level that we are a single entity allows for a smoother peace in this one. In the few beautiful moments I've lived without fear, I saw that God was everything. I sensed the unity without it seeming like an underlying trait of reality—it was definitely at the forefront! It's all the same consciousness. Without fear, there is nothing but pure Love/God/Truth. So, while I insist I'm not in that state, I prevent myself from experiencing it, but to try to convince myself of fearlessness only brings fear to mind.
It's all God. It's all beautiful. It's all perfect. Love/light cannot flow out because it is already occupying the entirety of being. There is no place where love/light is not.
And now I'm rambling. I love you, beautiful being.
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