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There's a devil in my head! - Cainite - 06-28-2017
There's a voice, making funny comments in my head.
Specially when I interact with others.
It also attacks me.. makes fun of my every fault, weakness, and wrong decisions in my past.
He is very dark. his humor, very cold.
I'm having trouble remaining decent within my own being when he's there.
I know he is my own negative part.. but I thought he may be another entity from fifth density negative probably..
Any ideas?
RE: There's a devil in my head! - Minyatur - 06-28-2017
Just consider it as unhealed aspect of yourself or as an external entity that has an unhealed aspect of itself that resonates with an unhealed aspect of yourself.
Personally, anytime I feel like neggies are trying to mess with me (or the people around me) I merely feel like "oh these poor little things unconsciously seek my guidance in their healing, I'll do well to remember each and every of them once I pass away from this world "
If it is indeed a 5th density entity, how do you feel about that fact? I have a friend who has one he seems entangled with and he didn't like much to be made aware of it and most of my interactions with this entity were much like "mind your own things, this has nothing to do with you". Nothing to do with me? hahaha, am I not one with all things? Anyway.. I can feel they have a form of karma and even that my friend allows it to happen on a more unconscious level but it is not for me at the moment to dive too deeply into their karma.
RE: There's a devil in my head! - Cainite - 06-28-2017
(06-28-2017, 04:56 PM)Minyatur Wrote: Just consider it as unhealed aspect of yourself or as an external entity that has an unhealed aspect of itself that resonates with an unhealed aspect of yourself.
Personally, anytime I feel like neggies are trying to mess with me (or the people around me) I merely feel like "oh these poor little things unconsciously seek my guidance in their healing, I'll do well to remember each and every of them once I pass away from this world "
If it is indeed a 5th density entity, how do you feel about that fact? I have a friend who has one he seems entangled with and he didn't like much to be made aware of it and most of my interactions with this entity were much like "mind your own things, this has nothing to do with you". Nothing to do with me? hahaha, am I not one with all things? Anyway.. I can feel they have a form of karma and even that my friend allows it to happen on a more unconscious level but it is not for me at the moment to dive too deeply into their karma.
I wouldn't fear him if he was a higher density negative being.. I'd just hope he had sth better to do!
You're right.. I'm quite unhealed... specially these days.. my beloved is in love with another person.. and I don't know how to feel about that. I'm not even jealous.
I'm quitting drugs and I've also been unable to walk for a few days. I just sit here in meditation all day and all night struggling within myself. I even hate eating food. I'm quite a mess. but wisdom solves everything, right?
RE: There's a devil in my head! - sjel - 06-28-2017
I think it is best to see all negative entities as your own thoughts, a negative aspect of yourself, as you said. As in, truly yourself. Even go so far as to see it as being on your team! That negative entity is actually helping you to grow. Also it means that you have reached a point spiritually that is quite powerful, to be attracting such intense energy. There is no such thing as regression - you have progressed to this point, of being influenced by deeper energies.
I've never had prolonged negative contact that I'm aware of, but these are my thoughts.
Also I am in a similar situation right now, barely moving for a few days, just meditating and relentlessly observing my thoughts, discarding the unnecessary. Good to be off drugs, unless it's weed in my opinion.
The worst darkness means you are on the brink of some great change, I have found
RE: There's a devil in my head! - xise - 06-28-2017
The fear of the voice probably strengthens it's ability to communicate, whatever it is
RE: There's a devil in my head! - Night Owl - 06-28-2017
We tend to think of our thoughts as ours, like we generate them, but if you think about it, how much thoughts have you actually generated yourself. Most likely none. Our minds are like radio receivers, the thoughts are stimulated into us. They are of a reflective nature. Our thoughts resonate with our experience, how we respond to our experience, and our surrounding. We absorb some of them from others very often. And so seeing the voices as external might give them power over you, or taking away the power that you have, while integrating them within, will give the power back to you as the seperation will no longer be energized. Think of each of these voices as you under certain circumstances. What would you reply to them if you would be your higher self or the nest version of yourself?
RE: There's a devil in my head! - Cainite - 06-29-2017
(06-28-2017, 08:04 PM)xise Wrote: The fear of the voice probably strengthens it's ability to communicate, whatever it is
Yeah.. the opposite force wants me to die.. or turn my back on my people, and pursue selfish or base desires.
People say I look like Jesus but I always think of Moses to be more similar to me.. I don't want to die in a saddened state.
(06-28-2017, 09:56 PM)Night Owl Wrote: We tend to think of our thoughts as ours, like we generate them, but if you think about it, how much thoughts have you actually generated yourself. Most likely none. Our minds are like radio receivers, the thoughts are stimulated into us. They are of a reflective nature. Our thoughts resonate with our experience, how we respond to our experience, and our surrounding. We absorb some of them from others very often. And so seeing the voices as external might give them power over you, or taking away the power that you have, while integrating them within, will give the power back to you as the seperation will no longer be energized. Think of each of these voices as you under certain circumstances. What would you reply to them if you would be your higher self or the nest version of yourself?
Yes, I know everything's me.. inside and outside my mortal shell.
And my answer to all the negativity influencing me is not something I'm aware of right now. My chakras are quite drained of their former energy right now and I'm just trying to make things right and return to before I was targeted by the opposite force for for my own lack of wisdom.. that would be 3 or 4 years ago.
Hopefully I will have less regrets this way.
Anyways, Thank everyone on this forum who has supported/understood me since I joined this forum.
RE: There's a devil in my head! - GentleReckoning - 06-29-2017
In my experience, it would be an aspect of the 'higher' self of the male that your beloved is involved with. And if that is the case, then if you learn to stick up for yourself amidst these assaults then you may win back her favor. (positive/negative offering)
I would of course advise you to use this freedom from her as a portal to rapidly learn and grow independent of externalized validation of the self. The Disney love story is generally a trap...
If you want any further help, hit me up. This kind of stuff is my bread and butter, day in and day out. :p
RE: There's a devil in my head! - Cainite - 06-29-2017
(06-29-2017, 06:02 AM)GentleReckoning Wrote: In my experience, it would be an aspect of the 'higher' self of the male that your beloved is involved with. And if that is the case, then if you learn to stick up for yourself amidst these assaults then you may win back her favor. (positive/negative offering)
I would of course advise you to use this freedom from her as a portal to rapidly learn and grow independent of externalized validation of the self. The Disney love story is generally a trap...
If you want any further help, hit me up. This kind of stuff is my bread and butter, day in and day out. :p
The guy is a mutual friend and I have love and respect for him.. he's very wise and well read. and she also loves me a lot. but she started to see me as her brother after some years since we stopped having sex completely because of the lack of desire. the first two years of our relationship was magical though..
I don't have the desire to win her back. I will love her eternally anyway and her happiness is my greatest wish.
And about hitting you up.. well I'm very embarrassed to even post here since my honesty makes me say embarrassing things about myself..
I delete most of the things I write before posting them here.
RE: There's a devil in my head! - smc - 06-29-2017
if you can manage to run a warm bath and add a lot of salt (for purification) pop yourself in for a good long soak... your wolf picture is lovely.... take care of yourself like you would your best friend... do nice things for yourself... yes - "salt" keeps coming to mind... can you get to an ocean? or a river?
even a nice piece of chocolate will help...
take care
RE: There's a devil in my head! - GentleReckoning - 06-29-2017
(06-29-2017, 06:46 AM)Cainite Wrote:(06-29-2017, 06:02 AM)GentleReckoning Wrote: In my experience, it would be an aspect of the 'higher' self of the male that your beloved is involved with. And if that is the case, then if you learn to stick up for yourself amidst these assaults then you may win back her favor. (positive/negative offering)
I would of course advise you to use this freedom from her as a portal to rapidly learn and grow independent of externalized validation of the self. The Disney love story is generally a trap...
If you want any further help, hit me up. This kind of stuff is my bread and butter, day in and day out. :p
The guy is a mutual friend and I have love and respect for him.. he's very wise and well read. and she also loves me a lot. but she started to see me as her brother after some years since we stopped having sex completely because of the lack of desire. the first two years of our relationship was magical though..
If you stopped having sex, then be happy for her that she is in a sexual relationship that she enjoys... that's what a friend would feel. If you can do this, you will be set for relationships for the rest of your life. This is the strongest cord in our society.... cutting it gives you cahones of unbelievable size when everyone else is looking to throw their life away for someone else.
RE: There's a devil in my head! - third-density-being - 06-29-2017
For some reason it is very hard for me to work with an idea of another-Being within me who might be responsible for some aspects of my expression. In fact it would be harder for me to work with such issue, if I was to look at this matter that way.
Is it possible that You are using your inner lector to express your own thoughts which for some reason doesn’t match with your “default” Self (Self that You and Others think You are / your own image of Self / social-Self). The very same inner lector We all use reading books for example. Each of Us have many different urges within that are usually ignored / suppressed. They may manifest self as compulsive behaviors or spontaneous forms of expression from which some may not be “proper” (due to social consensus / social norms/rules / accepted forms of living within the society). If that would be the case, it would suggest that there’re too many issues that are being suppressed/ignored and there’s no more inner tolerance for hard-filtering approach towards spontaneous Self.
When described by You phenomenon repeats itself, stop and listen. Give it all the space it requires and try to see it as a whole. Face Self openly and allow for spontaneous expression. That may bring You some inner freedom.