I seek Guidance

[Horizon]

Hello to All,
I first wish to extend my apologies if this thread is mundane. I am very much in need of guidance/assistance with some issues, and I'm not quite sure how/where to post them, and still learning the protocols. Quick info about me 1st:
I have awakened to both the Eternal and Loving Creator AND the LOO about a month ago. I stumbled upon these workings while doing NWO research (which I awoke to over a year ago). Also, I was athiest for decades. I am currently up to Chapter 9 in the Wanderer's Handbook. It is difficult for me to absorb much info for a few reasons. Firstly, my physical condition is quite faded and long-term (had a heat stroke and a heart attack, so my brain is not quite up to par). Secondly, I am now being dilligently bombarded with past lives issues (2 so far), one of which was confirmed by a Paranormal Researcher/UFOlogist from BUFON. The other is presumably during Ancient Egyptian times. I have tried exhaustively over the years to contact my spirit guide with no success. I am still unable to even invoke my root chakra as I feel I am heavily blocked and distracted. In retrospect I should have known that I was a wanderer as the profile fits me to a T, and explains my extended isolations and instincts that I am here 'to fulfill a greater purpose'. I have also had little use for material posession.
Lately, there has been so much activity in my head that I usually have varying degrees of headache. If anyone can offer me advice/guidance it would be blissfully appreciated. On a side note, I am pretty much penniless so buying books, CDs, courses, and office visits are not an option
Again, my apoligies if anything is detrimental. My intentions are motivated by my quest for truth and understanding.
My Blessings to all

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On another side note, I have realized that my most recent past life must have been really bad, looking back on all that bad karma I get inundated with. I don't mean to dump so much into 1 thread, but I really really need some insight.

[Monica]

Hi Horizon! On this forum we talk a lot about being of service to others, so of course it's ok to ask for help! The forum is just getting started, so it doesn't look like everyone is active every day yet...but I'm sure as more people participate, others will offer their suggestions as well.

I know how overwhelming it can be to have past-life memories. I had some intense past-life memories ever since I was a little child, but didn't put the pieces together until I was around 20. For awhile, I became obsessed with that memory, trying to figure it all out. Once I realize what it was I was supposed to learn from it, the nightmares ceased and the obsession vanished. I felt free at last!

We've all done stuff in past lives that we might consider, er, less than optimal. Wanderer or not, we've all stumbled along our paths. So you're not alone!

My first suggestion would be to remember to relax, and allow yourself to assimilate the material. The LOO is some heavy duty stuff, and it can take a bit of time to really sink your teeth into it. It took me a whole year to read the 1st 4 books. I remember reading 1 session each day and having my mind blown! 1 session at a time was all I could handle at the time! But wow, am I glad I did!

There are a number of things I could suggest that might help with your physical symptoms, that cost nothing, so might be worth a try!

1. Drink more water. Headaches are often linked to dehydration, and many people are dehydrated without realizing it. Try to get good quality water if possible, but any water is better than no water. Avoid bottled waters as they are acidic (and cost money). Avoid sodas as they contribute to dehydration. Drink at least 1/2 ounce of water per pound of body weight. Drink a large glass of room-temperature (NOT cold) water upon arising in the morning. Avoid drinking too much with meals; try to drink a lot of water in between meals.

2. The obvious 'eat more fruits and veggies'

3. Check out some yoga books at the library, or do a search on youtube for yoga videos. Yoga is great for health and relaxation, and can also help with opening up the chakras. And it costs nothing!

4. And this is probably the most important: FORGIVE YOURSELF for that past life stuff (whatever it was you did) and anything else that is plaguing you. Think about it...feel the guilt...then take a deep breath, hold it for a few seconds, and bring the feeling of guilt up into the heart area, and affirm to yourself that you love yourself and forgive yourself. Hold the intention of love and forgiveness in your heart, and allow your heart to transmute those feelings into love. Remember that forgiveness breaks the cycle of karma.

5. Forgive other-selves as well.

These are just a few ideas...perhaps you will find them useful.

blessings

[Horizon]

Hi Horizon! On this forum we talk a lot about being of service to others, so of course it's ok to ask for help! The forum is just getting started, so it doesn't look like everyone is active every day yet...but I'm sure as more people participate, others will offer their suggestions as well.

I know how overwhelming it can be to have past-life memories. I had some intense past-life memories ever since I was a little child, but didn't put the pieces together until I was around 20. For awhile, I became obsessed with that memory, trying to figure it all out. Once I realize what it was I was supposed to learn from it, the nightmares ceased and the obsession vanished. I felt free at last!

We've all done stuff in past lives that we might consider, er, less than optimal. Wanderer or not, we've all stumbled along our paths. So you're not alone!

My first suggestion would be to remember to relax, and allow yourself to assimilate the material. The LOO is some heavy duty stuff, and it can take a bit of time to really sink your teeth into it. It took me a whole year to read the 1st 4 books. I remember reading 1 session each day and having my mind blown! 1 session at a time was all I could handle at the time! But wow, am I glad I did!

There are a number of things I could suggest that might help with your physical symptoms, that cost nothing, so might be worth a try!

1. Drink more water. Headaches are often linked to dehydration, and many people are dehydrated without realizing it. Try to get good quality water if possible, but any water is better than no water. Avoid bottled waters as they are acidic (and cost money). Avoid sodas as they contribute to dehydration. Drink at least 1/2 ounce of water per pound of body weight. Drink a large glass of room-temperature (NOT cold) water upon arising in the morning. Avoid drinking too much with meals; try to drink a lot of water in between meals.

2. The obvious 'eat more fruits and veggies'

3. Check out some yoga books at the library, or do a search on youtube for yoga videos. Yoga is great for health and relaxation, and can also help with opening up the chakras. And it costs nothing!

4. And this is probably the most important: FORGIVE YOURSELF for that past life stuff (whatever it was you did) and anything else that is plaguing you. Think about it...feel the guilt...then take a deep breath, hold it for a few seconds, and bring the feeling of guilt up into the heart area, and affirm to yourself that you love yourself and forgive yourself. Hold the intention of love and forgiveness in your heart, and allow your heart to transmute those feelings into love. Remember that forgiveness breaks the cycle of karma.

5. Forgive other-selves as well.

These are just a few ideas...perhaps you will find them useful.

blessings

Thank you for replying. I'm at wits end right now. I try not to think about the past lives, realizing that the answer will come to me in time. It seems lately that the swirl around me like flies. Images, phrases, nuances, deja vu's. Awake or asleep, they persist. They don't come to me in dreams, and I have even tried invoking lucid dreams via binaural beat soundscapes, but to no avail. It's hard to keep them both seperate but at least one is from another planet & epoch.
I am able to read and understand everything in my Wanderers Guide, yet 10 minutes later I have trouble recalling the info.
My diet has completely changed in the last few months. My water is spring fed right from the back yard, and fruits and veggies are my main diet along with vitamins and such. I avoid canned drinks along with anything that has MSG, artificial sweeteners, and flouride in it. Pretty much the clean country life. I am also detox'ing my body naturally.
I try to relax as much as possible. All that I have been able to accomplish in meditation is to ALMOST clear my mind and then it feels like something reaches into my mind and interferes as if to say 'oh no you don't!'. Yoga is a toughie also as I have a bad knee, scoliosis, and a few damaged verterbrae in my lumbar. I do compose my own ambient music though and that sure helps.
I do not feel any guilt or anything about my recent past life, but using my Here and Now Kharma as an indicator, it must have been quite benevolent and grim. I will work on #4 as you suggest. I'm doing well with step #5 these days.
Thank you so much for your insight. Bless you my friend.

[3D Sunset]

Hi Horizon,

DreamingPeace has some excellent recommendations for you. I just wanted to point out that ultimately all the answers are within you and will come from you (recall that there is, in reality, only one of us here). Trust yourself and live in the moment. Please let me comment briefly on some of your own observations (I may have moved them around a little to help you see what you already know):

It is difficult for me to absorb much info for a few reasons...Firstly, my physical condition is quite faded and long-term (had a heat stroke and a heart attack, so my brain is not quite up to par).

It sounds to me as though your physical condition was a catalyst which led to your seeking, which led you here. Rejoice in this blessing!

I have tried exhaustively over the years to contact my spirit guide with no success... I am now being dilligently bombarded with past lives issues.

Seems to me that the two are directly related. Remember that whenever you ask, you do receive. What may be missing is your ability to see. Keep your eyes open and deal with whatever is in front of you NOW.

...one of which was confirmed by a Paranormal Researcher/UFOlogist from BUFON.

The opposite of looking "within" is looking "without". All you need to know is already within you. There is no need for external confirmation of what you already know. Trust yourself.

I am still unable to even invoke my root chakra as I feel I am heavily blocked and distracted.

Why do you feel that way? You know more than you're saying here. Look at it. Embrace it. Work through it. Stop avoiding it.

In retrospect I should have known that I was a wanderer as the profile fits me to a T, and explains my extended isolations and instincts that I am here 'to fulfill a greater purpose'. I have also had little use for material possession.... On a side note, I am pretty much penniless so buying books, CDs, courses, and office visits are not an option

The universe is filled with all the abundance you need. You don't have to be a pauper to be spiritual, just don't become a slave to your possessions. Approach the world from a position of abundance, not need, and the universe will respond to your desires.

On another side note, I have realized that my most recent past life must have been really bad, looking back on all that bad karma I get inundated with.

Another word for Karma is "attachment", in order to lose the attachment to past actions, you must forgive yourself and others. Forgiveness is accomplished in the NOW. Remember that the past is history, the future is a mystery, and "NOW" is a gift. That's why they call it the "PRESENT". You can either use it, or lose it, it's your choice.

Love and Light,

3D Sunset

[Horizon]

Hi Horizon,

DreamingPeace has some excellent recommendations for you. I just wanted to point out that ultimately all the answers are within you and will come from you (recall that there is, in reality, only one of us here). Trust yourself and live in the moment. Please let me comment briefly on some of your own observations (I may have moved them around a little to help you see what you already know):

It is difficult for me to absorb much info for a few reasons...Firstly, my physical condition is quite faded and long-term (had a heat stroke and a heart attack, so my brain is not quite up to par).

It sounds to me as though your physical condition was a catalyst which led to your seeking, which led you here. Rejoice in this blessing!

I have tried exhaustively over the years to contact my spirit guide with no success... I am now being dilligently bombarded with past lives issues.

Seems to me that the two are directly related. Remember that whenever you ask, you do receive. What may be missing is your ability to see. Keep your eyes open and deal with whatever is in front of you NOW.

...one of which was confirmed by a Paranormal Researcher/UFOlogist from BUFON.

The opposite of looking "within" is looking "without". All you need to know is already within you. There is no need for external confirmation of what you already know. Trust yourself.

I am still unable to even invoke my root chakra as I feel I am heavily blocked and distracted.

Why do you feel that way? You know more than you're saying here. Look at it. Embrace it. Work through it. Stop avoiding it.

In retrospect I should have known that I was a wanderer as the profile fits me to a T, and explains my extended isolations and instincts that I am here 'to fulfill a greater purpose'. I have also had little use for material possession.... On a side note, I am pretty much penniless so buying books, CDs, courses, and office visits are not an option

The universe is filled with all the abundance you need. You don't have to be a pauper to be spiritual, just don't become a slave to your possessions. Approach the world from a position of abundance, not need, and the universe will respond to your desires.

On another side note, I have realized that my most recent past life must have been really bad, looking back on all that bad karma I get inundated with.

Another word for Karma is "attachment", in order to lose the attachment to past actions, you must forgive yourself and others. Forgiveness is accomplished in the NOW. Remember that the past is history, the future is a mystery, and "NOW" is a gift. That's why they call it the "PRESENT". You can either use it, or lose it, it's your choice.

Love and Light,

3D Sunset

Blessings to you 3D. I find myself becoming closer to my soul. Thank you for your guidance. I will apply these, as I desire to spend time with my spirit guide. We have much to catch up on . I just finished reading of the Emerald Tablets which has inspired me to intensify my LOO study.

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hey there Horizon,
your story is all too familiar.
my eyes are not what they used to be hence the mega large font.

i found the material 10 years ago and the Ra Material still baffles my meager brain, but i have always had good intuition and it is well worth it to let the worries go and let creation send it's rewards. i have had 2 heart attacks, the last one was to be a quintuple bypass. being on public aide & PENNILESS as well, i received a double bypass. after the second attack my entire physiology changed. i also have 4 cervical disks that require surgery. more disk troubles smack dab between the shoulder blades & a 30 year love affair with the entire lumbar region, that requires more surgery., courtesy of a cheap shot in football. a full on top speed helmet to my back by a 6'8" state heavy weight wrestling wrestling champ/chump. i also have osteoarthritis (an inheritance) in my spine, right hip, right shoulder, both hands, knees, ankles, heck everywhere it seems and this weather can be a brutal guest. i have not been able to have the surgeries because nobody here in northern IL neuro surgeon wise will accept the illinois public aide card (they are very slow payers) and i really don't think i want that whole ordeal. i was even told by my pain doc that he no longer would see me as a patient because he had done all that he could for me but he would happily give me all the epidural injections i wanted. i stopped getting them 2 years ago! after many years of extra strength vicodin, methadone, tramadol, celebrex, etc. i was getting to where i had bad insomnia and the toll it took on my rectum ( rectum, it darn near killed him.........) i now choose good ole POT for my pain med of choice.
we have 6 little indians running amuck here in north hooterville, my youngest son Aaron 12 has autism, my second oldest daughter Anjela has a heart condition that required open heart surgery.
we lost our first house to foreclosure, had to file for bankruptcy, blah blah blah.we have lived without electric, gas, water and phone service time and time again.
it is hard not to get a Job complex but when things are at their worst but our angels, family and friends always have been there when it was needed.
after 5 years of trying to get social security i was recently approved for social security disability benefits. i ended up getting a lawyer to get this done, i highly recommend getting help if this is something you think you might need to pursue. i am now a full on card carrying member of the medicare set, not bad for a 47 year old dude.

i go on blind faith and unconditional trust in the grace that balances all things. if you empty yourself and allow the the first original thought to seep into your soul, the sun seems to shine brighter the birds sing more clearly and sometimes your hair will turn purple , anyway when you go with the flow maybe a knowing confident smile is born of your resolve to be a partner to your pain and misery, they are gifts that will slow you down and enable you to see yourself in this world now, in this incarnation now, NOW is the perfect time to become a simpler version of yourself. have faith my friend have patience and above have alot of fun, laugh at it until it seems absurd.


be well with yourself

as always

dale

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oh and by the way, in regards to the NWO, you need not worry.
i have infiltrated the bilderbergers and found a secret training video.

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NWO training video

like my friend Fred Nietzche said "Human all too Human"

Greetings Friend. Most of my injuries are job related. I don't take anything for them as I have a high pain threshhold. It also serves to enforce my will over pain. I'm becoming more attuned to my inner Self now that I dislocated from the bustling city life. I'm quickly becoming one with my surroundings as there is naught but trees, mountains, and blue skies here. My daily treat is watching the 8 or so deer feed right outside my window. I spend some of my food stamp money to feed the wildlife here. I'm guessing that is a big step in STO

[Brian]

I am also detox'ing my body naturally.

Hi,
What is your method for this?
Maybe someone with medical knowledge could weigh in, But I seem to remember that too much detox too rapidly can open flood gates of emotional baggage that has been suppressed for many years. This could be the cause of some of your anguish.
But my memory may be playing a trick, so again I ask someone who knows something about it to comment on this.

Best wishes, Brian

[AppleSeed]

Hi Horizon!

I'll just briefly jot down a couple of things that have helped me, apologies if I repeat things that have already been better said, and if I'm just blabbering about my own stuff.

Something I got from either Ra or Quo: Emotions are a key. Emotions out of proportion in the present likely stem out of the past, and spending some time in whatever emotion arises may both give you answers, and resolve the issue. Sometimes all these emotions need is a bit of validation - they may not be valid in the present, but there was a time and place where they were valid. Sometimes there simply wasn't enough time to engage and resolve the catalyst offered, and a second chance is given without the need of re-experiencing the physical catalyst.

I did the same thing - asking for memories, for help, thinking I didn't get it. As I accepted letting go of the whole idea, I was suddenly bombarded by memories, and it took a while until I realized I was getting what I asked for, and I could simply ask it to stop, or at least slow down.

Horizon wrote: "I do not feel any guilt or anything about my recent past life, but using my Here and Now Kharma as an indicator, it must have been quite benevolent and grim. "

Trying to second-guess karma is, I believe, a waste of good energy. Somewhere in the material Ra or Quo says that the farther along an entity gets in its spiritual evolution, the more involved it gets in planning its own experience. Where am I in my evolution? No idea. Why may I have chosen some difficult experiences? I have a few ideas, but I can't know for sure, and it really doesn't matter in the present.

Slightly off-topic is that I think remembering past/other "selves" is a great lesson in seeing the self as other, and the other as self. It's easier for me to have compassion with myself, if I'm not exactly me, if you catch my drift. For most of us here, I think it comes easier to have compassion with the other than with the self. But what's the difference?

In dealing with memories I've had a good deal of help from loving invisible friends, but also from people - keep communicating.

Blessings, y'all.

[Memorandem]

Hello Horizon, if you are still there.

Try Gurdjieff also. Look at my post in this thread, and read through the links to see what you find. Most of the information, if you can apply it, will help you quiet your mind and begin a very sincere quest. I wish you well on your journey.

http://www.bring4th.org/forums/showthread.php?tid=212

- Memorandem

[fairyfarmgirl]

I am also detox'ing my body naturally.

Hi,
What is your method for this?
Maybe someone with medical knowledge could weigh in, But I seem to remember that too much detox too rapidly can open flood gates of emotional baggage that has been suppressed for many years. This could be the cause of some of your anguish.
But my memory may be playing a trick, so again I ask someone who knows something about it to comment on this.

Best wishes, Brian

Good Greetings:


I have found that Detoxification of the body systems is best done slowly and methodically. The body needs time to recoup and and infill with light where toxins used to live...

I have found the best way to detoxify the body is to start with habits and food habits.

Switch to foods that have one to three NATURALLY occuring ingredients in them... Such as whole fruits (organic is best but if conventional wash with a veggie brush first) (eaten raw) and Vegetables (eaten raw) and whole raw grains paired with a 1/8 cup of flax seed (raw and uncooked) (soaked in water (spring water or clean water without chlorine and all the other nasty chemicals) for at least 24hours or 48 hours, rinsed with water through a sieve and eaten raw or cooked very gently and slowly) with a splash of cold pressed olive oil and sea salt and/or honey...

Eating raw foods is cheaper than processed foods. Food is medicine.

Beast Meats should be kept to a once a week occurrence and only in small amounts... if you must consume ascending beasts consume grass fed and happy beasts generally labeled as organic meat.

Eggs from free range chickens is a good source of protein and fermented soy products such as tofu paired with rice or quinoa.

Tobacco, caffeine and cannabis as well as other hard drugs should be titrated down to the point of no use.

Cannabis and Tobacco and Coffee beans are powerful healing plants to be used appropriately. I highly suggest the book Opening your Wild Heart, Gail Faith Edwards. She is a community herbalist and an expert on the use of Cannabis for medical needs. You can find more about her here...http://www.blessedmaineherbs.com/

There are some foods that facilitate cleansing... click here http://ezinearticles.com/?The-Best-Clean...&id=676966
and here http://www.health-science-spirit.com/HF1-3.html

fairyfarmgirl

[Phoenix]

For what it's worth. There is a new type of astrology chart called the Human design chart.

Within that chart there are a few different types. Five different types. Each with a different strategy for living.

It is made up of nine chakras and the other things on it can tell you say: Where you're weaknesses are and where you are likely to get conditioned, or feel other people's energies as your own.

I recommend you get a chart done (it's free) stick with your strategy and authority, so you know which parts of the actual life you have made are your life or are the result of the not-self world. (As we say in human design terms).