02-04-2020, 02:28 PM
Hello, friends.
This is my first post here, although I have admired the Bring 4th community from afar at various times and also read all of The Ra Material ravenously a few years ago. I felt compelled to register and share a portion of a recent experience, in the hope that it might be useful in some way to others. I thought, given the nature of the material, that this would be the best place to do so.
On 1/2/2020, I had a Life Between Lives regression with a Newton Institute certified LBL Hypnotherapist. I highly recommend you explore Michael Newton's work if you haven't yet! My session ended up covering a lot of material that crossed into the "territory" of the Law of One and there's really no place in my daily life to share these things other than with my wife. I know that I would find this transcript useful if it came from someone else, and as such, would like to offer it here. If you only want information relating to Ra, densities, etc, you will have to jump ahead quite a bit, but I feel it is best, for understanding, to include the entire transcript.
Given that the transcript is over 15,000 words long, I have already learned the hard way that it is too large for one post. (doh!) So please forgive me for this initial post lacking the bulk of the material... once it is approved by moderators I will reply with the rest of the session.
I sincerely hope that this is of some value, comfort, or other interest to you. I welcome any discussion but do not require it. I am not looking for anything here other than to be of service and grow from any interaction which transpires. The transcript is entirely true to the audio recording and my recollection with the exception of changing the first names of currently living persons and shortening some of the speaking of the hypnotherapist which is unnecessary to understand the content. I am making an effort to color code things but am unsure how it'll turn out until the post is up.
With love, I'll begin:
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(begins at 1:27:50 mark on phone recording)
(This transcript begins at the stage of walking down the steps of my age in my current life, after the trance induction process. I see it visually as a stairwell in the sky. I have just come back to the seventh step on the stairs after exploring some images from the age of 7 at Judy's request.)
As I am stepping down from this step, I perceive a golden presence next to the stairs I am descending. It is without a body form, but the color is exactly the hue that I remember from my guide after my past life regression two years prior and I know that he is here with me already. He points out that I am already blocking thoughts of my bladder each time I breathe deeply with the balloon imagery. He hints that it may be a good idea to relieve myself before going further. I decline because I don't want to bother Judy and interrupt our progress; I had also used the restroom during my prior regression and was a bit embarrassed to interrupt at that time. Interestingly, it was also my guide in that session who instructed me to empty my bladder!
J: Think about stepping back onto your own stairway, standing on the seventh step, breathe a couple of your big balloon breaths now. Each time you exhale... (further instructions)
Stepping down now, 6... 5... 4... and now I'd like your mind to spread back to your very earliest memory in this body. At whatever age that comes. Let your very earliest memory return. And when you can, let me know where you are.
Backyard of the house.
Inside?
Outside. Backyard. A kind of play-set, swing-set, play-set.
What are you doing?
I'm back there with my mom. My brother is nearby. Just having fun.
Good. Now do you have a sense of your age in this scene?
Almost two.
Ok. Very good. (pause) You can let this scene fade now, as you breathe and bring your thoughts back to the stairway. Standing on the second step, exhaling and letting your mind spread out across the mirrored surface... (pause) We're going to count down again. Follow me back now...
Again, my guide presents next to the stairway. He indicates that our session can proceed either way, but that if I seek the maximum benefit, I must be free of physical distractions. He also reminds me of my desire to be of some service to Judy in her work, with the point that I have a better chance to do so if I choose to listen to him now. This would be my last chance to interrupt before I risk limiting this experience. I weigh his advice against my desire to not disappoint or frustrate Judy and then I speak.
May I interrupt you?
Repeat?
May I interrupt you?
Oh. Definitely.
I hear from my guide on the stairs, that my breathing with the balloon pressures my bladder.
(laughter) So would you like to not breathe with the balloon or go to the bathroom?
I feel that... the rest of our session might be better if I choose to go the bathroom once more now. Rather than distracting every time I return to the balloon.
Did you say your guide told you this on the stairway?
Yes.
So, if we might then ask your guide for assistance, as we go to the bathroom and return, that he helps allow your mind and body to return to the stillness with great ease once we're done. Would he assist with that?
Yes. My guide does indeed confirm that he will help with this, because it was his idea... although it was still ultimately my choice to make.
Ok, good. (Judy brings me partially out of my trance state to use the restroom. The entire time, I perceive my core essence standing, waiting on the second step of the stairs. I do recall using the bathroom, but it is more like a dream I had while waiting for myself to return on the second step. I have no doubt that my willingness to listen to my guide at this point was helpful to the rest of this session!)
(Transcript resumes on the stairs)
Going all the way back down into the womb.... one year old... eleven months... nine... (etc) And now, either sense or imagine moving back into the womb of your mom. Back into this dark, warm, wet environment. Just before your birth. I am going to ask you simple questions about this space as well and I'd like you to keep practicing answering with first thoughts that come. First, do you get a sense of comfort, or a sense of discomfort here?
Comfort.
Good. Can you tell if there's a defined sense of awareness in you at this time? Or does it seem to be spread out feeling or spacey?
It's a bit dreamy. My perception is part feeling, with touch, part feeling with emotion and energy.
Is there any particular emotion that you are able to feel or describe at this time?
Readiness. I feel full.
Do you know if that emotion comes from you, or if it might come from your mother? Or could be both as well.
It is both, but in different ways. I'm big, so she's ready to be done. But I feel ready to move to the next phase. Although I... I have a sense of how nice it's been to have our two energies so close together. That's the only time that we get to experience that. I perceive my own energy field coexisting within my mother's in a beautiful and delicate balance. I have the impression that this degree of closeness never happens again in a human form.
Very good. Is there anything about your little body that draws your attention as something you really like? If you can tell...
I just keep seeing... my spine. It's full of energy. I can see the vibration of bright light all along my spine, reaching up into my brain. There is a strength and power there that I identify as part of my true essence.
Is there anything in this moment about your body that might bother you?
It's so vulnerable. It's delicate and vulnerable. The powerlessness and dependency of my bodily form definitely stands out.
Do you discern any difference between your soul self and this little body?
Yes.
Can you describe that for me?
The body only has sensations. Physical sensations. But I still have a perception of... subtler things. That's why I'm feeling the energy (previously referenced).
Now let's think about the first time your joined with your body here. Think back through the months and see if you can tell me again, at what month you first joined fully with your little body.
Seven months. (I gave this same answer during my past life regression two years prior.)
Do you get the feeling that this was easy or challenging?
Relatively easy. It's not simple, but I'm comfortable with it.
Are there any other observations about this space before we move on?
Glimpses of light, I think through the skin. Very faint, almost like a weird aurora, sometimes. It's fascinating.
Very good. In a moment, I will count backward from nine to one.... (shortened due to length, Judy moves me to a space where I ultimately enter a tunnel and land in a scene of my most recent past life)
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Now, look down, see if you're visual. If not, go by feel. Tell me if you're outside or inside?
Outside.
What kind of ground do you think?
Grass.
Do you think you might have shoes or no shoes? (pause) If you can tell.
Sandals. (pause)
As you bring your attention up from the feet... tell me what impression you get of the body itself. Adult or child?
Adult.
Do you get a sense of clothing or costume?
I'm dressed like a nun.
Is there anything about the attire, in particular, for instance, the head piece, can you describe that to me?
Black cap, with a piece behind, and white in the center.
If you would scan the body from head to toe for jewelry or other ornaments.
Rosary.
Where is that?
Around my neck.
Anything in your hands?
Some... I have a ring on. In the position of a wedding ring. Nothing else.
Do you sense that this is a female body?
Yes.
Could you guess the age, or age bracket?
Late fifties, sixty.
Now, as you open up your view of the scene around you, is this around a building or out in the countryside? What could you tell me?
It's like a schoolyard. I'm a teacher. It's like the school.... the church and the school (are adjacent).
Is there anything about the school or church that would make you think of a certain era?
It's old. Lots of stone. Feels European. Like, European in world war two.
Now do you sense that there are others around you at this moment or are you alone?
There are others.
Are they the children or other adults?
Both.
What can you tell me about your state of mind or mood here in this scene?
Peaceful. It's a beautiful day, blue sky. Like a spring day with a breeze and spotty clouds. I'm enjoying it. (pause) I think my name is Martha. (later, I debate whether it is Martha or Marta and I remain unsure)
Martha?
Yes.
Can you tell me if you are referred to as sister Martha, or if you have a different name that goes with that title?
That's correct.
... (speaking) Let me know if anything else comes to mind about this scene that we might want to note.
It's during the war. It's an uncertain time. That's why I choose....
Is there a sense of close danger or does it seem pushed back?
Danger is coming. It will probably come. (pause) But the day is beautiful and I'm enjoying it. At least right now, it's nice.
(Judy moves me forward to another scene, what turns out to be the death scene in this life)
When you can, let me know if you're you outside or inside?
Inside. In the cathedral. Being bombed.
What are you doing in this moment?
Gathering the others, trying keep them safe, and calm. But also preparing them to die.
Are the children there?
Yes, some. Orph... orphans? (I realize that I am a nun who teaches at a school and orphanage which is attached or adjacent to the old cathedral. Children with families to go home to are not present, but the orphans are with us.)
What emotions are you working with at this moment?
Some fear. Fear of suffering, fear of children suffering. But I feel strong. Because I know I can't be destroyed, and all is well. (There is a sense of peace about this moment which belies the chaos which is surrounding us during the bombing.)
....(speaking) Let's go to that moment, the very last moments in this body..... 10, 9, 8...
Are you able now to look down from above?
Yes. I'm crushed. By big stones, big boulders and blocks. Many people.
I don't feel any pain. Somehow I didn't feel any pain. It's like I left right away. I left my body. I don't know how. There was no need (to feel the pain).
Take your time and breathe, and when you're ready, observe and feel the atmosphere around here and the sky. Let me know what comes to mind.
I still feel myself in the church. Just above. It feels very holy. Unaffected... and protected. (There is an undisturbed, perhaps even enhanced, sense of peace in this space even though it has been virtually destroyed.)
Are you alone here or are there others?
In Spirit? There are others.
When you're ready, tell me who else might be there with you.
Some children. A few other sisters. A priest. Several of us. I don't feel the same need to corral them, as I did a few moments ago, because others... they have guides there. My job is done. Everyone has different places to go. And that's good. I'm happy to see each of them go home. (I can see other beings present who are helping to show these spirits their way home.)
If you were to glance down and see a shred of paper somewhere with the date, the year, would that come to mind?
1942.
Lets see if as you move a little bit further upward, if you can take in a sense of where in Europe this might have been.
Eastern Europe. Somewhere... Czech or Polish, or.... a city. Big city.
Very good. With each breath, feel your awareness increasing. Feel a sense of life and aliveness from within. Also as best as you can, be aware of your environment and the forces and energies within it. Let me know, as you can, when you're ready to move upward..... etc...
I can see certain currents, or trails, or highways, that lead in slightly different directions away. Some of the other deceased are led along a certain path (1 or more in a particular direction), some others along a different one. In all, I perceive perhaps 3 or 4 pathways that are similar but not identical to leave this place. Mine is separate. I can see it and I know it. It presents almost like the visual distortions of heat rising from a road surface on a very hot day. There's a magnetism to it, that once you're in the channel you are locked in with the current.
I move when I'm ready. I know the way. I can't describe it but I know the way.
Would you be able to describe your movement and sense of up or down?
Up. Maybe, not straight vertical, like 60 degrees. There's some sort of magnetic highway or something. It pulls.
It does pull?
Yes. It pulls once you go (start moving.) There's a current I guess but it feels like a pull once you're in the current. It's a reminder that you're going the right way.
(Laughs) Is it slow or rapid?
I get the sense of going far but not moving quickly. It doesn't require speed to do it. It's going between things. (I have a faint recollection of slipping between different spaces once I leave the Earth's atmosphere. They have various wispy light characteristics and I pass through perhaps three before arriving at my destination.)
Do you think that you are making this journey alone, or do you sense the presence of others, or both?
Alone, but I am watched. If I need assistance it will be there.
And how do you know when you have moved and come to the right place?
I'm not sure. How do you know when you're home? You just go home.
You let me know when...
I'm there.
Is there a certain energy here, is there an actual physical scene?
It's like a field, a nice meadow.
What's the smell like?
It's like that spring day (from my previous life scene) but without that city smell. Just pure. Pure soft breeze.
I am in a flat, beautiful field/meadow that stretches far in almost every direction, but doesn't feel isolated or overly vast. I seem to be simultaneously in the middle of the field and on the edge of it. I am a few steps from where I entered it, yet once I enter, I am in the middle of the field. It's as if I could leave with a few steps, but if I stay put, I am sitting in the middle of the field. There is an intimacy to it. I see grasses and wildflowers and a beautiful sky... all softer in tone or touch than in the physical world. It is a wonderful place to sit and meditate, reflect, and rest. I feel the presence of my guide, but he is leaving me to myself for the time being. I have a sense of re-establishing my center after the events that just transpired, and that I will continue when I am ready.
Does the smell help you acclimate alone or are there other elements to this space where you come home?
My guide is here, but he's giving me time to be alone. As long as I wish. (pause) Not that I don't desire to speak with him, but it's just nice to stop.
Take all the time you want, breathe in that smell, feel that feel, let your mind relax and acclimate. Whenever you're ready to think about more than that, you just let me know.
I am ready.
Are you going to be greeted by your guide more fully at this point, or do something else?
Yes. (pause, smiling) Big hug. (pause) Lots of love.
My guide, in a nearly shapeless form, although very large, embraces me and I feel hugged all the way through the inside of my being. I sense “welcome, I am proud of you” within the embrace, although it is really just an all encompassing hug with the entirety of our spirits. There is some additional healing and lightening that I perceive in myself from this, adding to what were my own efforts in the field.
Just take your time and breathe that in.
I feel others around too. They're smiling from a medium distance. Happy to see me, with my guide embracing. (I see perhaps a dozen other spirits watching me. I recognize them from my previous life. They all appear to have a white/gray image of how they appeared in my past life. I also retain a similar image of myself, with this wispy, white/gray presentation.)
Keeping that soft spread of feel, can you tell me anything about your first impression of your guide's appearance?
It's really dark... it's odd... Very large and dark, but it feels warm. Almost black but not black, it's very dark though. It was unsettling at first when I just focused on that.
(continued..)
It's a big, beautiful purple, very large.
...(speaking) See if you can gently ask for his name.
Orajuna is correct. (spelling not withstanding) (I perceived this name during my past life regression two years prior but wasn't absolutely sure that it was my guide's name. It was confirmed with me in this moment. This is an easy to speak version of my guide's name, without the deep subtleties of pronunciation that it actually has.)
Now does he present with any particular physical attribute?
Some sort of a cloak or a cape or a robe... simple.
Is there a color to that?
Brown? Very simple. (It is hard to perceive the actual color to this garment. I believe the correct impression is one of plain simplicity rather than color per se.)
Now, you've just returned and I wonder if he would like to speak with you, or if he would like to let those waiting greet you, or if you'd like to do something else.
Greet those waiting. (pause) My mother and father... it's been a long time.
Are they your mother and father from your past life or your current life?
That life. (pause) I see siblings, deceased siblings. A few died young. (pause) Some I didn't expect to see, I didn't know they had passed yet.
Such as?
A sister friend.
When you're among them here, are you feeling more like a grown, wisened, strong sister nun, or you feel like a girl?
I feel as I ended my life. (I still have this white/gray wispy faded image of my prior self.)
Let me know if this greeting turns into something else, or if you decide it's time for you to move along.
It's time to move along. They wanted to welcome me home, but I have work to do. (There was no expectation from my loved ones that we would spend any more time together than this welcoming moment. They each have things to do in some other space, as do I. This greeting, brief as it was, was all it needed to be.)
I wonder if Orajuna would like to take some time to review your past life at this time?
That's correct.
Ok, you let me know how this comes about. Is there a particular space you like to use for this?
We stand together in the field, and turn around, and I can see my life.
Are you facing him?
We face together. Orajuna and I turn to look the same direction, across the field. In this direction, almost as if on the horizon, but much closer than that, I see images of my life as a super-detailed slideshow of sorts. It is complete in detail, yet moves very quickly. I don't perceive any judgement per se, merely a complete understanding of each moment. I feel the complexity of it, the good, the challenges, the bad, all of it... but with a peaceful, detached understanding. Almost as if through the eyes of Orajuna, or any spirit that would observe from this vantage point.
Does he seem to be guiding your attention to something in particular about that life?
It was my goal to be selfless. And I was. Not that I lacked confidence, I was very self-assured. But... it was to give.
Is there anything that you've found to be challenging during that incarnation?
I would get pulled different directions, and I would have to remind myself of my own true North. Even in church... what to discard, and what to keep. I felt very connected to a higher self during my life. And that informed my choices. And I didn't fear, I didn't live with fear as a result.
Does Orajuna feel, as far as you can tell, that you were able to live your life as Martha in a way that was how you'd hoped or dreamed before coming in?
Yes. Yes, it was good. (laughs, pause) I say it wasn't very exciting, but it was very good. (This is not to be confused with dissatisfaction regarding this life... It's merely a lighthearted comment on the day to day life and duties of being a nun.)
Is there anything Orajuna feels was sort of left on the table so to speak, to work with, or generated anew as a next challenge during that life?
Being true to my self and my guidance, but with more variables. This is something we agree together, to pursue.
Is that to say that there were some set boundaries from which you could pull your inspiration, that perhaps those would be loosed or broadened?
Circumstances... circumstances were predictable. Not that it was easy, but... I think I had it figured out from an early age. And I knew it would run by the book and I knew how to deal with it my own way. He says, not too many surprises from there on. It was a process, getting to that point. We agree that I can have more complicated things come up, and that would be good for my growth.
More wrenches being thrown into things? Or just more stimulus?
Fewer binary choices.
Might we ask Orajuna what your largest challenge was?
I need to walk a line... knowing when to speak up if something was wrong, or other times, to leave it be, knowing that it's wrong, but knowing it doesn't have to be corrected, or it's not mine to correct. That was something I encountered in my life in the church. I could see sometimes maybe a misguided person, whether in faith or action, but knowing when to act or speak, and when to just let it be. It's not my job to fix anything or everything. I am just one. (This is a continuing task in my current life. I can see parallels between the two incarnations and see the ways in which this presents in my current life with more complexity, in accordance with what was stated to pursue.)
So would Orajuna say that your mode of operation in that life was more to mold your own personality? Discipline your own personality to the structure around you? Or to open up the structure around you, in service?
My purpose was to work on some finer aspects of my own personality and tendencies within the broader goal of being of service in some way. It's almost like the two-fer of a physical incarnation. Layers of purpose. (Each time we incarnate, there are larger goals and purposes, such as my main goal to offer service to others in whatever way I am able. But weaved among this are many opportunities to hone aspects of myself, or working out some past karma which I brought along. The sum of all of these equals the huge potential benefit of any particular life, if we make the best use of everything.)
Is there anything Orajuna would like to review with you on the aspects of the personality that you were fine tuning?
I have a need for feeling justice and seeing justice. And it takes a lot of inner calm and inner peace to not always act or judge or think. It's enough to be right and sit tight, sometimes, and be happy with that. I'm not everyone's guide in some way. Sometimes I see a lesson needing to be learned, (but that) still doesn't mean it's mine to teach. And that requires maintaining peace and contentment, and loving the other, despite what I might see. (Within this statement is a call for more unconditional love toward others, despite times where I may see truth or justice threatened by some in everyday life. Also, to have the patience to allow others to progress on their own without trying too hard to help someone who may not want it. This ties in with statements by my council later.)
Was there anything else?
No.
I'm curious if Orajuna's appearance has shifted at all during your conversation?
I currently only feel a presence, I don't see an appearance.
Do you feel like there's anything further to this initial review?
I sense a fork in my life when I was younger, related to my Holy Orders. I was very even keeled with it. That was a big step in some way. In my other life, I felt trapped in a life I didn't want.
That was prior to your Orders, or after?
Previous lifetime. He's contrasting how I handled it. I handled it well. Some part of me had grown from before and shown through at that point. I am reflecting and relating to a previous life I experienced in a past life regression. I felt called to a certain path but felt kept from pursuing that path and dealt with some resentment during that lifetime as a result. I feared life was all or nothing in relation to fulfilling my purpose and that held me back somewhat.
Can you tell if moving to the religious life was a heartfelt choice, a choice of necessity, or if it was pressure put upon you from outside?
There was no pressure. It was an active choice to go that way. I knew that I didn't necessarily believe 100% of what the Catholic church would have me teach, but I weighed the benefit and I decided to show my belief, all of my beliefs, in my action. I was a bit, I guess a bit mystical (laughs). That rubbed some people the wrong way, but that's ok. I wanted to help the children, and it was a good way to do that.
....(more speaking, then).... Perhaps we could ask if any of those present (in Martha's life) are incarnating in your current life?
Sense of my mother. In another sister. I'm always trying to open her up more.
Your mother in your current life or your past life?
My current life. She was a sister. Another nun. Trying to just chip away at her, to get her to open up. Even among our rigid roles, I made some progress.
Were you ever reprimanded for your style of belief?
Often. But passive aggressively. Never terribly... I didn't break rules. I just have a different way about things. Slightly different priorities. Less pomp and circumstance, more happiness.
Is there anything else that Orajuna would like you to be aware of from that time period?
No.
Is it time then to move to a different space or will something change in the field that you're in?
It's time to move. I'm very warm. (My physical body is warm to the point of being distracting and Judy removes the blanket on top of me. Pause for a few moments.) I'm supposed to go the place where I'll take off my garment, so to speak. I still feel that energy on me. (My appearance remains the same as when I left my body.)
(continued...)
This is my first post here, although I have admired the Bring 4th community from afar at various times and also read all of The Ra Material ravenously a few years ago. I felt compelled to register and share a portion of a recent experience, in the hope that it might be useful in some way to others. I thought, given the nature of the material, that this would be the best place to do so.
On 1/2/2020, I had a Life Between Lives regression with a Newton Institute certified LBL Hypnotherapist. I highly recommend you explore Michael Newton's work if you haven't yet! My session ended up covering a lot of material that crossed into the "territory" of the Law of One and there's really no place in my daily life to share these things other than with my wife. I know that I would find this transcript useful if it came from someone else, and as such, would like to offer it here. If you only want information relating to Ra, densities, etc, you will have to jump ahead quite a bit, but I feel it is best, for understanding, to include the entire transcript.
Given that the transcript is over 15,000 words long, I have already learned the hard way that it is too large for one post. (doh!) So please forgive me for this initial post lacking the bulk of the material... once it is approved by moderators I will reply with the rest of the session.
I sincerely hope that this is of some value, comfort, or other interest to you. I welcome any discussion but do not require it. I am not looking for anything here other than to be of service and grow from any interaction which transpires. The transcript is entirely true to the audio recording and my recollection with the exception of changing the first names of currently living persons and shortening some of the speaking of the hypnotherapist which is unnecessary to understand the content. I am making an effort to color code things but am unsure how it'll turn out until the post is up.
With love, I'll begin:
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(Parenthesis), regular text - added for clarity during transcription
Red text - other content from session that was not spoken
Blue text - additional reflections and insight added after 1.5 weeks.
(begins at 1:27:50 mark on phone recording)
(This transcript begins at the stage of walking down the steps of my age in my current life, after the trance induction process. I see it visually as a stairwell in the sky. I have just come back to the seventh step on the stairs after exploring some images from the age of 7 at Judy's request.)
As I am stepping down from this step, I perceive a golden presence next to the stairs I am descending. It is without a body form, but the color is exactly the hue that I remember from my guide after my past life regression two years prior and I know that he is here with me already. He points out that I am already blocking thoughts of my bladder each time I breathe deeply with the balloon imagery. He hints that it may be a good idea to relieve myself before going further. I decline because I don't want to bother Judy and interrupt our progress; I had also used the restroom during my prior regression and was a bit embarrassed to interrupt at that time. Interestingly, it was also my guide in that session who instructed me to empty my bladder!
J: Think about stepping back onto your own stairway, standing on the seventh step, breathe a couple of your big balloon breaths now. Each time you exhale... (further instructions)
Stepping down now, 6... 5... 4... and now I'd like your mind to spread back to your very earliest memory in this body. At whatever age that comes. Let your very earliest memory return. And when you can, let me know where you are.
Backyard of the house.
Inside?
Outside. Backyard. A kind of play-set, swing-set, play-set.
What are you doing?
I'm back there with my mom. My brother is nearby. Just having fun.
Good. Now do you have a sense of your age in this scene?
Almost two.
Ok. Very good. (pause) You can let this scene fade now, as you breathe and bring your thoughts back to the stairway. Standing on the second step, exhaling and letting your mind spread out across the mirrored surface... (pause) We're going to count down again. Follow me back now...
Again, my guide presents next to the stairway. He indicates that our session can proceed either way, but that if I seek the maximum benefit, I must be free of physical distractions. He also reminds me of my desire to be of some service to Judy in her work, with the point that I have a better chance to do so if I choose to listen to him now. This would be my last chance to interrupt before I risk limiting this experience. I weigh his advice against my desire to not disappoint or frustrate Judy and then I speak.
May I interrupt you?
Repeat?
May I interrupt you?
Oh. Definitely.
I hear from my guide on the stairs, that my breathing with the balloon pressures my bladder.
(laughter) So would you like to not breathe with the balloon or go to the bathroom?
I feel that... the rest of our session might be better if I choose to go the bathroom once more now. Rather than distracting every time I return to the balloon.
Did you say your guide told you this on the stairway?
Yes.
So, if we might then ask your guide for assistance, as we go to the bathroom and return, that he helps allow your mind and body to return to the stillness with great ease once we're done. Would he assist with that?
Yes. My guide does indeed confirm that he will help with this, because it was his idea... although it was still ultimately my choice to make.
Ok, good. (Judy brings me partially out of my trance state to use the restroom. The entire time, I perceive my core essence standing, waiting on the second step of the stairs. I do recall using the bathroom, but it is more like a dream I had while waiting for myself to return on the second step. I have no doubt that my willingness to listen to my guide at this point was helpful to the rest of this session!)
(Transcript resumes on the stairs)
Going all the way back down into the womb.... one year old... eleven months... nine... (etc) And now, either sense or imagine moving back into the womb of your mom. Back into this dark, warm, wet environment. Just before your birth. I am going to ask you simple questions about this space as well and I'd like you to keep practicing answering with first thoughts that come. First, do you get a sense of comfort, or a sense of discomfort here?
Comfort.
Good. Can you tell if there's a defined sense of awareness in you at this time? Or does it seem to be spread out feeling or spacey?
It's a bit dreamy. My perception is part feeling, with touch, part feeling with emotion and energy.
Is there any particular emotion that you are able to feel or describe at this time?
Readiness. I feel full.
Do you know if that emotion comes from you, or if it might come from your mother? Or could be both as well.
It is both, but in different ways. I'm big, so she's ready to be done. But I feel ready to move to the next phase. Although I... I have a sense of how nice it's been to have our two energies so close together. That's the only time that we get to experience that. I perceive my own energy field coexisting within my mother's in a beautiful and delicate balance. I have the impression that this degree of closeness never happens again in a human form.
Very good. Is there anything about your little body that draws your attention as something you really like? If you can tell...
I just keep seeing... my spine. It's full of energy. I can see the vibration of bright light all along my spine, reaching up into my brain. There is a strength and power there that I identify as part of my true essence.
Is there anything in this moment about your body that might bother you?
It's so vulnerable. It's delicate and vulnerable. The powerlessness and dependency of my bodily form definitely stands out.
Do you discern any difference between your soul self and this little body?
Yes.
Can you describe that for me?
The body only has sensations. Physical sensations. But I still have a perception of... subtler things. That's why I'm feeling the energy (previously referenced).
Now let's think about the first time your joined with your body here. Think back through the months and see if you can tell me again, at what month you first joined fully with your little body.
Seven months. (I gave this same answer during my past life regression two years prior.)
Do you get the feeling that this was easy or challenging?
Relatively easy. It's not simple, but I'm comfortable with it.
Are there any other observations about this space before we move on?
Glimpses of light, I think through the skin. Very faint, almost like a weird aurora, sometimes. It's fascinating.
Very good. In a moment, I will count backward from nine to one.... (shortened due to length, Judy moves me to a space where I ultimately enter a tunnel and land in a scene of my most recent past life)
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Now, look down, see if you're visual. If not, go by feel. Tell me if you're outside or inside?
Outside.
What kind of ground do you think?
Grass.
Do you think you might have shoes or no shoes? (pause) If you can tell.
Sandals. (pause)
As you bring your attention up from the feet... tell me what impression you get of the body itself. Adult or child?
Adult.
Do you get a sense of clothing or costume?
I'm dressed like a nun.
Is there anything about the attire, in particular, for instance, the head piece, can you describe that to me?
Black cap, with a piece behind, and white in the center.
If you would scan the body from head to toe for jewelry or other ornaments.
Rosary.
Where is that?
Around my neck.
Anything in your hands?
Some... I have a ring on. In the position of a wedding ring. Nothing else.
Do you sense that this is a female body?
Yes.
Could you guess the age, or age bracket?
Late fifties, sixty.
Now, as you open up your view of the scene around you, is this around a building or out in the countryside? What could you tell me?
It's like a schoolyard. I'm a teacher. It's like the school.... the church and the school (are adjacent).
Is there anything about the school or church that would make you think of a certain era?
It's old. Lots of stone. Feels European. Like, European in world war two.
Now do you sense that there are others around you at this moment or are you alone?
There are others.
Are they the children or other adults?
Both.
What can you tell me about your state of mind or mood here in this scene?
Peaceful. It's a beautiful day, blue sky. Like a spring day with a breeze and spotty clouds. I'm enjoying it. (pause) I think my name is Martha. (later, I debate whether it is Martha or Marta and I remain unsure)
Martha?
Yes.
Can you tell me if you are referred to as sister Martha, or if you have a different name that goes with that title?
That's correct.
... (speaking) Let me know if anything else comes to mind about this scene that we might want to note.
It's during the war. It's an uncertain time. That's why I choose....
Is there a sense of close danger or does it seem pushed back?
Danger is coming. It will probably come. (pause) But the day is beautiful and I'm enjoying it. At least right now, it's nice.
(Judy moves me forward to another scene, what turns out to be the death scene in this life)
When you can, let me know if you're you outside or inside?
Inside. In the cathedral. Being bombed.
What are you doing in this moment?
Gathering the others, trying keep them safe, and calm. But also preparing them to die.
Are the children there?
Yes, some. Orph... orphans? (I realize that I am a nun who teaches at a school and orphanage which is attached or adjacent to the old cathedral. Children with families to go home to are not present, but the orphans are with us.)
What emotions are you working with at this moment?
Some fear. Fear of suffering, fear of children suffering. But I feel strong. Because I know I can't be destroyed, and all is well. (There is a sense of peace about this moment which belies the chaos which is surrounding us during the bombing.)
....(speaking) Let's go to that moment, the very last moments in this body..... 10, 9, 8...
Are you able now to look down from above?
Yes. I'm crushed. By big stones, big boulders and blocks. Many people.
I don't feel any pain. Somehow I didn't feel any pain. It's like I left right away. I left my body. I don't know how. There was no need (to feel the pain).
Take your time and breathe, and when you're ready, observe and feel the atmosphere around here and the sky. Let me know what comes to mind.
I still feel myself in the church. Just above. It feels very holy. Unaffected... and protected. (There is an undisturbed, perhaps even enhanced, sense of peace in this space even though it has been virtually destroyed.)
Are you alone here or are there others?
In Spirit? There are others.
When you're ready, tell me who else might be there with you.
Some children. A few other sisters. A priest. Several of us. I don't feel the same need to corral them, as I did a few moments ago, because others... they have guides there. My job is done. Everyone has different places to go. And that's good. I'm happy to see each of them go home. (I can see other beings present who are helping to show these spirits their way home.)
If you were to glance down and see a shred of paper somewhere with the date, the year, would that come to mind?
1942.
Lets see if as you move a little bit further upward, if you can take in a sense of where in Europe this might have been.
Eastern Europe. Somewhere... Czech or Polish, or.... a city. Big city.
Very good. With each breath, feel your awareness increasing. Feel a sense of life and aliveness from within. Also as best as you can, be aware of your environment and the forces and energies within it. Let me know, as you can, when you're ready to move upward..... etc...
I can see certain currents, or trails, or highways, that lead in slightly different directions away. Some of the other deceased are led along a certain path (1 or more in a particular direction), some others along a different one. In all, I perceive perhaps 3 or 4 pathways that are similar but not identical to leave this place. Mine is separate. I can see it and I know it. It presents almost like the visual distortions of heat rising from a road surface on a very hot day. There's a magnetism to it, that once you're in the channel you are locked in with the current.
I move when I'm ready. I know the way. I can't describe it but I know the way.
Would you be able to describe your movement and sense of up or down?
Up. Maybe, not straight vertical, like 60 degrees. There's some sort of magnetic highway or something. It pulls.
It does pull?
Yes. It pulls once you go (start moving.) There's a current I guess but it feels like a pull once you're in the current. It's a reminder that you're going the right way.
(Laughs) Is it slow or rapid?
I get the sense of going far but not moving quickly. It doesn't require speed to do it. It's going between things. (I have a faint recollection of slipping between different spaces once I leave the Earth's atmosphere. They have various wispy light characteristics and I pass through perhaps three before arriving at my destination.)
Do you think that you are making this journey alone, or do you sense the presence of others, or both?
Alone, but I am watched. If I need assistance it will be there.
And how do you know when you have moved and come to the right place?
I'm not sure. How do you know when you're home? You just go home.
You let me know when...
I'm there.
Is there a certain energy here, is there an actual physical scene?
It's like a field, a nice meadow.
What's the smell like?
It's like that spring day (from my previous life scene) but without that city smell. Just pure. Pure soft breeze.
I am in a flat, beautiful field/meadow that stretches far in almost every direction, but doesn't feel isolated or overly vast. I seem to be simultaneously in the middle of the field and on the edge of it. I am a few steps from where I entered it, yet once I enter, I am in the middle of the field. It's as if I could leave with a few steps, but if I stay put, I am sitting in the middle of the field. There is an intimacy to it. I see grasses and wildflowers and a beautiful sky... all softer in tone or touch than in the physical world. It is a wonderful place to sit and meditate, reflect, and rest. I feel the presence of my guide, but he is leaving me to myself for the time being. I have a sense of re-establishing my center after the events that just transpired, and that I will continue when I am ready.
Does the smell help you acclimate alone or are there other elements to this space where you come home?
My guide is here, but he's giving me time to be alone. As long as I wish. (pause) Not that I don't desire to speak with him, but it's just nice to stop.
Take all the time you want, breathe in that smell, feel that feel, let your mind relax and acclimate. Whenever you're ready to think about more than that, you just let me know.
I am ready.
Are you going to be greeted by your guide more fully at this point, or do something else?
Yes. (pause, smiling) Big hug. (pause) Lots of love.
My guide, in a nearly shapeless form, although very large, embraces me and I feel hugged all the way through the inside of my being. I sense “welcome, I am proud of you” within the embrace, although it is really just an all encompassing hug with the entirety of our spirits. There is some additional healing and lightening that I perceive in myself from this, adding to what were my own efforts in the field.
Just take your time and breathe that in.
I feel others around too. They're smiling from a medium distance. Happy to see me, with my guide embracing. (I see perhaps a dozen other spirits watching me. I recognize them from my previous life. They all appear to have a white/gray image of how they appeared in my past life. I also retain a similar image of myself, with this wispy, white/gray presentation.)
Keeping that soft spread of feel, can you tell me anything about your first impression of your guide's appearance?
It's really dark... it's odd... Very large and dark, but it feels warm. Almost black but not black, it's very dark though. It was unsettling at first when I just focused on that.
(continued..)
It's a big, beautiful purple, very large.
...(speaking) See if you can gently ask for his name.
Orajuna is correct. (spelling not withstanding) (I perceived this name during my past life regression two years prior but wasn't absolutely sure that it was my guide's name. It was confirmed with me in this moment. This is an easy to speak version of my guide's name, without the deep subtleties of pronunciation that it actually has.)
Now does he present with any particular physical attribute?
Some sort of a cloak or a cape or a robe... simple.
Is there a color to that?
Brown? Very simple. (It is hard to perceive the actual color to this garment. I believe the correct impression is one of plain simplicity rather than color per se.)
Now, you've just returned and I wonder if he would like to speak with you, or if he would like to let those waiting greet you, or if you'd like to do something else.
Greet those waiting. (pause) My mother and father... it's been a long time.
Are they your mother and father from your past life or your current life?
That life. (pause) I see siblings, deceased siblings. A few died young. (pause) Some I didn't expect to see, I didn't know they had passed yet.
Such as?
A sister friend.
When you're among them here, are you feeling more like a grown, wisened, strong sister nun, or you feel like a girl?
I feel as I ended my life. (I still have this white/gray wispy faded image of my prior self.)
Let me know if this greeting turns into something else, or if you decide it's time for you to move along.
It's time to move along. They wanted to welcome me home, but I have work to do. (There was no expectation from my loved ones that we would spend any more time together than this welcoming moment. They each have things to do in some other space, as do I. This greeting, brief as it was, was all it needed to be.)
I wonder if Orajuna would like to take some time to review your past life at this time?
That's correct.
Ok, you let me know how this comes about. Is there a particular space you like to use for this?
We stand together in the field, and turn around, and I can see my life.
Are you facing him?
We face together. Orajuna and I turn to look the same direction, across the field. In this direction, almost as if on the horizon, but much closer than that, I see images of my life as a super-detailed slideshow of sorts. It is complete in detail, yet moves very quickly. I don't perceive any judgement per se, merely a complete understanding of each moment. I feel the complexity of it, the good, the challenges, the bad, all of it... but with a peaceful, detached understanding. Almost as if through the eyes of Orajuna, or any spirit that would observe from this vantage point.
Does he seem to be guiding your attention to something in particular about that life?
It was my goal to be selfless. And I was. Not that I lacked confidence, I was very self-assured. But... it was to give.
Is there anything that you've found to be challenging during that incarnation?
I would get pulled different directions, and I would have to remind myself of my own true North. Even in church... what to discard, and what to keep. I felt very connected to a higher self during my life. And that informed my choices. And I didn't fear, I didn't live with fear as a result.
Does Orajuna feel, as far as you can tell, that you were able to live your life as Martha in a way that was how you'd hoped or dreamed before coming in?
Yes. Yes, it was good. (laughs, pause) I say it wasn't very exciting, but it was very good. (This is not to be confused with dissatisfaction regarding this life... It's merely a lighthearted comment on the day to day life and duties of being a nun.)
Is there anything Orajuna feels was sort of left on the table so to speak, to work with, or generated anew as a next challenge during that life?
Being true to my self and my guidance, but with more variables. This is something we agree together, to pursue.
Is that to say that there were some set boundaries from which you could pull your inspiration, that perhaps those would be loosed or broadened?
Circumstances... circumstances were predictable. Not that it was easy, but... I think I had it figured out from an early age. And I knew it would run by the book and I knew how to deal with it my own way. He says, not too many surprises from there on. It was a process, getting to that point. We agree that I can have more complicated things come up, and that would be good for my growth.
More wrenches being thrown into things? Or just more stimulus?
Fewer binary choices.
Might we ask Orajuna what your largest challenge was?
I need to walk a line... knowing when to speak up if something was wrong, or other times, to leave it be, knowing that it's wrong, but knowing it doesn't have to be corrected, or it's not mine to correct. That was something I encountered in my life in the church. I could see sometimes maybe a misguided person, whether in faith or action, but knowing when to act or speak, and when to just let it be. It's not my job to fix anything or everything. I am just one. (This is a continuing task in my current life. I can see parallels between the two incarnations and see the ways in which this presents in my current life with more complexity, in accordance with what was stated to pursue.)
So would Orajuna say that your mode of operation in that life was more to mold your own personality? Discipline your own personality to the structure around you? Or to open up the structure around you, in service?
My purpose was to work on some finer aspects of my own personality and tendencies within the broader goal of being of service in some way. It's almost like the two-fer of a physical incarnation. Layers of purpose. (Each time we incarnate, there are larger goals and purposes, such as my main goal to offer service to others in whatever way I am able. But weaved among this are many opportunities to hone aspects of myself, or working out some past karma which I brought along. The sum of all of these equals the huge potential benefit of any particular life, if we make the best use of everything.)
Is there anything Orajuna would like to review with you on the aspects of the personality that you were fine tuning?
I have a need for feeling justice and seeing justice. And it takes a lot of inner calm and inner peace to not always act or judge or think. It's enough to be right and sit tight, sometimes, and be happy with that. I'm not everyone's guide in some way. Sometimes I see a lesson needing to be learned, (but that) still doesn't mean it's mine to teach. And that requires maintaining peace and contentment, and loving the other, despite what I might see. (Within this statement is a call for more unconditional love toward others, despite times where I may see truth or justice threatened by some in everyday life. Also, to have the patience to allow others to progress on their own without trying too hard to help someone who may not want it. This ties in with statements by my council later.)
Was there anything else?
No.
I'm curious if Orajuna's appearance has shifted at all during your conversation?
I currently only feel a presence, I don't see an appearance.
Do you feel like there's anything further to this initial review?
I sense a fork in my life when I was younger, related to my Holy Orders. I was very even keeled with it. That was a big step in some way. In my other life, I felt trapped in a life I didn't want.
That was prior to your Orders, or after?
Previous lifetime. He's contrasting how I handled it. I handled it well. Some part of me had grown from before and shown through at that point. I am reflecting and relating to a previous life I experienced in a past life regression. I felt called to a certain path but felt kept from pursuing that path and dealt with some resentment during that lifetime as a result. I feared life was all or nothing in relation to fulfilling my purpose and that held me back somewhat.
Can you tell if moving to the religious life was a heartfelt choice, a choice of necessity, or if it was pressure put upon you from outside?
There was no pressure. It was an active choice to go that way. I knew that I didn't necessarily believe 100% of what the Catholic church would have me teach, but I weighed the benefit and I decided to show my belief, all of my beliefs, in my action. I was a bit, I guess a bit mystical (laughs). That rubbed some people the wrong way, but that's ok. I wanted to help the children, and it was a good way to do that.
....(more speaking, then).... Perhaps we could ask if any of those present (in Martha's life) are incarnating in your current life?
Sense of my mother. In another sister. I'm always trying to open her up more.
Your mother in your current life or your past life?
My current life. She was a sister. Another nun. Trying to just chip away at her, to get her to open up. Even among our rigid roles, I made some progress.
Were you ever reprimanded for your style of belief?
Often. But passive aggressively. Never terribly... I didn't break rules. I just have a different way about things. Slightly different priorities. Less pomp and circumstance, more happiness.
Is there anything else that Orajuna would like you to be aware of from that time period?
No.
Is it time then to move to a different space or will something change in the field that you're in?
It's time to move. I'm very warm. (My physical body is warm to the point of being distracting and Judy removes the blanket on top of me. Pause for a few moments.) I'm supposed to go the place where I'll take off my garment, so to speak. I still feel that energy on me. (My appearance remains the same as when I left my body.)
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