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Overcoming Desires/Letting it Fall Away - reeay - 10-14-2012 Quote:18.5 Questioner: Thank you. I have a question here that I will read: “Much of the mystic tradition of seeking on Earth holds the belief that the individual self must be erased or obliterated and the material world ignored for the individual to reach ‘nirvana,’ as it is called, or enlightenment. What is the proper role of the individual self and its worldly activities to aid an individual to grow more into the Law of One?” So with any desire, the first step is the curiosity to understand this desire and to infuse it with love/light, then certain experiences will come our way that will allow us to understand ourselves differently (i.e., not based on that desire)? At this point, the desire is unnecessary as a catalyst for a person's growth? Ra suggests using imagination as a way to “work through” desires that are not in line with the Law of One. I’m assuming these are desires that are more dark, service-to-self, etc. Would there not be potential for the opposite effect, whereby imagining things that are not in lines with the Law of One may further confuse a person? It is my bias that this may potentially be dangerous/confusing, not according to what Ra said. Ra talks then about having patience and experience to analyze with care, and with compassion. This almost seems like we need a level of maturity (perhaps not the right word) and centeredness to engage in such journey. What is your perspective? I really do not like asking the “how do you do that” question because there are so many ways that fit each individual. The tools of astrology, tarot, tree of life, imagination etc., are available, yet not always accessible for one reason or another. Are there any other tools that Ra suggests or talks about or perhaps one that you find is helpful for those who are starting to think work on this issue? RE: Overcoming Desires/Letting it Fall Away - Bring4th_Austin - 10-14-2012 Ra's advice about experiencing desires is something I have not fully grasped either. For instance, what would be the difference between temptation and desire? Ra claims that it is necessary for a proper channel to deny the former, yet says that it is the proper role of an entity to experience the latter. Where is the distinction between what we are tempted to experience and what we desire to experience? I suppose it is worth note that Ra only addresses the concept of temptation in regards to channeling groups such as L/L, in where a 4th density negative entity attracted to the channel will "offer temptations" to the channel which, if given into, with detune the contact (such as aggrandizement of the channeling group or other types of selfish acts.) Perhaps these are the types of things that Ra suggests using our imaginations for rather than acting upon. But this doesn't seem to add up with the material for me, as denying temptation doesn't imply using the imagination to experience the desire. I think one very important part of the passage you quoted is this line here: "We have found it to be inappropriate in the extreme to encourage the overcoming of any desires..." This implies that Ra has had experience in this matter, and possibly at one point suggested to some entities to overcome desires. Perhaps at one point they believed that overcoming desires was an appropriate aspect of the STO path. However, they explain the results of such advice in a later passage: Quote:52.7 So in overcoming desires, we are simply "delaying the inevitable" with an issue that is begging to be addressed. Perhaps in some cases, it may seem better to "put off" the exploration of a certain desire for another lifetime, so we may concentrate on a particular task or objective before us. Understanding the consequences helps us make an (somewhat) informed decision. Ra goes on to explain the alternative to "overcoming" desires: Quote:Instead, we appreciate and recommend the use of your second verb in regard to the use of the will. Acceptance of self, forgiveness of self, and the direction of the will; this is the path towards the disciplined personality. Your faculty of will is that which is powerful within you as co-Creator. You cannot ascribe to this faculty too much importance. Thus it must be carefully used and directed in service to others for those upon the positively oriented path. This seems to suggest, to me, that to understand this issue of desires which seem to stray from our chosen path, we must understand the will and our ability to wield it as a co-Creator. I personally have never really been able to conceptualize "the will" and understand it in any sense that could help shed light on this issue. However, Ra does touch some on the idea of strengthening the will: Quote:42.12 Quote:49.8 And I always try to hold this sentiment when contemplating these types of things: Quote:52.11 RE: Overcoming Desires/Letting it Fall Away - caycegal - 10-14-2012 Very complex thread, not attempting to address all of it. Just the following: It has been my experience that there is a difference between "desires of the heart" and desires of my monkey mind. I have devoted considerable focus to learning to distinguish between them. I don't think desires of the heart can be ignored, because they come from a very deep and integral part of me. Desires of the monkey mind, however, are not even real - just attempts by my mind to get control of various situations. Example: I might have a deep heart desire for love and companionship. My monkey mind might think it has to attract a particular person to satisfy this desire. The monkey mind might be and probably is fooling itself. The heart-felt desire for love and companionship, however, is real and worthwhile cultivating. RE: Overcoming Desires/Letting it Fall Away - Siren - 10-14-2012 (10-14-2012, 06:36 PM)Bring4th_Austin Wrote: For instance, what would be the difference between temptation and desire? Temptation is a presented/offered catalyst (which may accepted or denied). Desire is related to the direction of will (i.e. what you desire to seek, pursue and experience). Quote:I personally have never really been able to conceptualize "the will" and understand it in any sense that could help shed light on this issue. The WILL is the quintessential principle behind all Creation/experience. It is the initial force/impulse of the One, the 1st distortion that lead to the focusing of Intelligent Infinity into the Original Thought, or "choice of attack" as Ra called it, that is the Logos, the active creative principle, or the 2nd distortion. Wherever your thoughts, focus and attention are, your shall find your will there, for behind all thought, behind all focus and behind all action, there is WILL, there is desire. All action is preceded by will. Without that initial impulse there is nothing. Will > Love > Light EDIT. Curiously enough, but not surprisingly, I just happened upon the following quote as I randomly skimmed through one of Q'uo's sessions right now: Quote:When you harness your will and focus it, you are a person of magic and power and that which you desire will come to you. RE: Overcoming Desires/Letting it Fall Away - Spaced - 10-14-2012 I think that this issue of desire vs. temptation is related to the archetype of The Lovers, the Transformation of the Mind. Here's what Ra has to say about it: Quote:99.8 Questioner: Thank you. In Card Number Six I see the Transformation of the Mind, the male with crossed arms, representing transformation. The transformation is possible either toward the left or the right-hand path. The path is beckoned or led by the female, the Potentiator. The one on the right has the serpent of wisdom at the brow and is fully clothed, the one on the left having less clothing and indicating that the Potentiator is more concerned or attracted to the physical as the left-hand path is chosen and more concerned and attracted to the mental as the right-hand path is chosen. The difference to me is the attitude regarding your desires. Do you act on them in the physical simply to satisfy your orange ray wants, or do you raise them up to higher energy center and think about WHY you want those things and whether you really need them? Once you consider the desire fully you can think about whether it would really benefit you to pursue it and then you can balance those desires with desires to serve others and follow the Law of One or simply let them fall away. Does this make sense? RE: Overcoming Desires/Letting it Fall Away - Bring4th_Austin - 10-14-2012 (10-14-2012, 08:39 PM)Siren Wrote:(10-14-2012, 06:36 PM)Bring4th_Austin Wrote: For instance, what would be the difference between temptation and desire? I'm not sure I see the distinction here. If there was no previous distortion/bias, then the offering of temptation would not even register as catalyst to the individual. Catalyst is only perceived as contrast due to our biases as an opportunity to explore these distortions. Ra says that encroaching negative entities may only energize pre-existing distortions. When Ra encourages an entity to experience all things desired, there is no specification or qualification; "all things desired." What more is temptation, then, besides amplification of already-present desires? Why could one reserve the right to accept or deny "offered" catalyst and not other forms of catalyst, whatever that may be? (10-14-2012, 09:00 PM)Spaced Wrote: The difference to me is the attitude regarding your desires. Do you act on them in the physical simply to satisfy your orange ray wants, or do you raise them up to higher energy center and think about WHY you want those things and whether you really need them? Once you consider the desire fully you can think about whether it would really benefit you to pursue it and then you can balance those desires with desires to serve others and follow the Law of One or simply let them fall away. To a degree, but doesn't it seem a bit problematic when we try to combine the idea of "experiencing all things desired" and "considering all things desired?" It seems to me those two things may not always equal the same experience. On top of that, removing the desire from the moment and subjecting it to study could potentially cause further distortion. "The key to balance may then be seen in the unstudied, spontaneous, and honest response of entities toward experiences, thus using experience to the utmost, then applying the balancing exercises and achieving the proper attitude for the most purified spectrum of energy center manifestation in violet ray. (41.19)" If we take the desire and think about it, how can we be sure that our distortions are not affecting our thought process in regards to this desire? Without the pure and raw desire it may not even be possible to be honest with ourselves about this desire. RE: Overcoming Desires/Letting it Fall Away - zenmaster - 10-15-2012 "Without the pure and raw desire it may not even be possible to be honest with ourselves about this desire." Of course it's possible to be honest without being in that moment. You're just addressing another aspect of it. The mere fact that it's compelling to address the desire in that manner means that you're opening up to accept it. Honesty is taking what you've already accepted of yourself, so far, and addressing something, regardless of method. The unstudied response is from the standpoint of what has been accepted. RE: Overcoming Desires/Letting it Fall Away - reeay - 10-15-2012 My circular and multi-directional reasoning mind is at odds with linearity of temptation&desire, as well as will&desire. They interact with each other, not necessarily one causing the other? Maybe I'm just complicating things but there were lots of points that seem to converge for me. Trying to understand these concepts with an example... E.g., When there is temptation, perhaps, these temptations are offered through the understanding of a person’s existing desires. Temptations may also influence a person to develop certain desires, or strengthen a previously small desire. The STO person’s desire to help others may be used by STS to tempt the STO into believing that rewards for service may be earned (fame, success, being in a community etc.,). The reward for service ignites the desire to have these rewards as the STO experiences a satisfaction from a reward. Yet the person with a discipline of personality, self knowledge, and control is able to observe what is occurring without immediately acting upon one’s desire. The desire is the catalyst thus must not be rejected as a temptation. For example, the STO’s desire to be a part of a community, with the understanding of Law of One may be in the form of collaborating and working with others. From a negative space, this may mean having groupies and such (like a cult-ish group). So why overcome this desire? It is a positive movement to desire a sense of community. Control as repression vs. control as moderation I took Ra’s mention of control as the capacity to moderate our impulses (thoughts/emotions/actions). For example, the “executive function” of our frontal lobe allows us to interpret information (memories, emotional memories, etc.,), develop various options, moderate our need to act immediately, execute response, and adjust them after obtaining external feedback/response. And perhaps our ability to make choices using more than our “monkey brains” but our intuition, our collective memory etc. So as Spaced pointed, the difference between using the trunk and root of the mind and using the lower energy rays or higher energy rays . If we were to have no control, we would be reacting upon our emotions and past emotional memories of our experiences, thus, in physical terms that would be like an “amygdala hijack” where the person is unable to moderate impulses and such to make decisions as the emotional charge becomes an overwhelming force. The decision is based more on survival. When we are able to moderate and use our other capacities, we are able to step back and use other forms of knowing and understanding and decision making abilities. So a disciplined personality would then, be able to step back and understand one’s desires to make better choices. Better choices could shift the nature of the desire that is more in tune with love/light. There's opportunity for understanding and accepting self without running on survival mode and reactive emotionality. The focused attention of meditation or using imagination would then be instrumental to silently observe what is happening and more open to “communicating” with guidance. Perhaps then we may hear the “desire of the heart” as caycegal put? I always tell this to people... my mentor advises “think with your heart and sense with your brain.” I wonder if “heart” is an integration of body, mind, spirit? Austin, 49.8, very useful thank you. Though I still believe that we need to even come to a point where we may sit in silence and without judgment. RE: Overcoming Desires/Letting it Fall Away - Patrick - 10-15-2012 (10-14-2012, 09:00 PM)Spaced Wrote: ... This is extremely helpful my friend. Thank you so much! RE: Overcoming Desires/Letting it Fall Away - native - 10-15-2012 (10-14-2012, 09:00 PM)Spaced Wrote: The difference to me is the attitude regarding your desires. Do you act on them in the physical simply to satisfy your orange ray wants, or do you raise them up to higher energy center and think about WHY you want those things and whether you really need them? Once you consider the desire fully you can think about whether it would really benefit you to pursue it and then you can balance those desires with desires to serve others and follow the Law of One or simply let them fall away. I can agree with that statement, but it may not always be applicable. Perhaps a good definition of temptation is stimulation of past experience that has been proven to not be beneficial (energizing orange distortion further), whereas desire is actually pointing to orange blockage that needs to be experienced. (10-14-2012, 10:19 PM)Bring4th_Austin Wrote: If we take the desire and think about it, how can we be sure that our distortions are not affecting our thought process in regards to this desire? Without the pure and raw desire it may not even be possible to be honest with ourselves about this desire. I've been focusing on communication between me and and ex lately, and it can be confusing. I've tried holding things in (because I know the response which at times can just push her away further) and attempting to accept what the experience is communicating to me (inpouring), yet the urge to express myself is still there. Once I do that, the energy is released and I'm able to be more accepting of the catalyst. An issue I'm having is that I wonder if this desire to have certain perspectives addressed (i.e. my needs) isn't a "giving without expectation of return", or if it's the internal "polarities" waging a battle. "The new material is this: once the green ray has been achieved, the ability of the entity to enter blue ray is immediate and is only awaiting the efforts of the individual. The indigo ray is opened only through considerable discipline and practice largely having to do with acceptance of self, not only as the polarized and balanced self but as the Creator, as an entity of infinite worth. This will begin to activate the indigo ray." Perhaps a positively polarized individual has difficulty with the indigo ray, because that's where our positive and negative attributes are harmonized. I want to give always, but there is that part that pulls sometimes and says "me, me". So I feel like wanting my needs to be recognized is almost a form of control. RE: Overcoming Desires/Letting it Fall Away - native - 10-15-2012 More to chew on. I'll have to think about this.. Quote:80.11 Questioner: Could I say, then, that implicit in the process of becoming adept is the seeming polarization towards service to self because the adept becomes disassociated with many of his kind? RE: Overcoming Desires/Letting it Fall Away - Patrick - 10-15-2012 (10-15-2012, 10:14 AM)Icaro Wrote: ... Oh yes, that is the great work of balancing that comes with indigo ray work. Using the veiled 3d environment for this is very helpful. (10-15-2012, 11:24 AM)Icaro Wrote: More to chew on. I'll have to think about this.. Here is even more to ponder on this interesting subject... http://www.llresearch.org/transcripts/issues/2007/2007_0211.aspx Q'uo Wrote:...In this regard we would suggest that the skillful choice is always to work on the self without regard for working with other entities. Service to others, working upon what you perceive needs to be done in the world, begins and ends within yourself. Until the point at which you are asked specific questions that you may answer in what you hope is a spiritually helpful manner, the work you do on yourself is sufficient and more than adequate in terms of how you may affect the consciousness of planet Earth. Change yourself and you change the world. That is how powerful you really are... http://www.llresearch.org/transcripts/issues/1995/1995_0924.aspx Q'uo Wrote:...The focus upon the self in the means of balancing distortions and looking for ways to understand more of what is occurring within the self is an activity that may seem to some to be full of pride and ego, yet we would suggest that such a concentration of an entity’s attention upon its own self in that manner is a means by which a seeker grows, for it needs to be aware of the activity of intellect, of emotion, and of the spirit that moves within one’s own being. Yet that information is used only to temper the steel, shall we say, the character of the entity, and not to impose this character upon another... http://www.llresearch.org/transcripts/issues/2001/2001_0204.aspx Q'uo Wrote:...Many times, it seems to each, that there is no way that one person can be of service, that one person’s light can make a difference. However, this instrument is fond of saying that in a dark place the light of one candle can be seen for quite a distance. Metaphysically, this is far more true even than the physical truth of candles and sight. Each of you makes a significant difference to the lightening of the planet as well as to the lightening of your soul. For when each of you does one, each of you is doing the other. To work on the self is to work on the world. Indeed, to work on the self is the most direct and effective way to work on the outer world in a metaphysical sense... RE: Overcoming Desires/Letting it Fall Away - AnthroHeart - 10-15-2012 I don't know but my desires seem pretty powerful and important to me. RE: Overcoming Desires/Letting it Fall Away - reeay - 10-15-2012 I really like the Qu'o quotes that Patrick posted. Thank you. Even if a certain desire is difficult to understand and work through right now, with inner "work," our capacity to be able to understand and accept ourselves for what it is develops over time. Perhaps we may be able to see our desires in a new light with new self knowledge and more space for honesty. So perhaps what we could not do couple years ago, we could do now. E.g., if we all look at something we really wanted when we were teenagers. Looking at it now, is it the same? Might if we have not integrated that aspect of our self that still is attached to a certain desire. Also I wonder if Ra's replies are contextually based on the question, e.g., re: temptation... is that a specific temptation of STS trying to tempt an STO? Is it a temptation that we experience in general? I thought it was a specific type of temptation that Ra was talking about (STS tempting STO). Doesn't seem to fit with our general temptations. Or is he talking about desires and temptations in general? Another contextual issue re: desires. The original question was about the desire to "that the individual self must be erased or obliterated and the material world ignored for the individual to reach ‘nirvana,’ as it is called, or enlightenment." Within this context, the answer is about the desire to give up our desires for the "ego" and "material world." RE: Overcoming Desires/Letting it Fall Away - βαθμιαίος - 10-15-2012 I don't remember Ra saying to deny temptations. I think they just pointed out that channels would be offered temptations. If the temptations are indeed tempting, imagining them as Ra suggested might be a helpful response. In Don's case, he apparently wasn't even aware of the temptations he was being offered: Quote:67.23 Questioner: I personally have felt no effect that I am aware of. Is it possible for you to tell me how we are offered this service? However, that was in 1981. I wonder if by 1984 he was more receptive to the temptations to despair, etc. RE: Overcoming Desires/Letting it Fall Away - Patrick - 10-15-2012 (10-15-2012, 04:09 PM)βαθμιαίος Wrote: ... Probably. Or they decided to really temper with Don, the LOO being much too good information and so much too dangerous for the plans of domination of our planet. RE: Overcoming Desires/Letting it Fall Away - Bring4th_Austin - 10-15-2012 (10-15-2012, 03:32 PM)rie Wrote: Also I wonder if Ra's replies are contextually based on the question, e.g., re: temptation... is that a specific temptation of STS trying to tempt an STO? Is it a temptation that we experience in general? I thought it was a specific type of temptation that Ra was talking about (STS tempting STO). Doesn't seem to fit with our general temptations. Or is he talking about desires and temptations in general? There definitely is some context involved which may be confusing my understanding. Out of 11 mentions of temptation in the material, 9 are dealing specifically with psychic greeting from STS entities offering temptation to channels. The other 2 are dealing with the "temptation to feel different from those who are less intelligent and less strong," or temptation towards elitism. What I am stuck on is the idea that we cannot be tempted with something unless there is an existing predisposition. I view this as our desires being highlighted, rather than random and spontaneous temptations. That's perhaps something else I am not understanding properly. (10-15-2012, 04:09 PM)βαθμιαίος Wrote: I don't remember Ra saying to deny temptations. I think they just pointed out that channels would be offered temptations. I suppose I am inferring something that wasn't really there, however, it seems to me that Ra is saying that in order for channels to continue offering useful material, temptation cannot be given into. Also, giving into offered temptations results in polarization for the STS being offering. Do you think that in offering the self to be a channel, one must sacrifice their evolution in order to remain a clear channel? Also, do you think that polarity is won by the offering entity if the person uses their imagination to explore the temptation? In a way, it is still giving in to the temptation. Quote:In Don's case, he apparently wasn't even aware of the temptations he was being offered: Do you think this means that he wasn't aware of the temptations or that he was aware of them and chose to ignore them? RE: Overcoming Desires/Letting it Fall Away - βαθμιαίος - 10-15-2012 (10-15-2012, 05:00 PM)Bring4th_Austin Wrote: I suppose I am inferring something that wasn't really there, however, it seems to me that Ra is saying that in order for channels to continue offering useful material, temptation cannot be given into. Also, giving into offered temptations results in polarization for the STS being offering. Do you think imagining oneself in the tempting situation is giving in to the temptation? It doesn't seem that way to me. (10-15-2012, 05:00 PM)Bring4th_Austin Wrote: Do you think that in offering the self to be a channel, one must sacrifice their evolution in order to remain a clear channel? No, because I think they could work through the temptation just like they work through other desires "not consonant with the Law of One." (10-15-2012, 05:00 PM)Bring4th_Austin Wrote: Do you think this means that he wasn't aware of the temptations or that he was aware of them and chose to ignore them? Maybe he was aware of his tendency to doubt the self but didn't realize it was being Orion energized. (10-15-2012, 05:00 PM)Bring4th_Austin Wrote: Also, do you think that polarity is won by the offering entity if the person uses their imagination to explore the temptation? In a way, it is still giving in to the temptation. Just saw this part. I guess that's the crux. Is it wrong to give in to a temptation mentally? RE: Overcoming Desires/Letting it Fall Away - Bring4th_Austin - 10-15-2012 It was a ninja edit :p I think that's a good question, and I suppose I would lean towards it not being "wrong" to explore temptation mentally. I still struggle with the idea of "the will" though, because it seems to me that the focus of one's attention is the focus of one's will. The question I would have is, "is the depolarizing effects of directing one's attention away from one's chosen path negated if the intent is to ultimately distill and interpret a service-to-others result from the experience?" RE: Overcoming Desires/Letting it Fall Away - βαθμιαίος - 10-15-2012 I'm not sure it's depolarizing. You're accepting your complete self, vainglorious, despairing -- warts and all. That seems like a profoundly positive action. RE: Overcoming Desires/Letting it Fall Away - reeay - 10-15-2012 How about Jesus and the temptation to exercise his power over others? Did he have predispositions that correlated with the specific temptation? Quote:17.16 Questioner: When Jesus of Nazareth incarnated was there an attempt by the Orion group to discredit him in some way? I don't see why it can go the other way? Is there someone in our history that had no predisposition who, through temptations, created desires oriented to STS? Is it possible to have desires on a collective level that we may not be aware of individually that may be brought up to the forefront with temptations offered? RE: Overcoming Desires/Letting it Fall Away - Siren - 10-15-2012 (10-14-2012, 10:19 PM)Bring4th_Austin Wrote: I'm not sure I see the distinction here. If there was no previous distortion/bias, then the offering of temptation would not even register as catalyst to the individual. Maybe not, but temptation needn't be blatantly obvious, and non-recognition of a catalysts/opportunity doesn't deny the fact that the catalyst/opportunity is nevertheless being presented. Oftentimes both a temptation and catalyst may be very subtle. Quote:What more is temptation, then, besides amplification of already-present desires? Quote:Ra says that encroaching negative entities may only energize pre-existing distortions. Naturally. To tempt somebody who has never in his life had any interest whatsoever in alcohol to get drunk would prove rather futile, for example. Temptation will always aim at the "chinks in the armor," as it were, to bring afloat and amplify already existing biases and distortions, negative (self-serving) desires, as well as repressed and subconscious desires. Each entity holds several desires/distortions within itself. Not all of them hold the same degree of priority, purity or intensity. Some desires are so faint they may not even be considered/recognized as desires, but nevertheless exist, perhaps "hidden" (repressed?) within the deep recesses of the psyche. Quote:Why could one reserve the right to accept or deny "offered" catalyst and not other forms of catalyst, whatever that may be? You can accept or deny any presented catalyst, not just in the guise of "temptation." Quote:When Ra encourages an entity to experience all things desired, there is no specification or qualification; "all things desired." This derives from the very simple fact that repression of desire is not helpful/useful/beneficial for neither positive or negative entity, and is ultimately counter-productive. All distortions and desires need be dealt with accordingly sooner or later. The original desire is that all entities seek and become One. Everything else are viable avenues/choices of experience, or distortions of that original desire. It is ultimately recognized that the One will experience all things desired, and thus know Itself. RE: Overcoming Desires/Letting it Fall Away - βαθμιαίος - 10-15-2012 (10-15-2012, 05:45 PM)rie Wrote: I don't see why it can go the other way? Is there someone in our history that had no predisposition who, through temptations, created desires oriented to STS? Well, speaking of context, it's true that Ra gave this advice to three specific individuals and that it was to some extent a follow-up on the healing protocol that was, presumably, geared towards Wanderers. So maybe it wouldn't or doesn't work for everyone. For me, though, it's been very powerfully healing. RE: Overcoming Desires/Letting it Fall Away - reeay - 10-15-2012 Don, Jesus, and Carla? Edit: Sorry - I get it now Don, Jim, and Carla... Jesus did not receive advice from Ra lol RE: Overcoming Desires/Letting it Fall Away - native - 10-16-2012 Thanks for the quotes Patrick. I know one example of temptation was in reference to Jim and his move to Portland. He was to become a part of some lightworker oriented group, and it potentially involved money I believe. |