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My story - christine10 - 09-22-2012
Hey all,
I guess Im really not sure if you would call this a story or a question...maybe both....hopefully one of you nice people could tell me!!
K well first Ill start with the fact that I come from a very large family Im # 10 of 12 7 boys 6 girls all from same parent and all very close I LOVE my siblings and parents very much we all seem to be quite alike(i understand how that is now) but all that aside I have always felt alone and that I dont understand,Ive had my issues with drugs as a young adult but never have done any harm to others,not a criminal still knew right from wrong,my parents did an amazing job all my brother and sisters are college grads,very successful,great familys,I joke about the smart gene being streatched a lil thin by the time me and my brother and sister were born..hahaha...but we all have good hearts and would never hurt anyone!! People always say the great thing about being from large family was you always had someone to play with but never seemed to be the case with me I always seemed to be alone or maybe I should say FELT alone!
ALWAYS had this longing to go home and am very excited(now dont take this part wrong) to return to the creator,I seriously cant understand why everyone isnt... OMG everything youve ever been told about the afterlife has been AWESOME, I cant wait plus I have some questions I wanna ask him/her....hehehe.... Ive also ALWAYS been hyper sensitive,VERY emotional,I dont think a day goes by that I dont cry sometimes I dont even know why it can be very overwhelming like theyr not my feelings,it takes my breath away sometimes but since reading The Law of One Ive come to understand why,everything just makes complete sense to me now and in a strange way it makes even the most horric things that happen in this world alot easier to swallow, it has been sooooo helpful,its AMAZING!!
ALSO Iam a HUGE giver,LOVE,LOVE,LOVE to give I get soooooooo excited, as a child I use to find old(I didnt know it was junk seemed like great stuff to me...hehehe) things or even things we used around my home and would wrap them up and give to all my neighbors, they would then return stuff to my parents, Im sure they all thought I was a goofy kid....hahaha....it just makes me very happy to give to others but recieving has always been difficult for me it makes me feels uncomfortable I get very anxious almost like I dont deserve gifts yet I dont think I feel that way but I dont know!!
Anyways so I guess thats my story and my question is ....am I a wanderer and just by me asking does that mean Im awake and what should I do now, I want to do EVERYTHING I can and do it right, I feel like my job is to spread the word,not push anything on people but just make them aware of whats going on and the choices they have but I could be wrong,I understand really my only job is to love and I do but I want more!!
Any suggestions anyone?
Thank you all for your help and love!!
Christine
RE: My story - βαθμιαίος - 09-22-2012
Hi Christine, and welcome!
Quote:what should I do now
Ra said that wanderers have three basic functions, two general (doubling the planet's love/light and serving as a shepherd/beacon) and one specific (that they would have to discover).
Plenum started a nice thread about that here: http://www.bring4th.org/forums/showthread.php?tid=4217
RE: My story - Spaced - 09-22-2012
Welcome to the forums Christine!
In answer to your question I think the best way to serve the creator is to continue to be your generous and loving self. Share your love, share your wisdom.
If the concept of being a wanderer appeals to you then explore that angle, think about why it appeals to you.Much love.
RE: My story - Lycen - 09-24-2012
Hello Christine
Are you a wanderer? Why yes you are, as all are, wandering this plane looking for the spark's of truth that stirr our inner light .)
If you mean by Ra's definition, then like Spaced said, explore the idea and see where it leads you!
Weather you are awake or not is something you have to decide for you're self. As there are many definitions to that word.
But by my understanding of that word, you are. By looking past the "reality" that has been presented. You took the steps needed to seek what is the truth. Now here you are, as so many others have landed
Quench you're thirst for understating for anything that you want to know. As only you know, what is needed next for you're growth
Welcome to B4 sister, may it serve you well
RE: My story - Cyan - 09-24-2012
I handed my childhood friend a broken down umbrella husk without the plastic covering on top. So that it looked like a sort of rifle thing that you could press and it made the swoosh sound and then you'd have to pull it back in.
Dude grew to be my best childhood friend, we grew apart later on, dunno for sure what his parents thought about my gift(but they hated me so, suppose hating the gift would be no surprise) but he said it was the best gift he got (years later as well).
Life works in funny ways.
RE: My story - kycahi - 09-26-2012
Welcome Christine! I say continue doing kind things for others and don't worry about "spreading the word," as in pushing the Law of One on others. Your examples will inspire more STO behavior around you and, on occasion, someone will ask about your personal philosophy. You then might choose to mention the Law. If not, then at least urge them to choose a service path and your preference is service to others.
RE: My story - christine10 - 10-09-2012
Thanks everyone for all the great advice and input,it is as I thought it was...........AWESOME!!!
Iam sooooooo excited to be on this trip, but I do fear that Im getting on all my friends last nerve....hahahaha.....I just hate for anyone to be left behind, so really try to stress how important it is for all to pick a side, get on board, trains a leaving and its not later its NOW........personally, I find it hard to understand what the hold up is, just seems very obvious to me but I get it everyone learns at their own pace.....patients is not my friend....hehehe......INFACT I know that IT is one of my big lessons this timearound, seems Im always in situations where PATIENTS is the key and in the last yr o boy have I been tested, its one thing after another.....PATIENTS AND TOLERANCE.....combined with some very stuborn,unreasonable people is sooooooooo hard to have and I probably failed miserably a cpl times but it did make me relize I have NO patients....hahaha...and that has to change so I may have failed test but the test was a success!!
Anywho.....Thanks again all and see ya on the otherside!!
PEACE!!
RE: My story - reeay - 10-09-2012
We don't fail we just try again until it's good to go
RE: My story - BlatzAdict - 10-09-2012
no matter what age, our stories are all the same, isn't it wonderful?
RE: My story - christine10 - 10-10-2012
(10-09-2012, 10:31 PM)BlatzAdict Wrote: no matter what age, our stories are all the same, isn't it wonderful?
YESSSSSSSSSSSS.....which is just validation, for me anyways, that Im walking "THE" path!!!
wooooohooooooo
RE: My story - GentleReckoning - 10-10-2012
Man, imagine if we had been exposed to this from birth!
RE: My story - BlatzAdict - 10-10-2012
(10-10-2012, 12:22 AM)GentleReckoning Wrote: Man, imagine if we had been exposed to this from birth!
i would not have been happy growing up where i lived and instead would want to live with my group
RE: My story - christine10 - 10-10-2012
(10-10-2012, 12:22 AM)GentleReckoning Wrote: Man, imagine if we had been exposed to this from birth!
Think its always been with us.....we just forgot....right?
Or are we talking like our parents raised us with The Law of One being our bible?
Your right that would have been ideal....damn it now I wish I was young enough to have another kid cause I would soooooooo do that...hehehe
Do you think a child that was exposed since birth would be completely balanced at a very young age?
hmmmmmm
RE: My story - GentleReckoning - 10-10-2012
Well, the reason I said exposed was because if you were raised with it as a religion there is a strong possibility that you might reject it. Teenagers will be teenagers!
I think the more powerful thing that parents would be able to do would be to live healthy, balanced, spiritual lives. The children would definitely catch on and wonder why their parents were different.
I think that a child exposed from a young age to these concepts and practices would have great opportunity to live a balanced, creative, and loving life.
RE: My story - BlatzAdict - 10-10-2012
most children i meet who are brought up with it depends on their initial decision to reject or accept what is around them in home life vs what is around them outside